journal

2011-06-13T01:03:00.003+08:00

A test for the helmet:

Knowing that the wall is ahead, put on the helmet and drove straight into it. The helmet determines the future direction of the driver.

2011-06-09T02:04:00.001+08:00

新领悟：根本不应该有任何期望才不会有失望。

为何明知山有虎，偏向虎山行呢？是所谓的道义吗？为何明知道结果还要让自己再一次去面对同样的局面呢？原来我根本没我想像中的那么坚强。理智上完完全全的了解，就过不了自己心里的那一关。人们常说时间能补偿一切，但我想对我来说不管用。是时候我该适着改变自己的想法和心态。如果再来一次，让我有选择性的话，我想我没有勇气做出同样的决定。

同样的，有些事往往都出乎预料。没期望真的没那么失望。心里固然是好受些，但其实这是在逃避。而我，我想我选择了逃避。

另外，只要不比较，我相信人生一定会更美好。但我想我做不到。

2011-05-16T22:56:00.003+08:00

perhaps i should not have pluck up the courage to see the answers. so dead this time. i seriously think i need to retake that module. not joking.

to think i just regain my appetite today and satisfy my craving at 85 for dinner. all hopes are dash. i have a very bad feeling for this semester. i am really afraid when i need to register for my modules and when the results come. how to enjoy the holidays?

2011-05-10T18:22:00.000+08:00

kill me please.

2011-05-06T12:16:00.002+08:00

DAMN IT! WHY AM I SO CARELESS???? it's a bad start. :@:@:@:@:@:@:@ angry with myself! from a potential pass to infinite uncertainty. :( shall starve myself as a punishment and relieve some angriness in me.

gosh, tell me what am i doing please.

2011-03-15T23:47:00.003+08:00

finally had my bit of exercise after 6 months ever since FOC. but exercise 1 hour, paralysed 1 week. =.= is it worth? =/

cca is burning up my weekends until mid april. =( and mid term is next week alr! the sem is halfway through and studies have been lag by half the sem.. but i am having an enriching sem so far besides studies. trying to enjoy life now and spend more time with family if possible.

the world is really getting more crazy. disasters are here once again. japan's earthquake has created tsunami and explosion of nulcear plants which are affecting so many people out there and so many deaths.. tragic once again. =( praying for all those suffering. 人生好脆弱.

it makes me think of this: is 2012 really going to be the end of the world?

2011-02-12T23:49:00.002+08:00

last week have been very busy everyday with doing keychains for canvassing. just 1 more day and it will be over. although there has been slp deprive but i guess it was fun and great to work with those people. =) i don't want to go back to study life although i know i have to and need to. seriously, i don't think i am 读书的料. sigh.. 没有心读书啊！怎么办？？？

just now, got a friend who told me that she and our other friends think i have changed.. is tt a gd thing? i guess i am much more talkative now.. but she sounds like i have changed for the worse. did i? :( people do change. that's normal. but have i change for the worse? =(

2011-01-09T01:10:00.002+08:00

first post in 2011!

2010 is over in a blink with work + results + taiwan + start of uni! has been quite an eventful year. hope 2011 will be much better!

has been wanting to learn sign language in 2010 and i am fulfilling it. =) currently in love with song signing! xD hope our performance goes well next sat and sun!

2010-10-21T22:16:00.003+08:00

yay! it's recess week this week! i have been enjoying my 1 week break at home. lazing and slacking around. really love this kind of feeling. :D

had a really good time with my mum and dad on sat. although its just a simple shopping session to ntuc, we spent 3 hours out happily! xD just that my sis was too busy to spend time with us.

slack my way through the weekend and these 2 days.. =/ i had wsc camp on mon and tues. mon's camp was quite a waste of time due to the long waits that we had. and most probably whom who will just know each other for one day. tues was HI camp. this camp is much more useful as we will be working together for the next 1.5 years. its quite fun and the most luxury camp i had so far! we can sleep by 11pm and i had a whole single bed to myself at aloha loyang chalet. haha.. =) met nice people and had fun together during the camp. :)

had a long nice chat with si on wed. =) we talk about social issues which not many people will do with their friends. haha.. but i love the things which we talk about. ;) learn something or at least it makes me think of things outside me and my poor academic. i hope i really can commit myself to the learning of sign language and the service after that. =)

recently, the haze is really very bad!! it is choking up my respiratory system, creating never ending cough and i believe for many others too. but i guess the Earth is suffering much more. :( so let's try to reduce, reuse and recycle!

mum has gone overseas with aunts and friends. no one at home to take care of me for the rest of the week. :( i realise i miss home and my family much more than i thought i will be. but i am still independent and can be independent when i am out there on my own and in the hostel.

2010-10-08T01:09:00.003+08:00

feeling very frustrated now. for the past few days and weeks, i have been staring at my tutorial questions for at least 2 hours maybe just achieving one question or none and blank for the rest. i can't find people to teach me when i need! how? totally helpless.. and hence, result in me going in tutorial without doing it. it can't goes on like this. i have been making real stupid careless mistake during quiz which i am super pissed off with myself and also leaving pages of blanks on the quiz question paper which cost 15% of my grade plus the copying during the graded lab. my studies is so screwed up now. how? :'(

2010-09-21T01:24:00.004+08:00

back from olivia ong's campus concert today! there was a surprise special guest performer too and that is 刘力扬. =) my first time going for such concert. it was nice!

its the 4th week in uni alr! slowly getting use to the environment and hall life. but i can stay that uni life is not like what i thought it will be. totally NOT like what other people will say that it is easier than JC life. its much worse! a senior once told me: "every semester is like an A levels" i totally agree.

what i have been learning throughout the past 2 years in JC for mathematics is now all integrated into just 1 module. its killing. totally lost in those lecture notes and slides. cannot cope and don't understand. tutorials don't know how to do. but what is worse off is that there are not many people around who can or willingly to teach and share. =( many people in uni are superficial. but they are mostly muggers and damn smart. ok, maybe i shouldn't generalize.

i guess its just a process, when i first started JC i hate it too. now its just another phase of life. i just hope i will survive well through then. its just the beginning now. i had another failed attempt in interview. sigh.. =( level of confidence just keeps on dropping. anyway, everything and everyone around me is going to be much more hectic soon. i am going to learn sign language soon! =) hope i master it well.

play hard but more importantly, i need to STUDY HARD! motivation! and help needed for maths!

i miss home and my friends too. felt a strong urge of guiltiness plus xin tong towards my beloved family members. =(

2010-09-07T02:20:00.002+08:00

I TOTALLY, COMPLETELY FORGOT MY JC STUFFS.

just the first tutorial on real numbers and inequalities makes me go mad. =(

I SERIOUSLY NEED HELP FOR MATHS! ANYONE? =(

2010-09-02T00:49:00.003+08:00

am in hostel right now. check in on sun because we thought it was first come first basis for the better rooms. but its not. officially move in on tue. the room is very dusty. but my room is consider not bad le. althoughh can't compare to other halls with air con. theirs is like condo style! very nice and new!

non-air con halls - chalet style
air con halls - HDBs style
hall 3 and 16 - condo style

but my room is bigger than other ppl becoz its besides the stairs. =)

this week is orientation week so still quite slack. realise that not going for hall camp will really miss out a lot because people will have already know each other. but there is good thing about it. can concentrate more on studies i hope. cause there are really lots of hall activities.

oh ya! i am having lessons like on the saturday after hari raya pusa which is next fri! =( then will need to stay in hostel! can't go home! sian.. just for tt 2 hours of lecture early in the morning.. =((

need to get some time to upload photos! and think of how to decorate my room..

ok, need to go off, need to wake up early tmr for a whole day of talks. =/

2010-08-22T23:43:00.004+08:00

back from awesome TAIWAN!

finally had a getaway during this 8 months of holidays! :D great trip except for the tiredness from walking. great food plus shopping too! =) 3 of us had bits of crazy times. buying 100 mochi, almost 10 pairs of shoes for si and many boxes of tai yang bings that we can open a flea market. *hopeless look*

we got sunburnt too only at the second last day of our trip because we went up a mountain in yilan and wanted to take photos at this luodong park but there wasn't any flowers. we are really a weird group of tourists..

something i like about taiwan too is the people there. most of them are at least not bad looking (jting's jiufen guy and si's 300 dollars guy =P), dress up properly and friendly! (except for the bad experience at ximending on the second night. got a scare! =/) most of the people are very willing to help the lost tourists like us to get around the places. and were so surprised that we singaporeans can speak fluent mandarin. 华语Cool! ;)

still got a lot of places which i want to visit and lots of food i want to try. TAIWAN, i will be back again! :D

P.S. i don't like things with odd number

2010-05-24T13:22:00.005+08:00

last last last sat had asg dinner and it was awesome because we were all hype up about our upcoming eggciting outings!! =D we are planning to have a once a month outing and i am so looking forward to the first one this coming friday to sentosa!! yeah! it has been such a long time (i think got almost 2 years? not counting the steamboat) since we go out together to play and have fun.. please pray hard that the weather is good! =)

last last sun had family outing to sentosa. due to the drizzle, we were somewhat put off. and also going out with the older people makes the trip not exciting too. =X but at least we brought our 'sua ku' parents out for walk walk and exposure to the newly built resort world. it was my first time there after quite a few years too. think the last time i was there was during the sec 3 bonding camp. 3 years back!

last fri met up with alicia and chermaine. watched the last song! touching movie.. you can hear people sniffing in the cinema. haha.. we had jap food too! took instaxes and maine gave 2 to me! hehee.. nice! =)

on saturday, we finally had our birthday celebration for May! it is 1 month before we see each other and it seems like a super long time! sure feels good to meet up with one another! xD we went all the way to serangoon for chomp chomp but then it was too crowded that we ended up eating zhi-char at a chinese resturant. it feels different to eat zhi-char with your friends because we usually eat with family. we had dessert at a dessert shop too after that and it was a nice cozy place. =)

been spending a lot of money recently but mostly on food. more outings this week ahead and it is burning a big hole in my pocket cause i am earning very little nowadays without OT! haha.. now no ot also complain.. =/

1 more week left for me to decide. been troubled by uni admission. which one to choose and which one is better for me? zzZzzz.. a series of headaches after choosing the school and course too. i need good advice.

talking about work is another headache. new colleagues not that fine and good. it makes work terrible and super boring! can't really communicate with them esp the female one. =/ nvm, everything is going to end soon.

2010-05-02T22:29:00.003+08:00

had a great outing yesterday! awesome! 6J PRIMARY school outing! i still can't believe that it really happen and that it is considered quite successful =) around half which is 20 out of 40 people came! saw many familiar faces. some still looks the same but some are unrecognizable. hahaa! it really feels good to see some people! after 6 long years! too bad there are still quite a handful whom i wish to meet but did not come! =( got quite a few also did not manage to talk to much. one very jing dian thing that happen is that qx fell down while crossing over the fence. he is too tall that he hit his head first and then slide and landed in the bush on his butt. omg! that became the topic of the day! feel quite bad for laughing at him but it was really funny.. hehehe.. =P after the bbq, we even went to ecp to talk. we walked for very long till we sat down and till 12am then we leave. luckily we caught the last bus. i find it so interesting and amazing that we can all walk home together at such late hours! 6 of us. there will be more if all went. hahaa.. xD labour day ended well for me. was still quite worried initially how we weird it will be for us to see each other after so long. but my worries did not occur. we become much more crazier! and i miss the times we were back then in primary school..

last friday, had 2bee dinner at 18 chef! see some long time no see people too. gayle is damn funny with all her ugly faces! hahaa.. =) feels good to hear them talk about our life back in ahs. =)

anyway, my smu interview was terrible. i don't think they want me. another failed attempt as usual. oh well.. i seriously don't know what i want too. i didn't expect myself to be disappointed and sad when i did not get my first choice for both schools. its time to have serious considerations.

its monday tomorrow again! start of a new week and i am not looking forward cause my 2 colleagues left and there are 2 new ones who are older than me coming in tomorrow. i wonder how it will go. it will sure feel weird to teach people who are older than me those simple stuffs that i am doing at work. wish me luck man! i hope they are nice people!! =/

ps: why are there so many people going taiwan recently?? makes me so envious when i see their photos! i also want to go! i want a getaway too!

2010-04-20T23:09:00.002+08:00

ok. i have been lazy to update. but anyway, these few weeks have been the same working as well as going for gatherings!

celebrated marcia's birthday at WEST coast park. so far right? haha.. my first time there. quite fun though. had the chance to tease the newly couple too.. xP

had asg dinner last fri too! it was super duper funny with huiling around. 130 secret we stand. and many many recollections and funny parts of our lives when we were young. HAHA! but the previous tues was shiok. jm,js,jt had nice long talk at 85 till we all don't want to go home. hehehe.. =)

some thing happen at work. both my colleagues resign at the same time yesterday. great, i am going to be alone and awaiting for a new temp... sigh.. these people are too busy with their scholarships and uni interviews plus volunteer work that they have no time for work. lol. poor me.. =( is there anyone who wish to work with me?

i am having smu interview tomorrow!! so scared and nervous about it. they never send me email to confirm the interview also. =/ i have got too many failed attempts and experience about interviews that i have no confidence for tomorrow. sigh.. wish me many many many luck k! =X

anyway, its my dad's birthday today! wish him in the pink of health and don't get angry with me so often k! =D

2010-04-04T22:10:00.006+08:00

had a long weekend! =) the month of march seems to have lasted very long. perhaps i have been working consecutively for 3 Saturdays and many many things have happened. well, despite all the not so good things that may have occurred in march, there are still quite some happy events! =D had meet ups and i think my pay for march is going to be good. xP but its all hard work k! april and after will not be able to earn so much already cause there are no more sat to work and much lesser OT.

fri, public holiday! went out with juniors from my section! hahaa.. a great bunch of kids. they really made me feel so old! some of them are still in secondary school while i have already graduated from jc. we went to eat steamboat at bugis with our teacher too. they can eat a lot of meat! i was so stunned! O.O its great to meet up with them. there was like 4 generations plus our dizi teacher who used to teach me in sec 1 and them now. haha.. their conversations were super stunning and jin bao! 0.0 laughed non stop. and thanks lots to xiao peng for treating us dessert and more than half of the steamboat! feel so bad.. =/ oh well, this gathering made me realised how much i missed school, especially secondary school.. they made all the memories flow back.

sat went to marina barrage for 4k outing. although not many people came but still at least it was some sort of meet up i guess. too bad the weather was not good. cannot fly kite! =( went to 85 to eat at night. it was also the first time i sat car drove by a friend! how exciting! hahaa.. feels different. i must really say that chia hong is a good driver who dives safely and calmly. =D also just realised that many friends are obtaining their licence soon!

anyway, i guess its always like that during meet up. we talked a lot about uni admission etc. want to type in chinese but cannot find the software to do so. =X so i shall type in han yu pin yin then.

gan kan, zi bei de xin qing you chong xin yong shang lai le. yin wei fa xian qi shi hen duo tong xue dou kao dao hen hao hou zhe shi hen bu zuo de cheng zi. sui ran wo zhi dao wo mei zi ge gan dao hen nan guo, dan que hai shi hui gan dao zi bei. zhong jue de wo hai mo suo bu dao wei lai de fang xiang, qian tu ren rang shi yi pian miao mang.

2010-03-30T23:27:00.000+08:00

had a group of people barging into my house on sat night! hahaa! thanks a lot to jocelyn, yvonne, may, eunice, marcia and jun han for the surprise! xD although i think when they knock on my house door, i know something was wrong and yea.. i just woke up too.. =X had dinner with them plus leonard and jun rong at 85 too! thanks for the coco exotic from four leaves plus the present and the dinner together! <3 touched cause got a few friends live so far like in woodlands, tiong baru and farrer park! photos next time, still waiting to be uploaded!

sun went out with mum, sis and aunt for dinner at sushi tei! still prefer MOF! hehe.. got a nice huge bday card which is actually the same every year but still, its yummy! xD

mon met up with jting! <3 went to 18 and we had nice long talks together! please don't be so troubled k! let's jia you for work together! =)

weather has been quite bad these few days. a lot of haze in the last few weeks plus no rain. then now almost everyday is raining but yet it is so hot sometimes! please take care everyone!

me has been quite troubled over uni application! still has not come to a conclusion to what courses to choose. have thought of the courses but there are just too much considerations due to my results and the phobia of interviews. =( gathered some advice from different people these few days and i am being encouraged to try for the course i like though it is highly impossible for me to get in. nevertheless, i shall just try right? hahaa.. wish me luck k! i have already click on the modify buttons for many many times already! time to get my payment done before the application close!

looking forward to this long weekend! more meet ups =D

2010-03-21T00:15:00.004+08:00

it has been quite eventful ever since my last post. there was the terrible result day on 6th march, that fateful day. all i can say is that everything is fated already, no matter how disappointed, upset or whatever i feel, there is nothing i can do. i will have to consider the next step. i know many who did not bad and relatively well as well as super good ones. really feel happy for these people who have worked hard for it. as for others, be strong k, i believe you can and will be able to get through this. =) jia you gal!!

went for all the open house by the respectively universities but i guess it wasn't very helpful. i still can't decide on what course to take and what i want. sigh.. =( i have already thrown the whole issue of uni application to the back of my mind for 2 weeks already. better start deciding now jie min! left a week plus only!

this march is really preoccupied by work. i have been working non-stop for 3 consecutive weeks already! super drained out. ot till quite late for many nights and working early for a few days. its just so busy at work and my colleagues are all taking off and not in the office!! the handling of all the people and management at work is starting to make me lose my cool and attitude. i really can't stand some stuffs at times and it erodes my character. =( have been quite attitude at work which upon reflection makes me feel that i should not be doing so when i am in this customer service line. sigh...

there is a new temp staff from rj too. they sound like we are incapable and inefficient this year that they have to hire one more temp staff which they never did before. whatever lah.

there is something else which i want to rant about. that is the day which i have to wake up at 5 plus in the morning and then travel to fajar sec which is in bukit panjang and have to reach there by 7.30am for a school visit. initially, they wanted to make me travel by train or bus but realise that even if i take the earliest one i may be late too. so finally get to cab there and the money is going to take forever to be returned back to me!! =@ furthermore, at that school, i was so so so surprised that i have to handle the booth alone and give a short introduction to the sec 1s students and they rotate by classes. so, i did not get prepared and did impromptu presentation repeatedly, screaming my voice in the open hall fighting against the microphone until i got sore throat! =(

this work is just crap. =( sigh sigh.. come on, i need to persevere on and complete my 6 months contract!

2010-03-04T23:27:00.007+08:00

don't really remember much of what happen for the past 2 weeks except for lousy work days which is getting worse and busier.

went to celebrate jocelyn's birthday at fish and co last wed. lighting there was terrible because it was quite dark. did not get her malu enough also at fish and co! she got no voice that day too. sad.. =( remembered that i had a terrible day at work. we went to the arcade to play bball that night. realised its super fun but tiring. but at least it is quite a good way to vent some frustration out.

last fri met socks, jt and binz for dinner at v8. went to mosburger to talk after that. realised we are getting old.. =/ BUT, we went to take neoprints! hahaa.. back to the old school days. <3

sat went to ntu seminar talk. saw many familiar faces too. but the talks seems to have blurred my vision of my choices more. maybe i am not even sure of what i want to take in the first place. sigh.. everything must wait till the results come out tomorrow.

met sh, zk and ch today for lunch at waruku! nice food there and its nice seeing people whom i have not seen for such a long time! too bad i only had such a short time with them. but anyway, guess all of us are nervous about the results. =/

will be working half day tomorrow. really scared about it. =(( couldn't sleep last night. trying to tire myself out tonight so i can sleep. well, praying really hard for it. i don't dare to go and think about it.

2010-02-21T17:47:00.002+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year to everyone! hope this new year will be a better one for all of us! =)

there were many many gatherings recently! but there is this topic that has been revolving around. just because the days are really near already.

had the 2b class gathering and saw eunice on skype =) we talked about our teachers and stuffs in sec sch! and there was this A level topic that made most of us all 'excited' about. agitated is the correct word to use instead.

last fri we had ASG dinner! at eighteen chef and celebrated jiesi's bday =) the center of attraction for that day was the little kids who are pretty naughty. really pei fu some of them who can play with them for so long while i can't because kids don't really like me. =/

this year chinese new year is real boring. firstly, there was not much of the festive atmosphere and there is nothing much to do. i have been avoiding my dad's side family reunion dinner and steamboat yesterday. i want to avoid being asked about questions like "when is your results coming out?" and "what course are you planning to take?" and of course i can't seems to blend in with this side of cousins too.

on the other side of my family which used to be what i have always love, this year start is a bad one. there is just too much family problems going around and i hate to see the awkward scenario. =( i keep on recalling the times when i was still a child, when my grandma was still around.

work life is getting busy. have been doing much more overtime because of offer letters. bosses are getting stressed up and bad mood around.

glad to meet yk,maine, nicole and also sh yesterday. conversation never leave the topic about our results and i guess i am affected by the nearing days. can't imagine what will happen. one thing very sad is that the familiarity and non-stop topics which we once used to have seems to have faded away. a barrier just seems to have build up between us or is it just me? sigh...

2010-02-10T21:38:00.002+08:00

this week is such an exciting week! will be meeting up people finally! xDDDD *smiles!* but i end up having dinner outside everyday except for monday. haha.. although this year like i can't feel that the new year is coming, but its great that we all are taking time off for gatherings! =)

last sat, i gave up the opportunity to work and earn less OT to do some CIP instead. am i stupid? i work up like much earlier than usual when i go to work to go to school to help for Go Green Day at TJ! i so good right? hahaa.. well, it feels great to be back in school. although i think the next time when i return it may be terrible. went to bedok reservoir there to collect newspaper and met 2 friends there! so coincident! haha.. after a tired day under the super hot sun right from the morning, we went to tampines to sell cny goodies. feel so paiseh cause we got no license to do so. hahaa.. door to door sale somemore. it feels weird but i am quite surprised there are still quite a few who bought from us. =) nice souls who are helping the cambodia kids whom we are fund raising for. tired but accomplished day! =)

realised i have been spending a lot and much more than i used to be nowadays! *shake heads x10* been spending a lot of money on food, clothes! and treats too.. treated my uncle and aunties on sun. =)

yesterday met up socks, ys and bl at our usual eighteen chefs and starbucks! i really love the place outside starbucks but there was lot of smoke. =( and we saw E again just like last time when we were there. hahaa.. see u guys at 85 next time!!

today have dinner with colleagues and bosses! treat of steamboat and lau he from one of the boss who just got promoted! x) glad i am in that department cause i think its the liveliest and most activities and fun dept over there! =D although there are times that are super scary when the bosses shoot each other or instruct you to do certain stuffs.. =/ tonight was so funny! there is this colleague who wants to sabo my friend to go home together with the boss whom we are really scared of. then we all can't stop laughing while the 2 big bosses stare at us. =P hope the laughter will continue even after the senior temp leaves us.

my whole department! M&A

tmr meeting up with the bees! =) and fri having reunion dinner with asg! whoo~! excited! =D

just so sad that i will not be able to visit or tj for cny celebration!! have to work! =(

2010-02-01T23:05:00.005+08:00

just chiong finished 海派甜心! its a very nice show!! hahaa.. <3 it! the story is like so funny and also very sad! =( lzx is like totally =.= esp when he switch his roles. damn funny! its a good drama to be watched! now waiting for 'down with love' to be show cast! xD

last fri had class gathering at just asia at dobby exchange. there were many of us! nan de we have a final gathering with the guys hair still intact. =) enjoyable dinner and a great night together with all the friends around again.

and of course, the bad week last week has finally ended and it is the last day of the month! i have managed to survived a month! =) can't wait for the first pay day.. hehee.. =P

sat went out with ahsco people, mostly the seniors whom i have not seen for a long long time. we went to watch a sco concert held in lieu with yes 933. nice one! first time for me to see the artistes live. and there was liang wen yin too. =) anyway, there was this weirdo guy who got caught for recording and don't want to leave and then after that took photo with each DJ with the same square face that doesn't smile. its quite funny how he tries to stalk the artistes while we observed each of his movement. HAHA!

hope this week will be a better week. i hope nothing is going to go wrong this week k. =) and i can't wait for next week to come! cny here i come! :D i want to go shopping for my cny!

2010-01-26T21:24:00.003+08:00

today is a bad day at work. its a really busy day and tiring one too. worse still is the difficulty working under more than 1 boss and i got 3 EOs, 1 Senior EO who just got promoted and is becoming more demanding plus 1 manager and 1 director. a lot right? zzZzzZz.. =/ its hard to help them all do stuffs and do follow up for the auditions and tests! there are so many applicants you know! over 1000 people! this is just the start. =( man, i am getting worried already.

second bad thing that happen was there was some important information that goes missing! we searched everywhere for it, all the files and shelves but could not find. ended up it was stapled together with something else. what a close shave! otherwise i am getting into trouble because i was the one who do the filing =(

third bad thing that happen was that i am supposed to run errands to buy some big transparent plastic bags at bras basah complex and i searched high and low that place and there wasn't any there. wasted trip made under that hot sun during noon time around 2pm. =(

conclusion for today is that we are treated like coolies because we had to re-pack the store room which is full of super heavy course guides and papers everywhere!

i can't wait to meet up with some of my friends! there are some which we have not been in contact for quite some time already and i miss my friends! really need somethings for me to look forward to in this boring work life and have to eat lunch alone everyday!

ps: i had a nightmare 2 days ago on my A levels result which turn out to be super terrible. its all jun han's fault for reminding that the days are getting nearer and describing the scenario for that day! =(

2010-01-21T20:12:00.002+08:00

it has really been a busy week last week. there was preparation for the open house on the 15th and 16th which is fri and sat. did some sort of ot last thurs to pack goodies bag for the people and realize that it is a super tiring job. i do until muscles ache. =( the goodies bags are very heavy!

open house was not bad although i only have the chance to be at the counter answering people's enquiries and doing registration for them. it was super hectic on both days! had to have packed lunch in the office too. =( y do people always choose to come during lunch hours? ty visited me on sat too! =D but i don't have the time to talk to her which is quite sad. hope have the chance to meet up soon!

after the crazy week last week, this week is much better and sort of slack. but tues only got me cause the other girl went for her btt then i only get to eat lunch at almost 3pm! =( anyway, i start to turn bad and go online during office hours. wish me luck and don't get caught! =/

tues meet up with the 6 of us finally!! it has been long since we meet up although its just a few weeks.. hahaa.. glad that all of us found a job and we had lots of things to share! i have a friend who earns over 2000 bucks per month! damn shiok right? its relief teaching + tuition if u wan to consider. haha.. its just so sad that we all have work the following day and can't stay out too late. but i can't wait for the next meet up! =)

there is actually more gatherings coming up next week and i am looking forward towards them! i realise that it actually makes working happier =) but gatherings and dinners means spending much more money not only on food but transport too! =X

OH! just yesterday, there was appreciation party for the student ambassadors for the open house and we are invited to join too! =) they booked a whole cinema (for 100 odd people which is actually quite small) to watch 'blind side' together! there was buffet for dinner too! nice food and nice movie! x) but the 2 of us need to do reception there too to take attendance and give out certificate and we really look like those wedding receptionists! LOL! but it was fun! =) enjoyed the atmosphere and that its really cool to have the whole cinema to yourself and there was free popcorn too! =P

i am so glad the weekend is coming! i need a good rest

2010-01-10T22:45:00.002+08:00

fri had free lunch again plus tea break. so shiok right? haha.. but this week don't have already. :( however, there is work on the coming sat because of open house. talking about open house, i went to nyp one on sat and enquire about some stuffs on physio and ot. the course sounds pretty tough and tiring. i think i need to consider carefully.

fri after work went shopping with my sis at bugis! my first time buying so much stuffs at once and spending so much money!!! i totally spend like 60 over bucks on pants, shirt, belts, bag and a skirt (ok, don't be too shock when u see this. i know its kind of not me but since i have already bought it, i will try my best to wear it. =.=) and i bought a pair of flats on sat too. =)

went out with family + relatives today to go orchard central eat ah yat abalone! xD very nice shark fins! hahaa.. one pot all to me! =P

here wishing good luck to all the sec 4s getting results tmr!! i can feel the nervous too.. =/

2010-01-07T20:54:00.002+08:00

work has started and the first time here i wan to complain is the adult fare!! ok i know this is like everyone else also facing the same issue and the poly people has already endured for 2 years, but still.... i just can feel the pain whenever i tap the card! especially taking mrt and on a long journey! oh man! i still need to travel to far far places like the coming sat nyp open house. i wonder if i should go. anybody can go with me? i really miss my children fare... and so this marks the end to me travelling to far away places if possible and less going out too. we shall all meet at nearer places which don't need to travel and within walking distance k. its time to train some leg muscles. lol.

ok. enough about the high cost of transport. shall talk a bit about work. was slightly late for work on the first day cause i couldn't find the place. great right? and then i realised that my job scope is not just plain admin but more of receptionist and customer service. me and another girl from vj are working together and we have to sit at this counter and do enrolment stuffs and answer phone calls enquiries. its boring and repetitive k. there are many china people who are applying and i think my chinese has turned super rusty. worse thing is that i had to do translation repeatedly, each and every sentence to them. =.= its like rot in the morning for 1 hour plus before the first person comes in and slack another 1 hour after the office hour before i can go home. okie, this is just the start. i think there are more to come when O levels results are released and degree enrolment starts.

hate working in such environment because its really troublesome to think of what to wear to work everyday! and i am not the kind who have a lot of clothes nor i know how to dress up. =( headache! i really need to go do some shopping for cheap and nice office wears! help!!

on a lighter note, the people there are actually consider quite nice and patient i guess. no choice but keep on asking them when we can't answer the enquiries. there is also free lunch these 2 days cause of some events =)

i hope can get more OT and earn more on weekdays! wan to earn more money and save up for my uni pocket allowance plus spend more money!

many many of my friends also found jobs le. and the thing is that most of them have jobs that are higher pay, near to their house, not boring jobs like events planner!! and some still have leave benefits! so good right?? is it the timing to look for jobs that makes the difference? =((

i am having bad flu now. =( going to no voice also after talking and repeating so many times everyday. =( pls don't worsen and i want to get well soon to be in time for the new year goodies!

2010-01-03T21:39:00.002+08:00

ITS 2010!

times really flies.. wanted to be online on the 31st but i end up sleeping and miss the countdown! dad told me that we can watch fireworks from my house here although its really small. o.O

started the first day of this year great! went jogging with bin at bedok town park. i jog for 2.6km in total although there was a rest in between. but its a good start to this new year right? fulfill a new year resolutions! hahaa.. then after that we had asg dinner at 85! it has been a long long time since we met up for dinner and i am so glad most of us were there =) had many talks about relationships, tattoos, driving etc. seems like we have all grown up. but no worries! still have our last teen year! :)

hope this year will really be a much better year and good one for everyone. hope there will be less natural disasters and terrorists attacks. hope we can all achieve our goals and desired results. in just another 2 or 3 months.

in the meantime, i am starting work tomorrow. its my first proper job. although its just temporary but i am still a bit scared cause i am working alone. worried i will get sacked. =X hope everything will be fine.

for the first time i don't have to worry about undue piles of homework and how to face the teachers for such a long time. but to those starting school, hang in there for all the projects and school workload k!

2009-12-26T21:47:00.004+08:00

christmas is just over. and the year is coming to an end soon. have been going out quite a lot these few weeks and the this week too. last few days to enjoy myself before i start work.

last last sun, went to marina barrage to fly kites and have picnic! =D the place is really nice and i love the environment! :) perhaps due to the spacious place and windy weather. there were many people having their picnic there too, friends or family. we tried to attempt to fly the kite but failed. =( but at least i nearly succeed! hehee.. i will definitely go fly kite and picnic again!

had christmas party at johnathan's house last wed with 2Bees. =) was worried at first but it turned out well i guess. its great to see the friends again and most of them we only meet once a year. the guys were great because they are the one doing the bbq! lots of nice food too! hehee.. then, we went to the singing room to chill and have exchange. thanks to this joyous season that i am meeting my friends! =D

christmas's eve went out with classmates. first time i am hanging out at the streets of orchard road and feeling the christmas atmosphere. we had dinner ar shaw tower and then was supposed to go tanglin mall find the 'snow' but we seems to lost our way. ended up we just walked all the way to plaza sing. all the places were very crowded and we had trouble making our way through the crowd. =/ luckily we went home early.

christmas was spend at home and going to my uncle's new house which is super big! there are at least 3 storey high with a bbq pit right at the top and 2 balconies! not a bungalow but at some super ulu place in changi. =/ played the board game -life with my small cousins. super boring game. this kind of family gathering can't beat the gathering with just a few friends.

sun went to watch co concert at the esplanade with bin. concert is by paco. its not bad, played all the different kinds of song plus a bit of comedy. too bad we went in late and had to sit at the back of the concert hall at the gallery there! =( could not see the dizis and some percussions. their di er was not bad. the dizi soloist is damn pro and their impact is really great! but still not jazzy enough. =X dong was super nice too! haha.. saw quite a few tjco ppl who went to support too. went to newton circus to eat with class ppl at night. there got nothing much to eat actually but the prawn noodle that we found out of the few competitive stalls is nice! =) window shopping with the girls at 313. walked all the way back to sheraton hotel after that. super tired. played polar bears many many rounds. super hilarious! xP was tired by 4.30am and we slept. so our stay there was only filled with polar bears. lol. did not even take a group photo. =(

back home in the morning and slept till evening.. then meet sihui to go for 4k bbq. quite a successful gathering cause many ppl went. took photos and we talked until we missed the bus and had to walk out all the way out to elias mall to take bus.

going for my long awaited sakae buffet tmr! yea! super long nv eat jap food le! going to have my fill tmr! ;)

2009-12-23T03:06:00.003+08:00

back from uncle's chalet at night. din wanted to go but no choice. was quite boring.

happy to get the job at nafa. admin i think. starting work next year. =) at least i secure a job. but my sis told me can get better one but must depend on luck and wait. well.. don't think i should right?

very late now. sleeping soon. but i am suddenly feeling very hesitant to attend the gathering later. =( i have promised and i will go. i am afraid though. but please give me the courage to take the this step to maintain this precious friendship. i really need it.

2009-12-18T22:30:00.004+08:00

owell.. my sis just came home and gave me the bad news although quite expected one that i did not get the job. =( its a really good one which has very good career experience and super high pay of $1400 per month. well.. too bad for me, another failed attempt at interview. again. maybe i should at least be glad that i was shortlisted for the interview bah..

on a job hunt currently. badly needs a job by January. went out today with E and we sat in the MacDonalds looking at the straits times classified section. we look like two pathetic jobless, unemployed souls trying to look for jobs. hahaa.. then finally we gave up cause there was nothing much in the papers and we just sat there and talk. lol..

now i know how difficult it is to find a job. and especially a good one. thought A levels ppl will be able to find. but it turn out otherwise. but still, many friends have found a job already. and some have good ones. hope to get gd one too. need money to go shopping for work clothings too!

2009-12-17T20:42:00.001+08:00

i am back on last thurs but was super duper tired. last fri went to sch for service learning orientation. was feeling regretful at first but the games turn out to be quite fun so yup. it was alright i guess and looking forward to the next event. =)

trip was ok but turn out to be a bit sian because mum was not feeling well and we met a terrible tour guide in hk who wants to cheat our money! =(
lazy to blog about the trip. shall post another day.

went to the zoo with some of my classmates on mon! =D had a free pass to get in free and the other 2 met a super nice couple who gave them 50% discount and so, we got into the zoo for only 3 bucks! isn't that great? hahaa! took quite some photos but mostly animals.. =X it was a super tiring day. walk until legs pain. :(

today was my first formal interview. it was super scary. i thought it was going to be a causal one or at least not so serious. but ended up there was 3 people interviewing me! and one of them is the big boss of the company i think. he looks so stern looking and frowning. i think this job is going to be a gone case. it was just supposed to be a temp admin right? but there was more to it. the job scope is not so easy. need to write report, answer phone calls too! and work OT if i get the job. this is what you will need for a slightly higher pay job right. well, most probably i won't get the job anyway. so it doesn't matter. but this experience is really frightening! =(

i can still enjoy in the meantime then. more plans coming up.

2009-12-06T09:12:00.002+08:00

whoo~! i'm at the airport now! T3! =D slept too late last night then now quite tired. =/ having muscles ache all over too due to badminton on fri. looking forward to the trip! finally getting a bit excited le.. hee.. ;)

bye ppl! those going prom pls enjoy and those studying jia you k! =D

back on thurs!

2009-12-06T02:07:00.004+08:00

going overseas today with my family. finally for the first time. hope it will be fun with the super pack schedule. will be back next week! ppl have fun during prom k! and update me! =)

sry i can't help in anyway or give any advice to u. but i can listen. do take really good care and stay strong pls!

2009-12-03T09:41:00.005+08:00

i seems to have disappear online. =/ all because i was busy watching my drama that i didn't even sign in to msn or facebook. hehee.. quite some events have occurred.

there was asg steamboat at yj's house last fri! =D
firstly, we went to sheng shiong to buy the food! we managed to spend within budget! and got nice food too! took a long long ride to yj's house at pungool and it started raining. =/ busy preparing for the steamboat and then, more ppl came! xD almost all of us were there! so happy! hahaa.. well, its supposed to be a sort of gathering and well wishes for yj and jl cause they going in ns really soon! hope we can have another one agn soon k! =D

11/08 bbq at cheryl's hse after last physics paper 1!
finally had our last paper! real freedom! =D went home first and then took 45 to amk. the bus ride took 1 hour and i sit until so sian. =/ thanks to a really nice weather that we can have our bbq with great food! =D i didn't really help this time round except for marshmellows! haha.. guys played bball and was challenged by a group of small boys! =.= but they were brave and not bad too! haha.. finally, after so much discussion, we threw 2 birthday girls and 1 birthday boy into the pool! something really funny was that 4 of us was supposed to throw E down but instead the other 3 went in without her! LOL! but finally, with my help from the top she went in! =D and i got no choice but to go in too. =X myself somemore just to prevent being pushed down. we made a bit too much noise that we got complained. luckily the guard was really nice and did not scold us. there was cake and yeah, everyone was happy i guess. for me, on a marathon to the next stop.

ahsco farewell chalet 09
was really glad to see the juniors! =) had been a really long time since i see them and i missed them! best was my dizi juniors! there were 5 batch of us together which was a really heartening thing to see but i guess its the last time. =( did not really slp for the first night and was super tired on the second day. did not went out for amazing race with them. some unexpected things happen and hope things will be better. bbq at night and there was rain. so sad. xiao peng came and my juniors were so funny with him! all those fb distorted photos! =)

going out le. will be back tonight.

2009-11-19T21:07:00.002+08:00

down with cough and flu.. =( i really hate cough. the whole hall is so quiet with me coughing non-stop for the past two days. and worst of all, it makes me unable to write. and hence lead to the fact that i can't finish the paper. was trying to hold back not to cough and its really difficult! =( die die die. please go away cough!!

owell, econs was really hard i think and once again i chose the wrong question. how bad can that be? today's physics paper 2 by right is consider easy but due to my stuper duper carelessness plus i did not finish, yay, i think i wan dan le. haiz... hate the rainy weather too these few days too!! sometimes so cold sometimes so hot! make me so sleepy and tired but i can't get to sleep these few days! =( everytime going to fall asleep i will start coughing and then awake. rarr!

11 more days to go! or at least 5 more days, till after next tues can slack abit already! faster come! and i wan to recover really soon! i have been drinking tons of water, visiting the toilet umpteen times a day, abstaining from cold stuffs like ice cream and bubble tea and all those junk food!! but i can't control myself soon and i wan to eat them! =(

taking everything in my stride already, kan kai le. so what if it is A levels? =/

2009-11-15T21:16:00.003+08:00

haiz.. sick.. having sore throat and a bit feverish.. cold on the outside, hot in the inside =( what a bad timing to get it right? tried self curing this time and don't know why cannot work this time! wasted my time sleeping. =( now no time to study already. how to concentrate too when i am already so distracted.

fri was maths paper 2. it was still okie. but i stupidly handed in my question paper as well and by the time i realised it was too late to retrieve it back. owell, nvm i don't think i need it right?

only 1 week down, still have 3 more weeks to go or at least 1 and a half more before we can slack a bit. but i already no mood to study le. have been treating the exams so lightly and still studying at my own sweet pace. wish me luck man.

hope this week will be over faster, i really wan to rest. stupid sore throat is leading to cough which i hate most and can't take it. i will die if it doesn't recover by tomorrow. =(

2009-11-12T11:11:00.004+08:00

i am freaking pissed off now, with nobody else but myself!! =@@@@@ did the hardest ques and leave out the easiest ques! how can a person be so stupid like me?????????? DUMB! and the fact that the hardest ques is the topic with i am the weakest at and obviously i dunno how to do, while the easiest one is the topic which i am much better at. WTH! ='( ='( ='( everything has not been smooth since A level starts. maths paper 1 was crap, with some stupid sign that nv see before. GP came out topics i din cover at all and i din finish my AQ. wadever la! chem paper 3 was considered relatively ok but i make such a stupid blunder which is going to lead to terrible results. i should go bang my head against the wall! AGGHHHHHHH!! =((((((

i wan to cry badly now... :'(

2009-11-08T22:40:00.003+08:00

the ge tai here at my house is super noisy just now!!! i can't concentrate and study! plus i did a chem paper 3 and i got lots dunno how to do and wrong! =((( so irritating! heard that the ge tai or drama is going to last for the whole week!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! how am i going to study??????? tell me tell me... :(:(:( i still got a lot more things to study!

2009-11-02T18:27:00.008+08:00

school has ended and we had our graduation on 26 oct, mon. the concert was not bad, some teachers are quite creative in their writings for their students like bio department injecting good charms gene into the host. maths dept with their extrapolation of graph for our results, history dept comparing the sources etc x) busy talking individual photos and did not had many group photos! magic show was super funny! with ming da making fun of mr tong! and how the gp tutors mark our scripts by drawing circles and throwing it to see where it land. lol! =.= took a last ahs photo too! the ahs spirits will always be there! :) ate lunch with class at pizza hut after that.

so despite many many upsetting and empty moments that had happened in tj much more than the enjoyable ones, i have grown more i guess. learn to be more independent definitely.

this is really funny!
the 6 of us

ahs!
rushed down to my sis graduation ceremony at swiss hotel last wed. all because of stupid tuition, i couldn't attend! i had to rush down after that. by the time i reached home it was already 8 plus and then rushed like mad down because she could not bring the mortar home to take pics lor. so by the time i reached, it ended already but still they lingered around more some time. happy to my sis graduate and it was her pay day! =D took some photos and wore her square hat! i worried i dun have the chance to do that so had to have a try. wahaha.. my mum is super cute cause she wanted to try too! hope i will have my chance and bring my parents to my graduation ceremony too.

好幸福!
so proud of my sis! =D
my cute mum! =)

when will i get my turn?

had my last tuition today, which sucks totally. but owell, finally the last lesson already. it better helps after i have been paying so much fees! been feeling restless and moody.. =( listened the radio and they say a studying buddy helps. i thought of the times sh, jt and me were in 4A classrooms studying together, cheering each other on. and the funny incident of the clown! those were the days..

1 more week to the start...

2009-10-25T00:12:00.008+08:00

had the last day of lessons on friday. =) finally! i have to admit that i have not been studying a lot ever since after prelims. the prelims just make me feel sad. but i am glad that my class is one of the top i think from all the ranking that shows and one of the best value added class. sad that i am not part of it. hope that it will be better for As then.

have been having maths mock papers after school. they are very boring. sitting there in the lt, freezing cold and hungry and don't know how to do those questions for 3 long hours! :( although there seems to have an improvement in the marks but the papers were easier. owell...

mon was school holiday due to the early deepavali this year. went to the library to try to study but there was no space! had to go to the cafe which was not that conducive due to the noisy ice blender and oily smell. =X was sad that i could not join asg for dinner last friday at 18 chef due to tuition!!! =((( JIETING IS BACK! but we met on mon at the library. :D 6 weeks just past so quickly and there were lots of interesting stories! O.O hahaa.. had a winnie the 'pull' toy which hands and legs will vibrate when pulled! my friends and i had fun pulling it! it looks retarded but v cute! hehee.. :)

after the chem mock paper on fri, came home in the evening and finally went for a jog after such a long time of procrastination! =D ran from my house to bedok reservoir and another 1km round it non stop. rested for a while and wanted to run back but heart pain =/ so walked back instead. zZzZzz.. =.= and now, i am having muscles ache all over!! btw, guess who i saw?! i saw mrs lee, our bio teacher! hahaa.. she was strolling on her own and she recognized me =) at night, there was the 九王爷迎神会 at the void deck. very 热闹 but not so as compared to previous years. soon, there will be the lost of culture already. no more mochi, no more peanut porridge, no more fun going up and down.. =(

used to have many people crowding around and watching

used to have many pretty, nicely decorated lorries

mon is farewell assembly + concert. going to be the end of the life in tj. more saddening memories there than gd ones but still, it has made me grow. its not the time to think of it now! it just shows that A level is getting nearer! omg! =(

2009-10-13T19:48:00.002+08:00

all the results are back and terribly bad.. around the 40s and 50s region. many mock papers are coming up and they are all in the afternoon, so end up the whole day is gone again and yet revision work are piling higher and higher. still have a lot of questions don't know how to do when doing the papers. losing confidence..

2009-10-07T19:56:00.008+08:00

has been a bad week so far. got back most of the results and they all sucks. haiz.. still failing some of the papers. can't help comparing cause my class is too pro already. most of them are scoring very well pr at least they are not failing. ohwell... what can i do also? just need some time to get over with it i guess.. hopefully the ultimate one will be much much much x100 better. if not i sure die. =(

truffle cake that i sponsored! nice but too sweet =/

love this winnie the pooh balloon! <3 its floating in my house now and it likes me too!

board i did for her! ended up to be too luan :(

2009-10-05T00:34:00.003+08:00

tired tired tired... today is just a slack day which i did not do any studying or work. but i feel accomplished that i helped to do some housework like sweeping and mopping the floor plus i iron the 1 week worth of clothes! =D it took me almost 4 hours to finish ironing all of them, around 10 plus shirts! really tiring! :(

SAT - MID AUTUMN FESTIVAL + SIS'S BDAY PARTY!
went to pray in the afternoon then headed down to chalet and helped prepare sis's party. didn't do much also anyway. many people came but mostly her friends and yeah, i don't really like some of them though. look like a bengs.. =X but there is the other group of friends who are really nice! haha... the buffet wasn't that nice i think, which is quite sad =( but the cake which i sponsored was not too bad! =D it costs around 90 bucks okie! but it was too sweet i think,there is ferreo chocolate biscuit, something like the coco exotic from four leaves. but this one is from coffee bean.

oh! i think my surprise for her failed leh.. she appeared to be happy but not shocked to see my board for her. =( i spend the whole night doing it for her lorr! and i had to get the people to write their greetings for her too k! she better appreciate my hard work! hahaa.. although the final product was not yet up to my expectation cause i think it turns out to be a bit messy =.=

it was raining that night anyway and it was mid autumn! did not get to carry lanterns and play with candles this year. so sad =( not all of the relatives came also and we didn't have games like cai deng mi this year also. haiz

okie, so overall was a bit boring lah! at least for me. i don't know what to occupy myself with in the chalet where there is so many people cum strangers. =X i shy with strangers mah.. =P well, but most importantly is my sis happy can already la! hope she really enjoyed it and hope she can be more mature! haha.. =)

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY SIS! =D

i have been enjoying these few days and it makes my don't want to go back to school to face the music of my lousy results =/ hope it won't be that bad k? got to start getting back to work! 1 more month to go!

2009-10-02T20:22:00.003+08:00

yeah prelims are finally over!! it really feels good that there is no exams when u wake up in the morning =D

most of the papers are pretty bad, and i conclude that my physics is still 无可救药. =( hope when the results come out next week, it will motivate me to study even harder and hopefully score much much better for As. its the last chance also. =/

yesterday after 1hr 15mins of physics mcq, the girls went to pp to talk and eat and walk walk, jocelyn keep shooting me.. cause i keep teasing her! wahahaa.. ;P well, but everything is over alr, no more to tease. got some 'bad' influence from them, make me gossip more.. =X i feel bad towards some of them. =( then, we went to sing karaoke with the guys. had 14 of us in total! that's a lot and we had lots of fun! =D there is this friend who is very english speaking and so speaks chinese with a weird accent BUT the song that she know which stunned all of us is an oldie - 恰似你的温柔 and she sang very very well and nice!! hahaaa.. =)at night went to eat botak jones! =D fun but tiring day!

today woke up quite early when i finally can sleep late, don't know why i wake up so early also. wanted to go jogging at first but ended up eating breakfast with my mum. something very 扫兴 today is that there is tuition and it is right in the mid afternoon at 12pm! =( i'm so hungry cause i didn't get to eat lunch and my stomach kept growling. so ps.. =X had subway after that! =) came home and start doing my sis's cardboard which i have not finish and is still doing it now! there is still a long way to go =( i am not still short of 1 idea how to put in the message cause the board is not big enough and i putting photos. its a surprise and i hope it won't be spoiled tomorrow. i spend 1 whole day doing it lo! and my drawing failed. wanted to draw her the cartoon character-belle but the face turns out to be super ugly. =( but don't care, somehow i will put it in cause i spent so much effort drawing it! hahaa..

will be slacking this whole weekend and not doing any work! =D enjoy first! hahaa.. tomorrow going to pray pray and then off to chalet, my sis belated bday party and i have not decided if i should stay overnight tomorrow

i need to go back to work on the board now if not i can't sleep tonight which is likely so =X

so here wishing everyone a happy mid autumn festival first! eat moon cakes, carry lanterns, drink tea and solve riddles! =D oh and this remind me that i can't join my friends tomorrow at lakeside to carry lanterns! =(

2009-09-25T20:44:00.002+08:00

have been immersed in studying so far until now.. so guai right? hahaa.. but still.. studying not equal to good results

work better until some pressure i think. need to be forced to do stuffs and faster! if not i will just take my own sweet time and reading a set of notes in 3 to 4 hours time! x) went to the library alone for a few time and i think it is not bad. its actually quite quiet and nice place to study on weekdays. u get to see a lot of different people also. and some old uncles are really irritating. =X there are also quite a lot of jc people studying there. no choice, EXAMS! =( one bad time about studying alone is nobody go eat lunch with. so sad. =( so i have been eating quite a lot of mr bean lately. hahaa.. and walking around the supermarkets. lol

finally the weekend is here! have been waiting for this weekend very long already. can't wait for the next one too! well.. all the papers so fair was terrible and the only paper i think was ok was the maths paper 1 which most people think its very easy. die also then. the night before econs i was super stress and i forced myself to study cause i couldn't finish quite a lot of marco chapters. in the end i did 2 marco and 1 micro cause i forgot my micro stuffs and just crap out all the marco things i know. not that smooth for that paper. really panicky and the stupid music at the start of the exam that lasted for 5 mins!! it was so distracting and i couldn't concentrate! :@ chem p3 with physics p2 was terribly upsetting added on by today's maths p2 - stats! my most hated part of maths. well, hope next week will be better then. i really don't feel like studying anymore. sick and tired of studying! =(

went for lunch with the class today at kfc. then headed to tampines to get some stuffs but in the end did not manage to buy anything from urban write. things there are a bit too expensive. =( wan to get stuffs to do for my sis 21st bday! will be enjoying myself (i hope) next sat at her bday party chalet! i think recently use too much brain juice that all my creative juices are gone and i can't think of what surprise for her and what to do! =( ideas come to me please! i only got 1 day to do! next thurs after exams maybe going sing k with class ppl.. wahaha.. =P can't wait for prelims to be over!!!

2009-09-12T01:03:00.000+08:00

1 week of study break is just gone like tt.. i started studying only on mon.. dun feel accomplished at all.. have been going too slowly.. fuel efficiency too low and can't speed up.. lol

tues went back to sch for nothing.. ended up a whole day wasted cause ms goh wasn't free to give me consultation.. =(

wed went to airport with sihui and shawn.. back to staff canteen and the air was cleaner tt day.. not bad to study but i guess we talked too much alr =X zekun was damn funny when he can't solve ques.. hahaa..
oh, mum, dad and sis went to look at holiday package at chinatown.. most probably going hk, macau year end.. wanted to go taiwan but parents dun wan.. haiz.. just went hk last yr.. but nvm la.. this time only so short! 5 days and it cost almost a thousand la! super duper ex! dunno y they choose tt also.. but i just can't wait for a level to be over and to go on holiday!!!! its the first time my family is going overseas together! =)

thurs woke up super early to go for dental.. oops i am late.. hehee.. my dentist was okie lah, not too bad :) he helped my do filling, wash and polish my teeth and teach me how to floss.. den make until my gum keep bleeding.. =/ jocelyn was super funny! she went in for the longest, an hour and did nothing much cause she was too afraid and dun allow the dentist to do anything to her! hahaa..

next, we met the rest of the class and went to vivo to celebrate yvonne's belated bday on wed. i feel so stupid becoz i banged right into a pillar yesterday while walking and talking.. its quite painful!! =( luckily my head is hard! i bet i became stupider.. lol! anyway, went arcade first to play and she was as usual crazy and screaming a lot! bet she was overly excited and high tt day. went pizza hut to eat lunch and we so dui lian la.. super loud! =X the guys play a trick yvonne by asking our chem tutor to msg her and say she saw her outside and not studying at home and so scolded her! lol! if i wasn't told i will also believe.. so eerie.. =S she believed and almost cried! wahaha! *evil* we also very nice give her a surprise birthday cake! bet she was touched la! =) den dunno where to go and we walked aimlessly ard.. feel bad for pangsehing them in the end cause they went to play pool.. on the way back, jr, l and me was gossiping abt a new 'couple'.. oops.. i feel bad but yea.. the big news just burst and all of us kept it to ourselves for so long! hope we dun spoil their friendship.. =XXX

so have been waking up quite early these few days and today planned to go lib study but was too lazy to wake up.. sian man.. study and study only.. hope i am more productive tml ba..

2009-09-12T00:57:00.002+08:00

YVONNE'S BDAY CELEBRATION!

wah jun han not bad worr.. learn very fast gt the jia shi le! =)

surprised!

make a wish.... *wish tt we can all get gd grades for A level!*

look like astroboy? -.-

yea! grp photo!

2009-09-12T00:21:00.007+08:00

TEACHERS' DAY CELEBRATION

lots of food on the table! (eating in class with the dm ard.. heee.. =P)

6 of us with mr tong! =)

study grp with ms goh and our card to her with pooh! =D

PRESENTS TO THE TEACHERS! SOME COMMON PHRASE USED BY THE TEACHERS!

ms goh: 11/08 market will always be open for u! cause we are always very noisy in her class.. =X

mr desai: come on, the pen wants to move! & u have value added our lives! like this best! hahaa.. =)

mrs lim: teachers dun make profits dun make dividends, they make a difference!
and look at leonard! =.=

mr tong: this is the message we left for u in the toilet! cause he always say we gt gt msg in the toilet so one come back the others will keep on going.. lol!

mr ang's theorem: don't be a slave to ur gc!

i guess all are pretty easy to guess what they teach us..

2009-09-07T23:54:00.000+08:00

busy week.. finally sch holiday is here and yea, must start studying like mad le.. =(

last 2 days of sch, thurs and fri, gt quite a lot of ppl pon sch.. the lts were quite empty and my class too! teachers were a bit surprised at first but accepted the fact..

tuition suddenly changed from fri night to sat afternoon.. =@ den make until my whole sat afternoon gone.. =( din do much.. at night went to meet the 2beess! <3 great meeting cause eunice is back from england! such a long time no see them le! =D had fun and took a lot of pictures at her hse.

PS: blogger still gt prob and i can't upload the photos! =(

efficient was super low on sun.. only did a few ques on maths.. jia lat!

today went to send jt off at the airport! bye jt! see u in 6 weeks time k! off she go to hk, zhu hai and macau for her study trip.. hope she have fun! i wan to go too!! den study at mac and somewhat got chased out.. went with yj to t2 staff canteen and found out tt there gt a lot of tj ppl studying too! dun like tt place though cause of the oily atmosphere but there gt spacious tables and wun get chased out although gt sign say no studying.. din complete wad i have planned for today.. so shi bai.. gonna accumulated to the next day agn! =(

going sch tml to study.. hope it will be an efficient day.. but got to wake up early! tired! =(

2009-09-01T21:22:00.000+08:00

rarr! whats the prob with facebook and blogger? haizz... nan de i online den cannot work.. sian.. oh well.. as usual, sch is boring and tough for the last week.. trying hard to hang in there.. =( more to come and i really need to start studying!

today is teachers' day! so yesterday was the celebration. erm.. concert wasn't as nice as last year but the j1s in tj sure got talents! they can sing well! =) our class celebrated by having potluck party in class. gt lots of food! =) and we took photos with all the teachers! shall upload agn when blogger is oki..

2 weeks left..

2009-08-22T23:42:00.000+08:00

i really hate j2 life man! everything just seems so screw up now! =( why am i always lagging behind time and the others?? why am i so inefficient and needing more slp than everyone else? even the used to slackest person now is so hardworking and faster and ahead! why am i still standing at the same spot when all others are running faster and faster? and above all, my brain is the slowest and weakest! =(

just realized that my concepts are quite weak all these years and i have been learning crap and dead stuffs.. A level is really not as simple as what we think and really need the concepts.. wad am i going to do now den? too much things to catch up with the ever increasing piles of work to do! which one shld i choose to do? really disappointed with my maths test which i just pass and the rest getting their As. i just want to find an excuse to relieve myself of the fact that my maths is really weak by blaming on my poor English. just dun wan to admit it.. haiz.. =(

being sick was just another excuse i used last week for my inefficiency.. a way to escape from reality for just a while.. i need the motivation and courage to carry on positively.. day by day, prelims is drawing nearer..

2009-08-16T02:08:00.005+08:00

i am finally online after 2 weeks. and now i am down with fever, flu and the most hated cough.. =( dare not tell my parents in case they worry.. i strongly believe that i can self cure right? =/ will be staying at home this weekend just to be socially responsible. =) i dun wan to miss sch next wk unless i have no choice, i can't afford to miss sch.. pls dun give me a 7 days mc although i wan rest badly.. stupid heavy head made me can't do anything yesterday.. =(((

revision lectures has started and so is protected time.. =( everyday also end quite late except for mon den come home so tired so i slp lor.. ended up nv do any work so decided to stay in sch.. had a trial last week. its good to sit under trc cause at 7plus when the good news cafe closes, the manager will give us free leftover food which is still very nice! xD guess i have been eating too much heaty stuffs tts y will get sick.. =(

my study group was bored and we did this. they were so excited over this la! and it made those ppl walking past staring at these.. =X but our chem tutor was happy to see this too! lol! =D

our chem tutor's name and targets towards the As!

heavy head pls go away! =(

2009-08-16T01:15:00.016+08:00

shall just sum up a bit of wad happen last 2 weeks through some photos.

first up is the SYF closing ceremony.. managed to kop some photos.. =)

see the coincidence?

den there was the farewell party! juniors were sweet.. i will miss them! so sad that the times together was so short.. only had a chance to know each other more towards the end.. well.. at least they gave me a positive end towards my co life in tjco.. =)

my cards to each of them too!

card from the juniors.. =) that AA tags were special passes into the esplanade! hahaa!

yeah! dizi section! xD

national day celebration!
it was really terrible at tj this year cause it was just a sing along session and nothing else. no performance and some songs can't even be played. what a disappointment! =( but still, i love the national day songs! only those in the previous previous years one! recently ones are not so nice! tj had made the largest spore flag out of bottle caps this yr, it looks quite awesome but i have no pic of it.. =/

after tt went to eat eighteen chefs with my classmates! yea! managed to introduce them good food at good prices! =D we all ate until so full and had fun there! whoo~! were quite high cam whoring there but photos with another friend who haven't upload them! =(

stayed at home during national day and watched the parade at home alone cause parents went to the big field there to watch ndp through big screen. din wan to go.. =X well.. was being a good child sweeping and mopping the floor so din managed to catch all the parade but this yr's de parade looks nice. =)

jinxiao's visit back to spore! =D

met him earlier on wed the week he came back to spore for lunch with jie si and vanessa opp tj! =) haha! he still looks the same! and he over ride the bus stops lor! too long nv come back alr! 4 years! den after tt we sneak him into tj without being notice. van was so cool and calm unlike me and jie si.. =X thanks to the car! ppl look at him like a foreigner.. but he was so popular in tj! know so many ah ppl ma..

den we had dinner on fri night at 85! =D most of us were there! den after dinner, walked with jin xiao to ah stadium gate to retrieve his necklace tt he forgot to take in the afternoon.. it was like 11plus pm at night and he climb over the gate and fence! looks like a total spiderman, fast and efficient! BUT, we were so unfortunate that we kena caught by the police! =/ have to admit tt i was really panicky at first and in the state of shock, but huiling was so cool and calm lor! haha.. luckily we got through. hao xian! if not penalty for trespassing could be heavy!

the spider man in action 1

the spider man in action 2 - the fence is really high!

socks is upset with me for me useless phone! =(

look at huiling's face! hahaa! =P

jin xiao, we await ur return! come back quickly!

2009-08-02T21:39:00.001+08:00

had a happening week.. the syf closing ceremony is over... =( hmm.. well.. at least it all ended great. hahaa.. mon was the rehearsal and tt was crap.. =X other schs were great, like the shi cheng xu qu from nas and the tai yang from syco! the drummers were super imba!! =D hahaa.. then there came thurs the actual day!!

we were let off quite late at 3.50pm cause the concert was at night but i din wan to miss chem remedial so i stayed on.. but i am already feeling quite nervous in class.. lol.. so huang zhang tt i finally decided to leave halfway through the remedial.. hehee.. guess ms goh can see tt.. =X it was after all a prestigious performance to be able to perform at the esplanade right? yea.. and i had to blow tt solo part.. =/ was quite bored while waiting at the corridor at the backstage! we dun have a holding room for people but only for the instrument casing unlike 3 yrs ago when i was back there! AHHH!! AWESOME MEMORIES! xD the 50th anniversary concert! AND GUESS WHAT! ITS EXACTLY THE SAME DATE 30 JULY 2006 AND 30 JULY 2009!! heheee.. well.. i guess this is really going to be the last one for me.. last performance and not to say at the esplanade.. the concert is really worth is i think. 5 bucks for a 3 hour concert put up by the better schs and with splendid songs! there wasn't full house but it looks quite filled though.. too bad its on a thurs night, if not there could be more ppl.. =)

OH YA! I WAS REALLY ANGRY WITH MYSELF FOR FORGETTING TO BRING A CAMERA ALONG!!! I REMINDED MYSELF ON MON BUT I FORGOT!!! =((((((((((((((((((( so dun have any photoss.. can only kop a few from others.. soooooo sad.. RARRRRR!!! oh well.. no choice.. wad a waste! i wan to post some photos but stupid blogger dun allow me!! =( another day den.. it all ended quite late tt night and we only reached sch at ard 11pm.. haha.. almost 12am when i reached home.. wished tt there wasn't sch on fri.. =X

and so, i felt like a zombie on fri.. din do my tuition hw which i din get to receive the answers and once agn disappoint my tutor and felt super guilty for not finishing my chem tutorial + study group hw.. haiz.. i really wonder how did the rest do it?? =(

sat was the nanyang concept test.. screw it up of course because i din study at all not like some of my friends.. physics was a waste of time and money. practically hopeless tt i dun even think i can get 10 our of 60. chem was much better than physics of course.. and this thing took up the whole sat.. =(

today tried to do some work but the pile doesn't seems to go lower but much higher as the days pass.. =(( having a new timetable which sux cause my early fri is gone!!! =(( it is now ending at 5.30pm for all j2s cause of some protected time lectures.. hope at least this fri we will still get half day despite the cancel of the ndp celebration.. oh! this morning, my chem tutor send me a msg to ask me to rest well and prepared for the new wk cause i looked zonked out last wk.. hahaa.. was really touched and surprised to see tt.. i am motivated to do well for chem!! she is really a super nice teacher! x)

5 more weeks left..

2009-07-26T03:53:00.001+08:00

i know i shldn't be up at this hour nearly 4am.. =X i came online just to download some stuffs and ended up doing much more things tt i shldn't have done.. and worse of all, i did nothing much today.. there goes my chem tys! i feel guilty and sorry to my study grp mates.. =( this is going to be another horrible week.. time flies..

i am going to slp now..

2009-07-23T21:01:00.002+08:00

i am getting more stress by the day.. seeing the friends around u all turning very hardworking and have already started to revise their work and i myself are still lagging behind the schedule to finish up all my hw!!! i have been trying hard to do them but who ask me to be a slow poke and retarded brain which can't think and solve the ques fast.. worst of all, concentration span is so short! =( recently, a classmate of mine who used to copy hw and nv study has now suddenly changed into another person who did all her work and is ahead of others! this really stun me and make me feel so guilty.. =(( jie min seriously need to buck up and complete her work!

the prom thing has been settled, i shall not dwell on it since i have already decided right? not going despite almost my whole class going.. i have to admit tt i am a bit sway by them and wan to go for prom, but i dunno why dun have mood to go and feels uncomfortable? the feeling is different.. hope i wun regret my choice pls....

went to watch harry potter and the half blood prince on tues with jt! hmm.. the movie is really a disappointment esp the ending which end soooooooooooo abruptly! the part when dumberdore is supposed to die shld be touching but i dun feel anything! the most exciting fighting part at hogwarts is also not shown!!! =((((( why why?? understand tt its a long book and cannot put everything in but shldn't have cut away the impt parts! haiz.. hope the last movie will be better.. anyway, we went to eat subway after so long! finally.. hehe.. =D

din attend co prac for quite some time and i also worry abit abt how we are going to perform in the esplanade with this kind of standard.. =X but i am really busy and the timings just don't fit.. well.. good luck to us den!

feeling damn terrible these few days when i woke up in the morning in a shock.. really.. have been waking up at 6.45am or 6.50am when i am supposed to reach sch before 7.25am.. was really rushed man.. consequence of quarreling with my mum who refused to talk to me and wake me up in the morning for at least 2 weeks alr.. this is the longest cold war man! hate it! sucks! =(

2009-07-19T15:54:00.003+08:00

a busy week is gone.. with all the finalize results and terrible moods at time.. happy for mrs lim, our econs tutor and for my class we achieve the highest ranking among the whole cohort this time round for jct! =) just tt i feel a little yi han tt i wasn't among those who contributed to it but pulled it down instead.. tt's y i am so disappointed with my econs results.. was expecting much more and pinning my hope on it.. there is goes.. =(

forget abt the jct results.. i have been trying very hard to keep myself awake everyday come home from sch and do some constructive work.. its hard i realize.. =X but i managed to slp really late on thurs night at 3 plus am in the morning just trying to finish my first top 3 achievements draft.. this is so crap. we are also split up into study groups for chem and i gt into a grp with 2 other noisy ppl! =P going to be a headache.. haha.. every week need to do tys and i am dreading it.. =(

there is a lot of hw this weekend and if i dun finish them, i am going to suffer terribly next week which i highly think so.. =/ co prac are resuming for the full of next wk except thurs till 8pm! well.. before tt i alr have lots of stuffs planned, so gonna missed some of them.. =/ i hope i can survive next wk.

2009-07-12T22:33:00.003+08:00

just as had expected, results were bad.. =( from the marks i scored for maths, failing so terribly, being one of the lowest in class and that the paper wasn't very difficult you can see how badly i did.. nvm.. shall not talk more abt it.. just a thing that makes things better was that i passed my physics literally for the first time since jc.. =) so tuition works.. glad that at least the fees didn't really go to waste..

class been asking to go for prom.. zzZZzZzz.. trying to avoid this topic since sec 4 u see.. dun feel like going la.. haiya.. just not suitable for me u see.. but some are trying hard to persuade me to go.. =/ how?

on a harry potter fever during the weekend.. =/ spend my whole sat and almost today re-reading harry potter and the half blood prince! hehee.. waste of time ar? but i got so motivated to read the book before the coming movie on 16th july!! can't wait for it to watch with jt! x) but dun seems that i can find time to watch man.. thurs come out sure a lot of ppl and the weekend too.. =( some more now i got remedialS! siann... =/ yea.. so i watched the chamber of secrets too on sat night and there is the goblet of fire next sun! hope to watch too! =)

anyway, last mon, youth day, went to plaza sing to eat lunch at some 'fishemen' restaurant due to a 'treat' by our sl! haha.. well.. ended up we paid ard half ourselves.. lol.. hm.. the food there is comparable to fish and co and its much cheaper due to the lunch time promotion! cause only $9.90 for fish and chips w/o the taxes yet but with a drink and soup of the day.. and its quite filling too! =)

oh, and that's like only 9 weeks away from prelims and 16 weeks away from A level.. and i haven plan out my studying schedule.. procrastinating.. =( i still dun feel the urgency.. =X

2009-07-03T23:57:00.002+08:00

finally jct is over ending with a depressing maths paper.. shall not say too much abt it but i really feel hopeless for quite some papers this time.. =( real demoralizing.. haiz.. anyway, went to play badminton with class ppl at tamp sports hall today! xD finally, I PLAY BADMINTON TODAY! <3>

came home, bathe and then go for dinner at 85! there were only 6 of us but actually i find tt smaller grp also easier to talk.. =) we chat and chat abt their poly life and realise tt we have been buried by books all these while.. zzZzzz.. on the way back, talk to bin and hl abt a lot of things! x) sec sch friends are still the best!

gonna slack for a while before i start agn.. :)

2009-07-01T21:49:00.002+08:00

i should NOW be studying for my 'favourite' physics paper tml.. but ya.. tou tou come online a while la.. very bored and tired from studying... =( i am super dead for physics though.. really a lot haven study..

anyway. today's chem was a killer.. =( i almost give up while doing the paper and not even half way through it.. i think i din do almost half of the paper bah.. and worse i left them blank cause i really have no idea how to do despite studying for chem.. oh well..

gp on tues was a terrible one.. paper 1 essay have no choice to choose from and paper 2 comprehension was chim to the max! dun understand the passage! its on olympic and POLITICS! wad the crap! i spend 5 mins finishing my whole summary.. i think i am a pro.. lol!

econs was still alright.. i hope.. gt chance to pass lah.. praying hard..

2 more papers to go! wish me luck!

2009-06-26T16:04:00.004+08:00

i am so bored.. stayed at home trying to study for the whole week but den.. haiz.. waste my time.. go out study also not very productive so where can i go?? =( have been feeling very sleepy whenever i wan to start studying.. and i feel so sian and headache.. how how?? DEAD! some more no food at home for me to eat.. have been indulging in a lot of snacks this whole month man.. dunno how many kg i have gained.. =X

recently dunno wads wrong with my internet.. keeping hanging.. =( sian.. lag like hell also.. can't stand it.. online also dunno wad to do.. rarrr...

I NEED TO STUDY HARD!

anyway, thanks to friends concern abt my eyes.. hahaa.. i will try to take care of them but i think i am spoiling them even more only.. shldn't study and i think it will be corrected! x)

2009-06-22T00:21:00.002+08:00

have been very lazy to blog.. watched a drama recently.. hee.. so online until quite late at times.. bad bad.. =X and left only a week to jcts! i am soooooooooo dead!! howhow?? rumoured tt will late 1 week den sch reopen which i hope for.. =P but den agn, i dun wan jct to be cancelled.. really need to have the exams conditions.. hmm.. why our batch so unlucky one? 6 years ago, when we were in P6, there was PSLE and SARS! the horrible memories! =(((( and here agn, we have H1N1.. its spreading fast.. hopefully i doesn't kill..

its fathers day yesterday! helped my dad or i shld say its a shld be thing to do some house chores like sweeping and mopping the whole hse.. =) me and my sis planned to bring him out to eat but he insisted tt he dun wan! wad a spoiler man! =(

fri: went out with sis FINALLY to go shopping.. haiz.. but din managed to buy anything.. =( there wasn't much for this gss leh.. so disappointed.. but we went to eat swensens 1-for-1 lunch treat! hehee.. at least there was food! :) so coincidental tt i saw sing yee with her 2 tuttis who are from tj.. 0.O walked ard t1 and we saw jeff wang jian fu at the basement near his own ba wang shop! hahaa.. he wore sunglasses and was like walking ard suspiciously.. my evil sis said tt he was too bu qi yan tt nobody notice him.. he dare not even walked to his own shop but hang ard only.. LOL!

mon: went to make spectators with my mum finally.. =( yes finally i admitted tt i really need one.. went to the one my mum go make before de.. but my sis say a bit ex, so we wanted to go ask ard other shops.. and here comes the super pissing off thing!!! the stupid man at the shop charge us 20 bucks for just checking the eyes!!! we nv even promise to make the specs from him la! and his attitude was not really gd.. service sucks man! some more check my eyes le the degree is like super different from the other optiction by ard 75 to almost 100 degree!!!!!! i can't believe it when he say my right eye is 200 plus degree!! WTH! forget it.. super angry with the shop for cheating my money! =( went back to the original shop in the end.. yea.. so had the specs made.. so dun be surprised to see me with a specs next time.. =/ dun laugh at me also hor! i look weird with specs and uncomfortable... hate wearing specs! i wan my perfect eyesight back!!! :((((

2009-06-11T23:40:00.002+08:00

last fri: went out with some class ppl on last fri to have dim sum buffet at xing fu yin cha.. hmm.. quite disappointing i guess.. wasted my money.. =( but glad that we had fun together.. i think i am getting to like my class much more.. at least they made me feel better in tj.. =) ate until super full but i think i used to eat more leh.. after tt went esplanade library to do my phyiscs tuition hw but ended up gt suan by tuition teacher say i nv do.. =@ anyway, saw a few ppl in the library and yea.. quite a condusive place to go too.. =) but sleepy sia..

sat: went for urban hike dry run.. walk all the way from outram mrt to bugis junction.. may seems not long but we took ard 7hrs! from 10am to ard 5pm.. super long and tired!! well.. overall i think it was ok cause i like the idea of the game.. although it is tiring but quite cool.. but still i prefer last year urban hike.. it was much more fun, interesting and nicer to play.. ;) there were quite a few lame questions this year.. guess this shop name --> eg. Ge-62, chem fail

mon: morning went for care rep workshop cum handover instead of co camp.. was really disappointed when u see the number of ppl attending this.. others think we are useless and insignificant and unimportant.. wadever! so wad if cca are more recognized? only thing that i can say is tt i feel bad and guilty to mrs lee, the teacher in charge who has put in so much effort all these while.. =( so we still carry on the nomination and the new ex-co turns out to be fun i guess.. wish them all the best! =) mrs lee bought a lot a lot of drinks and NICE food for us to eat! hahaa.. so nice of her.. =) the egg tarts and sandwiches are really nice for our hungry stomachs.. =P next up was the success workshop.. the speaker is really gd and inspiring! =) he is very funny also.. one of the best talk so far! hahaa.. too bad for those who purposely pon.. end of everything, mrs lee actually bought a chocolate cake for the exco ppl! awww.... she is so nice and the cake is super nice!!!! xD there is a layer of biscuit inside which makes it super nice! its called 'chocolate exotic'! hahaa.. =P we ate and handover to the next exco.. a bit sad also lah.. although we haven done a lot but still they are wonderful memories i have so far in tjc.. x) must really thank my friends and care rep for giving me this opportunity.. =D

went back to co camp.. well.. guess i wasn't here for the whole day and miss out a lot of stuffs so i dun seems to fit in? idk.. maybe it has been like tt all these while.. they just ended their station games and off for bathing and den there came the skit time! i was with this grp named H2N2.. thought it was a boring grp with only 4 ppl but it turns out to be actually quite funny.. =) their skit is the best i think cause there is this guy super funny and cute! haha.. he act as the little boy licking the lollipop and saying the sentences very funny! his tone lah.. plus his expressions.. ahaaa.. =P den was night walk.. damn sian for waiting for such a long long time.. this yr one has a lot of props but much more scarier i think.. =X luckily i was the station masters scaring ppl.. hehee.. there is this station where a black scary 'ghost' drops down in front of them.. this is the best i guess.. hahaa... =) tired sia.. and the toilet was damn hot and stuffy! had to clean up by ourselves in the end.. could only slp at 5am and i din really managed to slp.. =( 6.30am must wake up liaoo..

tues: urban hike in the morning.. at first the grp was really not bonded and not observant and hint them they also dun get it.. =/ after tt they gt better.. worse is tt a lot of shops still not open in the early morning so very sad a lot of stations cancelled.. =( not fun liao.. anyway, the grp always look for street/mall directory whenever they go one lor.. so cute.. =) well.. everything ended much much more earlier than it was supposed to i guess.. last part of the game have this challenge for the grp to do some things.. 1) eat 'wassup babe' ice cream but it taste actually quite ok coz the taste not strong and in fact quite nice.. haha.. 2) drink extra sour lemon plus celery juice which is quite nice also but a bit sour lah.. 3) best of all! =P drink some liang cha.. was supposed to be an easy one i thought but the liang cha turns out to be damn ku!!! the after effect was very strong also.. hahaa.. some expressions was funny.. =)

back to sch tired with 2 other grps and went off to play bball with some guys.. turn out to be quite fun and best part of camp to me! xD night was hustings and it was super boring and sleepy after a tired day of walking.. shall not mention abt it.. it started at 9pm and ended at 5am.. wth! voted and slpt for another 2 hrs before i headed for tuition.. =X a bit sad to miss the best part of camp which is the announcing of results and taking photos.. but nvm la.. not so attached so yea.. =) am glad to have made it through tuition for 4 hrs.. =) i am so pro! hahaa.. slpt for 5 hrs in the noon after tuition and another 10hrs at night..

thurs: glad to be back to ahs to study with sihui! but actually i realised we talked a lot and eat a lot more than we do work.. =X bad attempt but its really a gd and condusive environment for studying! x) will be back there more often..

2009-06-02T19:00:00.005+08:00

back from chalet and had a 12 hr sleep agn.. =X hehee.. yeah! the chalet was great! =D am glad to have this bunch of classmates.. although we may not be very close but still.. we all can join in and have fun together! =) went quite late den after tt had bbq.. there were a lot of ppl den dunno which one are jocelyn's parents.. =/ so bbq den eat eat den came the fun part.. haha.. celebrated for jun han's bday with fishcake cause he like to eat ma.. den smashed him with flour mixed with water.. yucks!!! well.. it is quite disgusting lah.. poor zy got part of it too.. hahaa.. den of coz there was the real nice chocolate cake.. =) of coz got play ard with the flour + cream cake.. jh ran ard chasing ppl.. i dunno y he make me also! =X luckily only a bit lah.. hahaa.. all was fun! =) only a few of us stayed back at her chalet.. din plan or bring anything to play also except for cards.. so we ended up thinking of games adapted from those taiwan zhong yi jie mu like bai wan day ge xing and the tian cai cong cong cong.. we played the gen wo zhe yang zuo.. wahh.. super funny lah! its really difficult lor.. those taiwan artistes really pro sia.. hahaa.. our theme was school so its like erm.. we ended up scolding teachers also.. =P time flies and it was morning!

the fisk 'cake'! hahaa..

poor guy... =P

finally a happy birthday friend!

11/08! not bad.. most actually turn up.. =)

slept for 3 hrs and den we go arcade, pool at e-hub.. wahh.. e-hub really gt a lot of things to eat sia.. haha.. nice environment too.. first time stepping in there after so long.. finally after much wishy washy suggestions, we decided to go to sing k at bedok here de karaoke.. its really worth it cause quite cheap for students.. omg! its my first time going to sing k.. hahaa.. shy at first lah of coz.. =P i think my friends will be damn shock i went.. =/ we went damn high over the mayday li kai di qiu biao mian song! o.O hahaaa.. sing sing sing sing until throat pain sia... they were even jumping on the sofa lor... hahaa.. it was a nice experience afterall.. x)

slack at home on tues.. feel so sleepy and keeping using the com.. wed had a long long day of chemistry with ms goh from 11.10 to 4.30.. =X drained out.. stayed at home today to do a bit of the piles of tuition hw.. so when will i start studying? =/ i still wan to meet my friends during the holidays de...

2009-05-31T16:13:00.002+08:00

thurs had chem spa.. yeah! finally all the 2 years of spa is over! =) den after tt went all the way to yee tee to reagent sec to support leonard for his tkd competition with class ppl.. after travelling for an hour plus there, we were all disappointed cause the comp was over le.. =( but yea, tj tkd did the sch proud by clinching champion for male and female and 1st runner up for team! =) well done! just a bit disappointed we din get to see anything.. wanted to go buy jh present with friends after tt but its a tiring day and thinking of the super long jouney back home makes me sian.. so i ps them go home with may n adeline.. =X had a nice talk abt our own sec schs on the cramped train standing all the way back home..

fri was the last day of sch! wanted to go straight to vjco concert but no one go with me.. so ended up stayed in sch for a while and went home.. hmm.. was real glad to see the juniors too! =D mixing ard with them makes me feel much younger and happier! cheers up my mood too! the concert was not bad.. their songs are rather common but at least can feel tt they are actually much more prepared than our concert.. they had longer time too.. overall not bad i feel just tt its a bit disappointing.. expected more bah i guess.. like the encore piece most.. haha.. i think its very funny! x) the dizis and suo nas stand up and sit down one by one.. its a high song! =) but their fnj wasn't as gd as ahsco de.. =P

sat morning went to visit sx at tpy after her op.. glad tt she is ok le.. =) very unexpected to recieve the news at first.. =/ just realise tt from bedok reservoir to toa pa yoa can but so fast in half an hours time! haha.. had to rush back to sch to help out in class stall which we set up for the '24 hr can' marathon thing.. was surprised tt there was no ice cream to do float so ended up only sold drinks.. had a hard time trying to sell the drinks.. haiz.. i think the marathon thing wasn't done well.. forgive me for saying this but yea.. too ambitious le.. went for guitar concert at 3pm! hmm.. saw many friends like yeekei whom i haven seen for a long long time! and of coz socks n ys! =) concert was okie.. there to support friends..

going to chalet later.. i am late actually.. should be going earlier to help out but well.. a bit sian leh.. how cum ar? our class celebrating jh bday today.. yup going to make fun of him i think.. =/ i think cause this holiday wasn't mend for fun and play and so tts y the mood.. but yea.. have to have fun first before studies k!

busy holiday ahead with the first wk going to sch for make up althogh only for 1 full day of chem! =/ second week co camp and last wk for consultation and so i am left with a week to study! oh no! okie.. i really need to settle down for proper mugging.. its time to get things going and stop slacking!

2009-05-27T01:01:00.005+08:00

been slacking quite a lot last week after the concert.. was feeling quite restless and maybe the so called 'hangover'? nvm.. its just me wasting time taking afternoon naps and watching videos online.. lol..

wed morning gt care rep meeting.. i was supposed to be giving a bit of the presentation.. er.. somewhat i screw it up cause i din know the slides were changed.. and i accidentally spoke quite a lot of 'actually' in a whole long sentence when i was stammering.. i din even realise it lah! okie.. and i became a laughing stock by my friend.. =X after sch went to meet jt at 18 chef! xD yeah! finally had a chance to meet up and had a gd long talk.. =) concluded tt popular is a nice place to be in but really will make ppl spend a lot of money.. hahaa...

thurs had 2.4km run for nafa! okie.. quite satisfied with myself cause i improved from last year.. =) fri went back to ahs for lunch! xD yeah! made me spend quite some but at least i enjoyed the food! hahaa.. glad to be back at a familiar place once agn.. and this time went back with my class ahs ppl! all of them! 7 of us + 1 erm.. who can't mixed in.. hahaa.. even the tibits stall aunty can tell lor! =P went back tj and did the board for a senior.. at night went for tuition, damn sian.. gt a lot of hw to do!!!!!! 6 to 7 sets of hw! i hate physics man! =(

sat had the 5 items nafa test early in the morning.. sian lah.. din do well this yr.. quite a few just miss by a bit like the stupid inclined pull up.. =( conclude tt my physical fitness level has dropped after not having pe for a few weeks.. at night went for band concert.. er.. a bit late lah.. =X din miss anything though.. concert was not bad.. like their syf piece but preferred last year stage band.. maybe cause of friends bah.. =)

11/08! going to support the band members! =)

this photo specially for vanessa neo! =P she must be elated to see this.. hahaa..

sun went out with section ppl to eat and watch movie.. watch angels and demons! =D i super long nv step into the cinema already lah! glad it was an interesting and exciting movie! ppl shld go watch! :) after movie went to t1 bakerzin.. senior treat us to dessert =D cause of gd syf results.. hahaa.. we gave him a board also.. quite funny and i like the concept of the board! =)

light bulb board! cause my senior has the 'deng' in his name.. ;)

so cute right???? my idea! hahaa.. xD

nice cheesecake ice cream with strawberries! <3

mon: bad day.. had a super bad headache dunno why and having terrible muscle ache all over the body cause of nafa! =( slp quite a lot.. flunked chem test on tues..

2009-05-17T21:19:00.004+08:00

everything is over all of a sudden.. back to the reality of studying life.. the boring one.. =( although until now i still dun have the motivation and mood to start doing my tutorials or study whatever think tt i have missed and dun understand at all.. =/

okie, lets talk abt my last concert.. the very last one.. dun think will have another chance anymore so actually i think its quite a sad thing.. =( although i have to admit tt the whole journey was really tough and more of downs than ups.. haizz... saddening stuffs...

start of the day was late for co.. but anyway a lot of ppl were late also so nvm la.. most of us like si qi chen chen leh.. sian.. not like last yr.. haiz.. went to SCH in a very cramp bus cause its all filled up instruments.. reach SCH and morning prac went slow but smoothly.. finally we had play through cao yuan and guan xian fully without stopping.. was feeling quite sleepy throughout cause the song is slow and i gt a lot of bars to rest..

went for lunch.. hmm.. not bad.. same as last yr de dinner.. erm.. nothing much happen during the afternoon prac also.. just tt atmosphere was still a bit dead.. it was full dress rehearsal and we have different tie colours for different sections! =) guan yue one is lime green! hahaa.. i think its not bad with our black attire.. but the concept is like the band one.. but nvm lah, its nice! =) very soon, it was dinner agn.. lol.. time flies in SCH.. we had our very last minute to chiong and prac the parts we not very gd at.. okie.. i dunno wad happen, dun understand y, but it is definitely weird not talking to somebody suddenly.. the loss of words, awkwardness between us, distant draws further and further ever since after syf.. i really dun like tt.. and i wish to know why.. was glad tt there was juniors and another alumni there to cover up and lifted the atmosphere abit..

night falls, time is getting nearer to the actual concert.. lots of others are getting a bit higher.. busy doing make up and doing up their hair.. this year din have anyone to do our hair.. so yea.. i din bother having make up on but just spray some glitter.. hahaa.. but it was too little den md help me spray blue colour! lol! omg! somebody said i look like 'ah lian'.. =X i was in quite a confusion cause i din put the tickets at the counter.. haiz.. din handle this well and had to rush out to pass the tickets to some others to help me..

concert starts! first song, bei jing xi xun.. hmm.. was okie.. din played quite well for the xin di part.. wasn't in the right mood i guess.. second song was lovism arranged by ser yang.. din get to hear the full version though but i like some of the songs like guan huai fang shi.. =) remind me of some memories.. third song was wu tian lan diao.. a chui da sectional song.. a bit of unstable at first but went alright after tt.. =) i quite like the melody but its repetitive.. composed by lin lao shi! i wonder wad is the comment for this song.. fourth song was cao yuan xiao jie mei.. huirong rocks! she is super gd.. our pipa soloist.. =) but we shld all feel a bit guilty for not able to play better as accompaniment.. next was intermission! went out to look for some friends and juniors! =) mood turn much better after seeing them! really glad to have my classmates for supporting and the juniors too for all their flowers and present! =D after intermission, back to stage for our last performance.. guan xian was nice but draggy.. i am still very amazed by the suo na part most! hahaa.. think he is damn pro.. lion king was a bit slow but alright.. its a nice song anyway.. den here comes the last song which a lot are waiting for! our stunning syf choice piece di er ming zu!!! okie.. i am actually quite looking forward to this song cause its our syf choice piece and also a piece where i dun have to rest so long and bored.. hmm.. glad we din really play too badly for this song! haha.. although most think it wasn't as gd as syf tt time.. but i think i was okie.. =) relieve tt i finally played correctly for tt part of the song.. din wanted to play it at first de.. nvm.. finally had our encore piece of mama hao.. our conductor said a few words before tt and its actually quite touching.. haha.. i mean true la.. so everything just come to an end with our second encore of di er agn.. when the last note end, i already started to feel quite sad.. i dun think i have the chance to ever go up there agn.. SCH is a place tt i have been visiting quite frequently in the last month.. so yea.. a bit sad..

went out to look for friends + collect ticket money + took photos.. =) feel quite bad for not caring abt my dad.. haha.. he is so nice to come on his own alone to watch my concert.. xD the one who supports me all along to start this co journey.. went back to sch after tt and to mac with some random ppl.. reached home at 1 plus dead tired.. had some trouble washing my blue stained hair.. lol.. =/

didn't take a lot of photos this year.. atmosphere wasn't the same too.. so kind of a yi han ba.. =( everything just end too abruptly.. whats left is only emptiness and memories..

my classmates! =D

ahsco juniors + senior! xD

my dear friends! jting and yingsi!! <3

i love dizis!

lastly, the guan yue (but not complete)!

2009-05-16T00:02:00.003+08:00

dunno wad to say.. tml is concert.. dun look forward to it.. nvm.. still dunno if it will end beautifully but for sure i know tt it hasn't been gd this week.. the songs are so not prepared, friends? nvm... dun talk abt it.. i dunno wads happening also.. only thing gd for me is tt i get to know the juniors better through dinner.. =) they are a funny bunch of ppl and i think i can relate to them better! haha.. so it shows tt i am young at heart! yeah.. tt's the only thing gd.. other things are not going too smoothly and i dun like it.. =(

has been tired for the last few days.. not enough rest time or hw time cause coming home quite late.. latest was to leave sch at 11pm.. well.. i am okie but just tt my parents are quite unhappy abt it.. din have time for my family and i feel bad abt it.. just realised tt i miss my family quite a lot.. miss my times at home.. at least i feel better than in sch.. the sch atmosphere hasn't really been quite gd.. sports team having quite some losses, performing arts not doing too well and my classmates are down too.. =( everyone gt their own problem lor.. sian..

had our final physics skill A assessment on wed.. i not bad sia.. study for not long den just go take liao.. haha.. thurs had mock chem spa too.. same thing.. nvm.. its going to be over soon..

2009-05-11T23:57:00.002+08:00

sat was vesak day.. went out with family to pray.. afternoon came home and den out agn to have dinner with my aunties and uncles for an early mothers' day dinner! xD going to my aunt home is really gd.. can eat 2 large bowl of hagan daz ice cream! xD but i think tt's was cause my stomachache.. =X had been having a hard time tt night and the following day.. =((

sun was mothers' day! i feel quite guilty for not doing anything for my beloved mum! she doesn't wan anything also.. so yea.. me and my sis did her a "manual" cook book cause she always complain dunno wad to cook for dinner.. i think its a great idea! hahaa.. well.. but i din help in doing the book.. =X *guilty* somemore tt day i was out practically for the whole day for practice at a cc for my section.. cause there isn't anymore sectionals but dazu for the rest of the week before the concert.. so yea.. =/ we need some practice badly.. so the initially 2/3 day became a full day and i got home quite late.. no celebrations either..

mon, went out to play bb with some 3 other ppl.. lol.. all ps.. erm.. wasn't a very gd experience cause i was too lousy and they are all too pro.. nv wan to play agn.. =/ i think i better go back play with my badminton.. at least i will be slightly better at i think.. though its rusty alr.. =/ ate lunch at pizza hut and the bedok pizza hut was full house! so rare! hahaa.. so their service was kind of haywired.. den we sat there talk talk.. this whole thing took my day away.. so now i am dead agn with my tutorials and spa on wed undone!! =/ help! i need time!

2009-05-11T22:20:00.008+08:00

yeah! long weekend! xD but its going to be over soon.. =( haven been having enough rest for the past few weekssss... so finally i am getting back my slp.. =D but ar... neglected my hw and tests and lectures.. hehee.. no mood to do also.. =P been slacking too much already.. need to get back my momentum soon! i can't wait for holidays to come!! 3 more weeks to go!

okie.. i shall start with last mon, the rehearsal day.. =) had to reach sch early in the morning and prepared to go to SCH for rehearsal but den it rained.. =X rehearsal went quite smoothly i guess.. we had 4 hours in there from 9am to 1pm! o.O wad a long time and its like damn expensive i think! 1hr alr a few thousands le.. =/ somemore time spend there wasn't very efficient also lah.. conductor spend almost an hour to prac the erhu how to change their erhu.. lol.. went back to sch after tt and watched the video taken for rehearsal.. den it was sectionals and i think a lot of us gt quite high.. hahaha.. not only our section but other section too.. x) we need to prac taifeng so we went crazy with it! exaggerate all the actions and blow out loud.. the cello ppl carry up their cellos and play it like a guitar! lol! damn funny.. but it was really enjoyable.. =) also enjoyed the day without sch! xD haha.. the feeling tt there was no lessons and all abt co like mon was great! :D

tues was our final practice.. not too much of prac.. but din played as well arh.. but not impt anymore.. our morale and everything else is quite high.. =) our pres had a long long long talk before we end.. so we end prac at 7pm and he talked until 8pm plus.. lol! our senior came back to help us re-paste all the dimo for ard 14 dizis and this took all the way until 10pm!! o.O zzZZzZzzzz.. this is 1 day before syf.. hahaa.. anyway, i din really slp tt night also.. not because i feel too nervous or excited leh.. was busy doing something for my friend.. din really complete in the end but i am satisfied with my artwork! hahaa.. x) slpt at ard 3.30 and need to wake up by 4.30 to go sch! had to reach sch by 5.45am.. =/ tired....

SYF! : it started raining halfway when i almost reached sch.. =( got a bit drenched.. okie.. so early in the morning when everyone else is getting nervous, we played through the 2 pieces once more.. had to prepare early and go to SCH.. i think we are really kiasu sia.. need to reach by 9am and we reached at ard 8 plus am.. super early lor.. but its a gd measure to avoid the morning jam.. *excited* haha.. maybe cause due to lack of slp, i was getting a bit high ar.. finally, the time reached... we are the third group to perform.. was feeling alright when we are still outside unlike others.. ;) but ar.. the time inside flew! before i really get ready and prepared, the first song started! suddenly my heart start to pump like mad.. fingers were trembling due to the coldness and nervous? and air blown was shaky.. =XXX feel tt i din played well for my first few bars.. =( din do up to the expected.. everything just happen too fast and the second song started!! the fearful song tt everyone is scared of cause we need to count the bars from head to toe like crazy! cannot miss! started quite okie and my friend was really impressive with her solo part.. those going concert will hear tt! =) by this time i have calmed down a bit le.. but still carefully counting my bars.. following strictly to the rythem.. hear some of the other solo parts and they were great! esp the suonas who did especially wonderful tt day! =) i love the erhu jazz part most.. haha.. the way they move is very nice! xD whoo~! okie.. maybe cause i was listening to them to their music and counting so hard tt i was quite tense up and nv really relax to enjoy the music.. towards the bad gt a bit huang and some mistakes.. =(( hopefully it wasn't obvious.. there it goes, just the 10 plus mins on stage was over! felt a bit upset tt i din played my best but yet relieved tt it was over!

managed to stay back in SCH to listen to the rest of the other schs.. =) heard pjc play feng nian ji! haha.. i just think our fnj, ahsco i mean was the best and the greatest! <3>

btw, i saw junle at SCH there doing part time! hahaa.. so coincidence.. =) okie.. so break for lunch.. my section went further out to eat at raffles city.. sat there to discuss abt the judging this year.. took a long time and finally back for the results.. so miss the afternoon section de performances.. =( saw some vj friends! :D yeah! really glad to see ppl familiar ard.. too bad we can't have a full group photo of the ahs ppl! =(

okie.. then here comes the super nervous part.. the results! we had to wait very long before the results are out.. so during tt time, band syf results came out and i feel quite sad for them also.. lots of friends there and they must be crying and very sad.. =(( heart ache for them too.. i'm sure they did their best le! can't wait for their concert too! at tt time, we were all afraid we will be like them, the fate of tj performing arts this year is really quite bad.. so naturally we were scared too.. knowing tt this year competition was really stiff.. although we receive gd comments but still.. finally, when the mcee mentioned the "rong yu jin, gold with honours!" cheers covered the whole SCH! happy happy! xD further on, 4 more other schs were awarded gwh too.. and yup, all deserve it! tjco and ajco started cheering loudly when we were out of the hall.. cause both of our conductor, huang sheng, schs gt gwh! i think he is damn imba! although i am scared of him, dun really like him in the past, but i think he is really a gd conductor who knows how to manage an orchestra.. the way he handle things to some extent i agree.. like wad he said in the last few days.. "we shall not look at the medal, respect for each other is more impt, its the process"

we stayed on in SCH for a long time to spam photos randomly cause everyone was overwhelmed with the happiness.. :D as for me, sadly to say, i have to admit i wasn't as excited or agitated like i wad used to feel.. well.. yea.. indeed i was happy but i feel numb to the results.. nvm abt tt.. so finally after we left, we headed for vivo city the large area at the top for some celebrations.. huang sheng treated us to snacks and drinks.. =) tt's our dinner u see.. hahaa.. some played catching and there we are, just sit down and talked till night falls and celebrated my friend's bday! i think the result to her is the best bday present le.. =)

now tt syf is over, no more late practices, no more intensive training, no more dinners together.. the abruptly suddenly makes me feel empty.. =X i think its cause the last few days together, the 3 days together was really enjoyable.. i really really finally felt into the co.. tt's the way i have been wanting to have.. the process, the bondedness, the enjoyment, the common goal, the heart and mind together... wah.. finally gd memories which i will rmb.. =)

let the memories carry on for another week when we chiong for concert alright? let it end in a beautifully way..

TJCO clinched!

wonderful section - DIZIS!

2009-05-06T23:52:00.002+08:00

TJCO GWH!!! YEAH! WE DID IT! xD tjco clinched AGAIN...

yup.. i am happy that we have gotten gwh! xD was quite worried and afriad tt we can't obtian tt cause quite some other schs are also very strong.. this year competition is really stiff.. with the introduction of dhs and rv.. hahaa.. so in total there were 5 gwh, which is considered quite a lot cause there are only 16 schs.. these include hci, dhs, nyj, aj, and of course tj! =) all gt their own strong points also and each of their choice piece were splendid! shall elaborate abt the rest of the details another day cause i am super duper tired today.. only slpt for an hour last night from ard 3.30am to 4.30am.. =/ coz need to reach sch by 5.45am! yup... so its a happy and joyful day today afterall! though i dun experience too much excitement like the rest.. think i felt much more happier 2 yrs back when ahsco obtained our gold.. although it was just a gold but the feelings and emotions were beyond desciption of words..

dead tired...

2009-05-04T00:15:00.002+08:00

oh no.. its kind of late now and i have to get up super early in the morning to get to sch by 6.30am.. =X i still can't slp.. partially due to my 2hrs nap in the afternoon and tt i dun wan to slp cause of lots of things undone... procrastinating too much over the weekend although it was a short one.. had practice on fri and sat which lasted until quite late on sat..

sat was a tiring day.. slpt at 4am the night before.. =X dun scold me pls.. sometimes just dun feel like slping and i am enjoying the peace and quietness late in the night.. =) but it will result in the tiredness the next day.. maybe tt's wad i want to... trying to run away from reality.. bad bad..
we din really play well on sat and gt some scolding from conductor.. but after a while he calmed down and talk to us.. i think wad he say really makes sense.. giving our best, respecting each other and afterall its the process that counts.. although we all know tt we wan tt medal... recently the co has become much more of a co i have been hoping for.. at least much better than before.. all the encouragement and attempts for bonding together.. isn't tt great and much better? lets hope all these are not too late.. however, i dun find myself joining in the morale of the rest and feel for the change.. it has been quite relaxing and easy going for me for the last few practices actually.. is tt good? i am not stress at all!! and i think this is the worrying thing.. =( i dun feel as much for syf as i used to do so, not like the rest also.. is it cause i dun care? i dun know.. i hope not but i feel so.. =/ to me, i am already numb by the practices and take it quite easy going.. it may be a gd thing ar? i am confident already like wad ppl have always been wanting to instill in me? not in a right feeling, not in a correct way.. nvm.. i need to stop thinking abt these..

haven study for my econs test on tues!! dead.. haven do maths and chem tutorials which will be scolded by tutors for sure.. =/ most imptly i have been dragging and not progressing on the thing i wan to do for a friend whose bday is on syf.. o.O 2 more days left.. =/

2009-04-30T22:52:00.002+08:00

have been wanting to come online de but no time in the past week.. have been another tiring week and not so gd wk for me too.. =( it all started on mon.. forget abt the physics mock spa, forget abt the maths test, forget abt all the tutorials which is not done and forget abt all the lectures and lessons tt i have missed and lag behind so much.. have no mood to do anything else actually.. it has been quite a long time since i sit down properly to do my work.. =X

wasted last sun morn to go pray and at night go watch aj rehearsal.. hmm.. how shld i put it.. the conductor praised them so much so overall it was a bit under expectation i guess.. but they were fairly gd and gt quite some points we must learn from them.. gt scam by sl say gt section dinner but end up dun have.. well.. ate with some random co ppl at lau pa sa in the end.. a bit awkward though.. =/

here comes mon.. terrible one.. walking home tt time 2 section mates came to stand beside me.. thought they so nice wan to talk to me.. but actually they couldn't break the news to me.. they were so tun tun tu tu.. wadever.. i am smart and sensitive enough to guess tt.. how shld i put it.. was overcome with mixed feelings, emotions.. but i was strong.. since tt incident, i told myself tt it is never ever going to happen agn.. and yes i managed to control myself.. was a bit pissed off, somewhat upset and indignant to the matter at first.. but i think its natural k..

pissed tt they are so po ma and have already decided yet still asking me for my opinion when i have no say at all.. :@ it only makes me think worse of u guys and the way u handle things.. always being so suspicious.. wadever..
upset, disappointed is because of the lost in trust in me.. always say tt i have no confidence in myself yet its actually u guys having no faith in me at all! isn't tt right? if not why like tt? but on the other hand, maybe i shld say tt its myself, my own fault.. so much more disappointed in myself.. maybe it is tt i am not able to let others have confident in me.. too uncertain, too much fluctuations? oh well.. no matter how hard i have tried, how much i may think i have improved, how much i effort i put in and how much confident and positive thinking i have been telling myself, it has all come to an end, to a naught.. i can't blame them.. but i just feel a bit pitiful and ke xi.. its a rare opportunity and there it goes.. although the process can be very stressful but still i treasure it tt its going to be my last one, last time and i will give it all.. just tt there is no more.. being always reminded of the past.. how wonderful tt kind of feeling can be when u do it right.. gone.. haizz..... nvm..
i am still learning to think positive.. learning and trying my best to let it go, and yes i am understanding k.. i understand the need for the change and i accept it.. i have to anyway.. maybe its a blessing in disguise? maybe u can say tt i am much more relax now, no need stress and scared for syf already.. since there is nothing to worry abt.. so yea.. no more burden anymore.. but i created stress for the other party? dun think so lah.. she will enjoy it and can do it one.. i am just not up to it.. wadever crap is tt to ask me to play for the concert, i am not going to do it.. the feelings will be different and gone.. =(
conductor "praised" me for my act.. well.. i am not so noble.. not so strong and emotionless.. afterall i am just a normal human being who yearns to strive for the best too.. nvm.. i am still trying to get over it.. just need some time just like how much time i have put in to try to get it right.. i just feel like crying tt day.. the more the conductor say to do our best, and those motivation talks to encourage us, the worse i feel.. only upset abt myself.. incapable..

a band friend of mine has the same kind of problem as me.. =X she is super upset too.. and i understand totally with her... think she just needs time too just like me.. yupp.. stay strong!

tues was rehearsal at SCH, glad to see some vj friends there! =) makes me slightly happier.. haha.. lol.. but well, we screw up our rehearsal when syf is just a wk away with aj ppl watching us somemore.. =X but cause of this and the following week syf, will be missing a lot of lessons! will miss 2 maths and 2 chem lectures! oh no! how to catch up? =/ oh well.. no time to think abt tt too.. dun care.. next tues econ lecture test i dun plan to study also..

just an update on the current syf.. haven been doing well for our sch.. =( guitar one was shocking and chamber wasn't really gd too..i feel sad for them also.. hope it wun happen to us.. worried..

4 days left.. first time i am not feeling too much or excited abt it..

2009-04-26T00:27:00.002+08:00

okie.. just here to say i am really very proud of AHSCO! they did it! GOLD! =D so happy for them! hahaa.. the juniors really rocks! a bit regretted can't go down to watch their performance.. =( but just heard their recording and its really gd! xD they play with their HEART! tt's the thing tt stands out and win others.. its really touching to hear them play.. just like how we used to do tt.. feng nian ji, xing kong... these memories are still very vivid in my mind and heart.. i am trying very hard to search back that feeling.. how i used to feel for the music and put my heart in there.. i think its gone now.. i can't really feel it now.. =X its the music, the feel and not the skills..
(quite a lot of gwh this year.. 11 out of ard 70 schs i think.. o.O some were a bit shocking.. )

anyway, this is a tiring and slack week.. haven been doing any tutorial or hw.. =X zzZzZzzz.. i think its going to continue for another week or so.. wed we only had 2 lectures and then there was a career fair/talks going ard for the j2s.. =) so it was quite slack.. went to the hall and gt some info and freebies.. haha.. some super funny stuffs happen.. lol! =D

fri went to a dizi concert with my section.. erm... consider an outing? not much bonding though.. we gt lost/dunno our way there and miss 1/3 of the concert.. the concert was quite gd.. 2 pro dizi players from nafa.. stunning.. i think it makes me feel worse more and inferior only lor.. =X its suppose to be motivating! it seems tt ever since i became 'stronger', i lose my feel/passion/hope etc wadever tt is for co le.. concerts used to be motivating leh.. scoldings or encouragement used to spur me on and give me confidence too.. but its has gone now! where is it? =( today, sat, we were either tired or dunno wad happen but everything is just quite bad.. hopefully things get better and not worse as the days come nearer..

going SCH tml night to watch aj rehearsal... hope theres some use.. will be missing my tv show! =( guitar's syf on tues.. very scary and can feel the nervous for them too.. wish them luck.. having physics mock spa skill A on mon and i think i am going to flunk it cause i have no time no idea wad to do.. good luck to me den!

2009-04-19T00:01:00.002+08:00

oh well.. i am here agn talking abt co... hahaa.. i bet my friends are tired of these but still its my only way to vent out anything or say truefully my opinion.. first of all, really really a big big thanks to all my friends who have been encouraging me so far!! and most of them are my sec sch friends who have been so supportive.. x) very touched to see tt.. greatly appreciate them for their efforts! haha.. love them lots! =D and also my classmates who cheer me up in class with their highness and songs and laughter! esp yvonne! lol! =)

on the contradictory.. wadever ppl in there say just make me feel worse only.. i dunno why but yea.. u guys dun really get my problem lah.. i think it will make some pissed off when i say they dun understand but indeed it is mah.. different issues we are refering to.. =X i dun mean the stress or problems i am having for playing tt damn solo part but the feeling when inside there.. uneasiness, awkward, separated, left out, alone, loss etc.. not tt u can understand because u dun face such a problem right? nvm.. u wun see this anyway..

well, how shld i put it, there has been a significant improvement after this intensive whole wk practice.. but still we are not up to the expected standard yet.. risky risky.. seems like our conductor is in a pretty gd mood or at least not bad mood this week cause he nv scold ppl.. neither did anyone else.. started recording also but it turns out not so nice leh.. still in pieces of music but not coherent.. anway, dance kicked off the performing arts syf season.. they gt gold but was not happy abt it.. i just realised tt getting a gold in jc syf is very common and so everyone wan to strive towards gwh.. hard hard.. =X

congrats to ahchoir tt gt gwh! whoo~! hahaa.. wishing all the best for ahco! quite a pity i can't go back and watch them perform! but i will be back later to give my moral support! jia you ahsco! =D

dead tired as usual everyday when i reach home.. feel restless and no mood to work.. so ended up struggling with the tutorials and lectures cause keep dozing off.. =/ haiz.. going through the tough times and i am hating it right now but i am sure, i believe i will definitely miss them..

2009-04-11T23:11:00.003+08:00

wad a bad day.. sucks man.. hate it.. disappointed.. loss.. no words can descibe how i feel today.. anyway, i apologise for my stupid behaviour.. first time in tj and it is terrible.. this better be the last.. full of regrets yet uncontrollable.. dun understand nvm.. dun ask.. ='( i will be stronger.. i hope.. =(

had wanted to rant out a lot of things abt damn stupid co de.. !@#*!@# nvm.. just a note to all my friends.. i can't attend anymore gatherings on weekdays or even weekend anymore! ='(( its the saddest thing man.. unless on sun, den my only day of rest will be gone.. =X cause we are having intensive training everyday till 9pm! and early on sat morning.. wadever! indeed we are bad and not up to standard yet, indeed we need more practices, indeed we can't afford to lose, indeed we wan to achieve gwh.. but at such an extent? tt we are not allow to study, we cannot concentrate on studies or hw, or i shld say we are not able to even do tt.. have to sacrifice EVERYTHING else for this whole month.. i have nothing to say, i have no right or not in the position to day anything also.. so wadever! i can understand the rationale behind this, but just tt pls lah, the main problem is tt nobody is bonded together, except u guys and u are expecting all of us to be able to really throw away everything else? furthermore, using those harsh words and methods to treat us like small kids will only make us worse and not bonded together right? like tt how can u expect the music to be nice and as a whole? no matter how hard u try, it will be useless.. but for some others, even if their skills and standard not as gd, but if all of them feel for their own orchestra, then they will be of a much higher standard than something without the core.. haiz.. it doesn't matter..

i just need to do my best.. i tried.. i attempt to.. i fear.. i need to overcome.. but this responsiblilty is just too huge to carry.. i dun wan to be blamed.. i dun wan to spoil the music.. say wadever u wan, wadever u think, i rather not have the solo... but i gt no choice.. they gave me no choice.. i have to do it no matter wad.. i will try.. i will do my best.. the rest is up to luck and waiting for miracles to happen.. say wadever u can, easier said than done..

2009: going through this alone painfully.. :(

this worse this syf is going to be, the more i remember the last one.. with glory although others may not think so or even despise us.. but i will always feel proud of ahsco! i rmb we were not very gd.. but we were in it together.. really together as a whole.. our music is not perfect but we could all feel the music running through us.. really.. we feel for the music.. xD i think tt earn us a big big credit for our gold.. ppl always say tt the judging was less strict tt day.. but who cares? we still achieve tt anyway! =) there was a solo too for the set piece.. my tempo was horrible but constantly, i have nice and encouraging reminders from my friends all ard me and my sweets juniors cheering me up and on.. it was stressful.. definitely but somehow tt kind of feeling turns positive and spur me on instead.. the whole co was worried for me till even tt day, lin lao shi is super nice and din give me extra pressure.. =) i guess tt helps.. and fortunately i did it well! =D real glad to hear tt some of them even feel touched by the music.. haha.. well.. see how the difference is?? 2007: going through with appreciation though stressfully.. =) its a taste of sweetness and bitterness.. "one family, one heart, one ahsco" pls carry this kind of tradition on k? no matter how far u guys can go and wad u all can get, always rmb wad lin lao shi says: i don't care about the results, its the process that is more important! i guess this is the crucial part and why we always will word even harder towards tt goal.. :)

conclusion: its the difference in environment, attitude and treatment of ppl, plus the friends in there (which currently i have none to really really talk to in tt scary place) tt will make a huge difference..

okie.. i said i wun talk abt it but ended up blurt everything out also.. nvm.. its too long anyway for anyone to read also.. so it doesn't matter wad i said.. nobody will know and understand it anyway.. can't expect me to say all these out directly in ur face.. i am not a very outspoken person..

shall just end off with something else besides just co which is taking up my whole life now.. and giving me additional troubles and stress.. have not been listening to lectures and tutorials too.. falling asleep very often and can't control it.. =( haiz.. whose fault? nvm.. my prob anyway..

on a lighter note, just to say thanks for the asg dinner on thurs night! xD it always cheer me up no matter wad! although not many ppl went but still.. =D just tt i reach so late.. hahaa.. thanks to jt and socks for the bag too! :) and 1 last thing.. abt pw results.. tj din do tt well this yr.. only abt 50% distinction.. well.. naturally will feel disappointed after putting in so much effort but hope they can cheer up k! was quite upset tt day after seeing quite some of my friends crying so badly.. as for myself, i love tj050! credits to nivia for everything and leonard for being a wonderful leader.. =)

2009-04-05T22:08:00.007+08:00

i miss my friends

i miss asg

i miss the dinners

i miss co

i miss the practices

i miss the juniors + seniors

i miss the food

i miss the times after sch

i miss the lessons

i miss the wonderful teachers

i miss the sch compound

i miss everything back there and then

gt back some papers this week and there is co everyday except for fri when there is sports day...

did alright for chem and maths, felt tt i could have done better but satisfied cause i expected it worse.. so yea.. physics was as usual terrible cause everyone else did quite gd and the paper is considered relatively easy.. =( well.. just upset with myself.. but considering i pass, like on the dot, this time round, shld i feel overjoyed like wad others think i shld be? or i am just making up a fuss like wad u all say? wadever lah! :@

had chem spa this week on thurs.. it went alright as in i gt the product but quite messy.. finally skill B is over! phew..

fri had sports day.. hmm.. the running and prize giving part is so boring.. but cheerleading was not bad.. hahaa.. all yvonne's idea for bringing in the indian element into cheerleading and it made it so hilarious.. =) i think beta one is the most creative and funny one but too messy already so yea, gamma won in the end! gamma won the overall championship also! :D

there was tuition twice this week and i was late.. =x got scolded for being late.. haiz.. everytime also din wan to go lor.. but no choice had to drag myself there no matter wad.. =( hope it will help me.. but now it is currently making me lose my freedom, my happiness and also a lot of other things.. ='((((

had co for whole week.. getting into the intensive training cause left only 1 month and yet we are still in quite a bad state.. but one thing lucky is tt we gt a better off slot than some other schs.. its going to be a tough fight this year.. there is dhs, hwa chong one after another one.. going to be a challenging one.. ours in the morning and it feels very nervous.. =/ okie.. maybe the pressure is gd? tues our conductor got pissed off by us and left suddenly.. its soooooo scary lor! wahh... first time in history man! he is disappointed and tt make it worse cause if he lose hope in us den we are a gone case.. =( had a scolding tt day by sy and it scared all most us cause he suddenly shouted.. =X i feel afraid for the syf.. its just too much responsibilty to carry cause u will be blamed if u dun do well or cause the whole co to not get the results they wan.. despite putting in the effort, its just no use.. no use.. no use.. =( i dun wan to be the one being blamed.. =( i really fear for tt day to come.. how?

initially had duathalon cip de, but somehow i always din get chosen for such events while the rest did.. =( haiz.. but jr was sick and ask me to sub him and i stupidly rejected the nice offer by him, cause i was thinking i have prac the next day.. =( who knows all these effort to try to make it for the prac was not appreciated and was questioned instead.. so much so for being committed when i dun really have to.. some other ppl who shld be committed instead are not even doing so and ponning have the right to even scold us.. wadever! i know my skills sux and i am not a gd player but i tried my best.. but in there, tt's not wad they see and wad it matter.. u mean nothing to them! calling out to all juniors: pls dun throw urself into the pit if u are not gd enough for their standard or meet their expectation or not prepared to accept such kind of changes/situation.. otherwise, u will suffer like me.. =( hate it man! it just makes me lose heart and confident and will even more.. and worse at such a time nearing the syf.. i dunno how and i wonder.. =(

2009-03-30T00:16:00.003+08:00

okie.. angry with myself cause i just found out something.. if my physics paper do very badly which will happen, its my own fault for not studying hard enough and the result of not practising questions.. =( cause i found that around 20 marks or maybe more of the physics paper questions was given in my tuition revision package which i did not touch at all! its exactly the same questions and answers!! wahh... heart attack man.. nvm.. =(((((

sunday was out the whole day praying for qing ming.. hmm.. yea.. whole wkend is gone just like tt and not much work done.. sch is reopening agn from tml onwards.. :( and lessons start and results back.. busy busy busy..

counting down to syf: 1 month.. o.O

2009-03-27T23:36:00.002+08:00

this terrifying week has past!! yeah!! =D but more to come.. lol.. nvm.. hahaa.. shall enjoy it for the moment first.. hehee.. okie.. so actually this week have been quite an enjoyment though there is mct.. cause everyday can go home early straight after the papers and take some afternoon nap xP plus watching tv from dunno wad time till 11pm.. hahaa.. and online! i think normal sch days dun even have the luxury to do all these man! cause its mct and i guess somewhat give up and also no mood study.. but nevertheless i study okie!! its a matter of how deep it goes into the brain.. hahaa.. work hard for some subjects also hor.. =) well..

lets give an overview of the mct.. hahaa.. gp sux cause i think i wrote out of point and realised it when i was already halfway through so forget it.. jiang chuo jiu chuo.. hahaa.. econs is actually not difficult i think if u study for it.. except for certain ques of the csq.. yea.. but okie lah.. i hope i dun write wrongly.. =X wed had chem and 90% was on organic.. hm.. not too bad but upon hearing more stuffs i decided to close my eyes and lower my expectations.. o.O thurs had maths and tt was horrandous! dunno how to spell.. nvm.. yea.. quite difficult i supposed but of course there will still be ppl who are Aceing it.. lol.. its a disappointing paper cause i was pinning hope on it.. haiz.. today was physics and i have to admit that it was a difficult paper and supposedly easy paper but as usual, i screw it up.. =/ hope history wun repeat and let me pass this time round k!! have to learn to "love" physics! hahaa..

done! relieved tt mct is over and really glad i went back ahs today!!! XXDDDD although the time was really short but i think it is happy.. =) and thanks jt for going back with me cause nobody else wan go back with me lor.. :( its their founder's day celebration but i went back main purpose is to see my juniors but din manage to see all today though... had to rush back to tj for sectionals.. =( there is like lots of stuffs that i am missing out and new stuffs discovered such as the use of the back door once again! hahaa.. and and i bought the new co tee today!!! happy!! xD cause its the nicest co tee man! and its really nice though i dun like the dry fit material but still must really thanks yu jun for the design!! <3 anyway, was back there and me and jt sat outside the stuff room bench talk talk.. =) see quite some unfamiliar faces of new teachers and of coz the best old teachers! haha.. though quite sad din see mr tan, mr mok.. but still we talk to a few nice teacher like ms chan! =D and mrs lee still rmb me.. =)

back to tj and had a tiring and boring sectionals cause i couldn't catch the learning of vibrato.. =((((( actually i badly wan to learn it cause its really very x10 nice when u know how to use it.. slow n stupid me just dunno how and cannot learn.. haiz..

stayed till quite long n late in co room until 7.30pm.. running late for tuition but i really dun feel like going.. its taking up all my leisure time with friends and my freedom!!!!! :(((( can't have dinner with co ppl, asg! le.. haiz.. i dun wan to miss out on anything..

tired day, tired week.. gonna be a tired weekend too.. but really glad no tuition tml morning.. =) so yupp... reverting back to the old lifestyle agn once sch starts next week.... dun wanna imagine and think abt this super hetic term 2 with all the spa practicals + practices + tests + etc..

2009-03-21T21:57:00.004+08:00

thanks so much to everybody who have wished me! xD really really appreciate that! =D hahaa.. thanks for remembering!

hmm.. not tt a great bday.. anyway, none of my bdays were great.. yeahh.. always gt something bad happen since i was young.. like falling down, losing wallets, getting scold by teachers, late for sch etc.. =X though these few years are slightly better.. yea..

spend my day slping till very late this morning.. cause last night was online and i think tt few hours were the happiest time of the day with many many msgs coming in at 12am.. =) thanks friends! so noon wake up le den was doing sh's present which was already 1 month due.. hee.. there goes my day and i din study.. *prepared to flunk mct* =/

but anyway, the best part and unexpected was a phone call from the JUNIORS!!!! omg!!! i love them! xDDD hahaa.. really reallly feeling very bad din go back during the holidays to see them and today was their music exchange with a few other schs too! but it is like really really far at RI! so yea.. din go but they were really nice and sweet to call me and sing me a birthday song plus many many sweet wishes!! xD wonder where they were cause it was very loud!! hahaa.. love you guys lotsss!!!! =P really a great bunch of juniors to have... its always fun and laughter with them ard! work hard and jia you for syf k!! i miss them soooooo much!! =D haha.. i think i am zi highing over here.. lol.. nvm... heee..

late afternoon went 85 to miss dear sh.. thanks for the present and the movtivation/wake up/reminder bday card! i know u will be seeing this.. :) really glad to hv u! at night went to market with family n sis's bf for dinner.. den mum gt me my favourite fruit cake and yea.. only my sis was highing ard like it was her bday instead lor.. =X but anyway, thanks sis for the watch and the cookies.. :) hmm.. though i dun really feel anything special but i think bday is really a gd time to see tt some of ur friends have not forgotten u! just a small bday wish will make my day! x) tt's all i am asking for actually.. it makes me miss some of my friends so much! thanks once agn for all those wishes! i hope they bring me luck for my mct!! wahahahaa..

2009-03-18T22:15:00.002+08:00

haiz.. super sian.. its holiday now yet cannot enjoy.. =(( have to mug for mct and here i am slacking for the past few days.. work done = Fs and displacement rate is super slow.. therefore workdone is very low.. lol.. =.=

sis bought new laptop.. quite cool and i am so toot lah.. everything also amazed.. lol.. =x

fri was temasek ignite.. some videos done by various pdps were quite funny.. haha.. although a bit boring but well, glad tt we now have an asthetics tee shirt! :) hopefully we can get it soon.. i think the best part of the ignite was the refreshment cause the food are quite nice.. =D but no time eat cause need go for sectionals! sectionals was alright but i guess teaching the new members really need patience and time.. realise tt handling a few at a time can be quite a tough job.. =/ oh well.. maybe i am not a good teacher.. nvm.. at night was ASG DINNER!!! hahaha.. omg! i think tt night dinner rocks to the max man!! all was present except for michael.. we were super funny and talk lots of crap and stuffs and i guess it is the first time (almost) everyone was active and involved!!! =DDDDD and me n jt burst out laughing over some new discovered news.. =P so hilarious!! anyway, it was really an enjoyment and relieving time! =D

sat went nus open hse.. have to travel so far all the way to boon lay and wanted to go ntu open hse but well.. no time.. nvm.. wasted damn a lot of time.. =((( open hse was nothing much but saw quite a few familiar faces.. yea.. a bit weird to go now cause still gt a year to go.. all comes down to the min 4 As to obtain before you can have the choice.. then after tt go tj for talentime to support some friends.. =) the performances were all not bad i guess.. =) they were all really brave! lots of ppl went too.. although false chaos din win but they were really great! =D glad to have ur friends up there performing =D used to see and hear them play after sch and now they are on the stage. =) the j2s dancers were super impressive and have done a really gd job too!! and of coz they won 1st! hahaa.. :D congrats to ming da who gt 2nd for his super funny magic performances! =D mr aziz seems to have become his friend!

anyway, today is socks bday. i know u are in camp now and may not see this, but nevertheless, wish ya a HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR SOCKLING!! =D

next 2 days have co prac.. so wishing everything goes well and hope mct will be fine too.. =X

2009-03-09T21:58:00.002+08:00

today our sch had half day!!! whoo~! due to gd A level results!! =D so happy man! lessons end at 10am and today is the right day to pick cause its our longest day.. hahaa.. but still, we had physics mock spa after tt.. din really care abt it.. after tt by right can go home but it was pouring very heavily!!! wanted to go lunch with friends but due to the rain all go home.. was super hungry and cook noodles at home.. den very tired and took a nap due to the nice cool weather.. but it always ended up very bad cause my whole day was ruined by the time i wake up a few hours later.. my self-discipline is damn lousy which makes me super angry with myself all the time.. wadever lah.. haizz... din do much work and had planned to study some stuffs today but nothing achieved.. there goes the time and the day..

every teacher is telling us to work hard x 10 cause it was seen tt our batch ppl are lazy compared to last year's batch and it was their hard work tt gives them gd results.. so we shld learn from them.. when will i start doing tt?

2009-03-07T12:53:00.003+08:00

learn vollayball on mon's pe.. hm.. quite difficult but fun i think.. prefer to learn basketball though but nvm..

tues had econs lecture test and i dunno why gt some kind of mental block or my english too lousy tt i can't interpret the question and dunno how to answer them.. i studied for the test k! just dunno how to apply my answers to the quest! dunno wad they wan.. =( rarr!!

wed: indecisive lead to no where good and wrong choice made. plus weirdness and awkwardness..

thurs: pe early in the morning.. was glad we got mr sim, the super nice pe teacher who sound and look like a very ci xiang grandfather.. had to run circuit 6 rounds but at least own time own target.. had double gp and we had to do compre after such a tiring morning.. haiz.. worse still, there was chem mock spa in the afternoon.. nothing seems to come out when the mock spa starts.. was so hun luan while doing.. well.. but at least i got some solid in the end.. din finished though..

fri: went out with quite some class ppl to kfc for lunch! haha.. =) den went back sch and it was A level results release day.. i can feel the excitement and nervous atmosphere hanging around too.. =/ kept imagining wad it will be like next year when its my turn.. went up to the hall to look at the results.. but we sat at the back and due to my poor eyesight, i coudn't see much or anything displayed on the screen.. but tj did well and much better than last year! so it was a joyous thing to be happy about.. =) there were around 280 plus who gt 3 distinction and 100 plus gt 4 distinctions.. and above? i forgot.. gt this super pro person who took 13 units and gt 8 distinctions! damn pro lah!!! class 07/07 was expected to be the best class with like so many ppl getting at least 6 distinctions and our senior class 11/07 did very well too!! co seniors were all very smart and do very well lor!! so many gt 6 distinctions too!! and most gt at least 3 As which is super duper pro!!! omg!! i am so envious... i also wan tt kind of results leh.. gonna be quite hard for our batch ppl cause rumour says tt tj din do well for pw this year.. =((( worried.. anyway, was in the hall and an sms came over tt says jin jia did super well!! congrats man!! hahaa.. i was also sharing the joy and happiness of the seniors gd results! dunno why i am so happy also lah.. lol.. =/ but they really really deserved it!! all of them so hardworking!! wondering when i can be like them..........

after tt had co.. erm.. so sorry i went late cause was watching A level result.. =X was quite surprised tt there was actually so many dizis.. ard 6 or more new juniors.. so only come to help for syf but yea.. still quite a lot.. ty was busy teaching those beginners and i had to prac with those performing in syf.. by right i was supposed to teach them.. but well.. i can't really teach cause my tempo sucks and i dunno how to listen.. haizz.. i think ended up they are quite pissed off with me and i yue bang yue mang lor.. zzZZZzzz.. =( not a gd senior.. haiz.. sry i couldn't help with anything and i myself isn't gd either..

had asg dinner at night! quite many ppl came and jinjia was very happy!! =D jt came after watching her lzx and was super auntie and crazy and high!! lol! =.= hahaa.. so funny!! realised tt they are still the ppl who we really can talk abt all things under the sun! =)

sat: woke up myself early in the morning, determined to go to tuition to fix my physics.. but upon reaching there and after a lesson, i feel like crying cause i catch nothing.. wad a useless lesson for me! =((( its like i understand damn slow and lag behind throughout the whole lesson and he was damn fast! can't help but feel stupid cause the rest were all able to catch.. haiz.. there was a lot of worksheets given as hw!!! when can i finish them?? really hate physics to the core! i am trying to understand it but to no avail.. how how how???? damn stress up over it.. sorry i ps a few friends who wanted to go for career fair.. =X super guilty over it.. =(

sun: was told to go for make up tuition early in the morning and i did as i was told.. cause he said my physics is very weak and terrible which is true of course.. althought smaller group but still i learn very slow and i think the person was a bit irritated by me.. keep cannot apply the concepts.. haizz... when can i kai qiao?? now having a serious problem with this tuition coming up cause it keeps clashing with cca time and are at night at times.. i dunno how?? tell me wad to do pls.. i wan to improve my physics of course but den.. really need lots of effort put in and at the same time juggling with other subjects.. =(( why in the first place did i take physics when i know i dun really like it? who to blame? myself. i put myself in this state.

2009-03-07T00:03:00.000+08:00

shall update agn tml.. but here in the meantime, CONGRATS TO ALL J2s who have done well in their A level!!! =D so happy for them! =D

2009-03-01T01:52:00.003+08:00

frustrating week last week.. have been feeling very 暴躁 and not concentrating very well.. =(

shall start with last last fri which is friendship day.. it was alright and quite a joyful day i guess.. receiving chocolates and flower from friends.. =) my angel is a nice j1 who replied me! lol.. finally get to eat my fast food after so long after sch despite me coughing like mad.. may and eunice went with me n we ate long john! talked crap there for quite some time.. hahaa.. back to sch and i had co sectionals.. first time have practice on fri! and thereafter.. there goes my early day home! where i end at 11.40am! nvm lah.. prac was not going too smoothly as there is some trouble in teaching this guy who gt attitude problem.. =X well.. at least he tried.. i cannot be so mean.. then, left sch quite late with a few others to have dinner.. for the first time, i feel the cca feeling on fri just like before! :) haha.. went with ty to meet clarance at tamp at night to take da G dizi and he forgot to bring! lol.. anyway, he is botak and looks real funny.. =P unlike his used to curly hair! hahaa.. well.. i feel bad keep teasing him.. hehee.. he wun mind lah i gues.. so we walked all the way from the meeting point to his hse to talk tt dizi and it was quite long! nv knew tt part of tamp existed.. hahaa.. and we went on to zl's (another senior) hse to take another one since its on the way.. lol.. it was quite late but i guess its still quite nice to meet up with the seniors.. =)

the week started with maths test and physics mock spa.. both din really went well and i somewhat screwed up my spa.. =( but it was still quite relieving after the tests are over.. had been slping straight after i reach home or after dinner most of the nights i reach home and not doing anything at all is making me pissed off with myself! sometimes finding myself awake the next morning and having enough slp can be quite infuriating.. really feel like banging my head against the wall. haizzz.... got back both chem and maths tests too and din do well for both.. the maths test was an easy one yet i din reach expectations.. well.. =(

co is not doing well lately too.. conductor is getting irritated quite easily nowadays and i think we are not of standard too.. =( very bad actually.. my section is the one with one of the major problem.. we gt a lot of movement in our ppl and not having enough gd ones to help us.. and tt day when they had a meeting and trying to discuss abt the current issues and sy say i am a serious problem.. hahaa.. can't help.. helpless.. maybe hopeless? =/ gt to work harder bah.. striving towards the goal is really gonna be very difficult for us but i guess we all wan to achieve there..

had been thinking a lot and considering abt another serious issue of my studies.. physics.. no matter how regretful i am in choosing this subject, i can't change it also and there is nothing i can do abt it.. so have to bear on with it till it ends.. how am i going to improve it den?? was considering very carefully if i shld really drop to H1.. as usual, i can't decide so was thinking of taking up tuition.. going to be quite costly but my parents say nvm.. den another thing is tt do i have the time? syf coming and co is taking up a lot of my time so how? and if i go for tuition, need to really spend a lot of effort in studying tt and doing tuition hw.. dun wanna waste money also.. need to forgo a lot of things if tuition starts, like asg dinners on fri and slp on sat morning.. so how? but i seriously need help in physics because i feel hopeless in almost every lecture and tutorials.. :(

fri's pe was horribly tiring cause i think tt male teacher is treating the girls like guys and making us do quite some pt.. had to keep restarting agn and agn if we don't stand up fast enough or count loud enough.. ran 2 rounds gate to gate plus sit ups and push ups and rabbit hops and stretching.. but still i am having muscle aches all over now and my diaphragm muscles is so pain tt when i laugh, cough, stretch or even sit up after lying down it is aching.. =( but i guess i am still better than those who din wear tj pe shorts on fri and gt punished by doing pt on the field which is muddy after the rain the day before.. poor thing man.. =/

anyway, its like so late now and i have already wasted my sat on slping and dinner at my uncle's hse.. feel super frustrated while doing maths today cause i dunno how to do.. used one whole day and just did around 4 ques.. how inefficient i am.. and worse still gt sooooooooooooooo much other work to do!! hw and test and chem mock spa next wk!! oh, i screw up my chem spa on thurs and din manage to get any crystals.. dunno wads wrong tt day.. nvm.. just worried for my actual spa.. zzZZzzzz... dead..

anyway, realise almost a quarter of a year is gonna be gone soon when march comes.. shows tt mct is just in another 3 wks time.. tt's really super fast! failing it anyway i guess.. shall see how..

2009-02-19T23:02:00.003+08:00

shouldn't be online right now.. =X need to do a lot of things for tml's friendship day.. =X but anyway, i think i am falling sick.. =X woke up today with a slight sore throat and now i am sneezing away.. =( this week is a busy and tiring week esp the start of the week where there are 2 tests consectuively.. but anyway, i din really complete study thoroughly for both so ya.. esp econs think will do badly.. nvm.. next wk gonna have more tests and there is physics mock spa!! =//

co this week was alright? din play quite well but we have a lot of new members... and unusually, this year there are quite a few ahco ppl joining tjco! haha.. lol! only 4 but i think consider quite a lot leh!! haha.. i din physco them to join k! oh well, gd luck to them! =P gt a alumni senior who is back to teach us dizi! he is quite nice i think and he is damn pro!! hahaa.. quite gd in teaching us the essential stuffs we need so far so hope to get to learn from him more and will be able to play better k! =)

today gt chem prac.. wah! the ester smell is damn strong and at times choking!! we have already smelled it for the past few days while passing by and it was really terrible.. =X but the prac was okie lah.. glad tt i manage to get the crystals out in quite a gd state i think =D but could have been better de cause i gt a lot a lot of wastage! =( after tt went to co room a while cause no where else to join while waiting and it was orientation for the j1s.. erm.. its just different, not suitable and uncomfortable.. well.. nvm.. i meet sihui in the evening!! she is so nice to come to tj to meet me first den accompany me to interchange to buy my stuffs den lastly we head to 85! x) nice to meet her! =D we were talking abt some timetables and i think i shld not complain abt mine cause hers is much worse than mine lor.. gt so many breaks in between and end at 5.3opm on some days! zzZZzzZz..

think i am so pro for not falling asleep tonight until now unlike the last few days where i slp super early and hating myself when i wake up finding tt it was the next day! =( but now damn tired le.. tml need to wait for ard 4 hours after my lesson ends for co!! =(

ps: do me and my sis really look alike? =X how come so many ppl think so? zzZZzzZzzz..

2009-02-14T00:45:00.002+08:00

just bathe and feel so much more comfortable now! =) haha.. but still... i am very very tired.. =X anyway, happy V day! was v day eve yesterday and the sch is a bit noisy today cause of the excitement going around.. hmm.. but cause it wasn't the actual day so less atmosphere bah.. but still.. yea.. many ppl were giving sweets and chocolates and lots of nice goodies ard!! i feel so ps for receiving them sia.. cause i nv prepare.. =/ zzZzZzz.. forgot abt it lah! thanks so much to those who have given me something!!! xD very much appreciated.. :D but nvm, our sch is celebrating friendship day next fri i think so i will have more time to prepare the stuffs! =D anyway, we are playing angles and mortal game this yr too as usual but it started quite late.. den my angel is so bad, nv write to me de lor.. =( wrote to my mortal but she din reply me.. haiz.. bad luck to give such terrible angels and mortals for 2 yrs le.. =(

had road run in the late afternoon.. sun was okie at first but still quite hot! haven even start running and i am sweating and feeling so nervous already lor.. all the girls start together so the whole track and the starting area was terribly jammed up tt it can't be run.. i ran with my class non-competitive girls only left 4 of us.. and my partner for running went for H3! can't run with me lah! =( but the run turn out quite alright lah.. =) sun was blazing hot and i think perserverance is really needed for a long distance like this.. its the first time i run without stopping for 3.6km!!! wow! =.= hee.. quite amazed tt i did it! feel acomplished after the run but the sad thing was tt i think tt i am still slow and can actually run faster de lor! but anyway, it is over le!!! so shall not think abt it le..

today went a bit high after tt and keep cheering for the guys of our class cause they cheered for the girls! =) alpha this year won the overall champion and i think they have really gd and many runners.. gamma is not too bad too! we won the cheering competition! =)

night, went to asg dinner!!! 3> it was full strength tonight except for huiling!!!! omg! so happy lah! most of us came and i guess we had an enjoyable dinner and craps etc! =D we celebrated jiesi's bday today too!
:D but the thing is tt i speak something wrong agn abt some towel stuff covering the face instead and they are all laughing and teasing me agn!! hahaaa.. =P we din wan to go home but it was super late le!

so, today or i mean yesterday was a super tiring day! =X but feeling accomplished.. =) that's all for now for today.. eyes are closing le.. night! gonna have a busy weekend studying for 2 tests!!

2009-02-01T16:21:00.008+08:00

this year new year started quietly and simply.. new yr eve's reunion lunch was at my third uncle's function room for buffet.. realise nyonya food are quite nice wor.. haha.. den we (cousins) sat down for a game called 'sequence'.. quite an interesting game and can allow so many ppl - max 12 ppl to play.. but my team keep losing lehh.. =( lol.. at night went another uncles's hse their de swimming pool to eat dinner.. =X

first day of new year early in the morning went to pray pray.. den uncle drive us to chalet but keep rushing like mad.. i forgot to bring so many things lah.. haiz.. this chalet is ballot by my dad.. same as the one he got a few years ago but now like lesser things le.. had to help my mum washed all the dirty utensils there before we can use.. and also prepared for the steamboat at night.. damn sian and tired.. this yr steamboat not as nice as last yr de lor.. used to have san zhen hai wei but now only gt abalone which i dun eat.. =( at night play mahjong with my cousins.. and my stupid sis's bf went too.. =.= wanted to do hw after midnight de but fell asleep.. =/

next day, my dad's side relatives came over.. gt a lot a lot a lot of food sia.. cause each uncle brought 1 type den some are so nice! xD hahaa.. it was a bit chaotic also lah.. cause both sides relatives were there and i think it feels some kind of weird? dunno lah... rest of the cousins were playing this drinking game which i decided not to join cause of my slow reaction.. =X looks fun though.. but right is call beer college where they have to drink alcohol but they replaced it with plain water.. haha.. at night came home with a heavy heart.. just doesn't feel right tt sch is reopening on wed.. lol..

ermm.. forgot to say that there is a swing at the bungalow chalet there this time! haha.. i think tt's the best place of the whole chalet.. its so nice and cosy there.. =) took quite some photos there with my sis but a bit unglam and not me ar.. haha.. gt 1 photo super funny tt i laugh until cry.. lol.. shall i post them up? =P wait till my sis upload the photos bah.. hahaa..

rest of the week in sch i was like a zoombie everyday.. so tired.. slp quite late everyday.. sian.. fri was posting results for the sec 4s.. no.. j1s.. dun really expect a lot of them to be in tj this yr bah.. heard tt a lot are appealing or going to mj lor.. i guess it may be better for them.. there was asg dinner on fri and shawn join us.. =) yeah! we are finally regaining more ppl.. hahaa.. glad we still meet up and hope it will continue in this new year k! its the only time and place and ppl where i can be totally be myself and talk! 我的精神寄托... without always being so emo.. lol..

orientation starts tml! wishing all the j1s the best for a new jc life or poly life! have fun!

anyway, here are the very few and rare photos taken during the chalet.. pls dun laugh at me.. =X

this photo of me and my sis is so hilarious tt i couldn't stop laughing! OMG!! =XXX (wonder why i did tt.. =/ so unusual of me sia..)

and tt pic cause me to laugh until i cry.. LOL! hahaa..

okie.. let's have a normal pic then.. =) the view taken is actually quite nice..

lastly, this is the swing which i like a lot! so cosy there! x) if it was a bit higher and not so short it will be better.. hahaa..

2009-01-27T22:15:00.002+08:00

back from chalet.. dead tired cause could not slp with a peaceful heart although it was first day of new year yesterday.. =X holiday hw not done, tutorials haven started, scores not yet memorize.. =((((( bad start of a year ar? heard from tv on fengshui tt those born in the year of goat has the worst 'predictions' this year yea.. hahaa.. maybe its just superstitious but who knows.. =/

shall update the 2 days 1 night chalet another time.. need go do hw le.. so sian.. tml sch starts agn and the cny holiday is just over like tt.. =( anyway, wish everyone a happy chinese new year and hope we will have a great year ahead! :)

2009-01-24T17:22:00.002+08:00

yesterday was cny celebrations in sch.. hmm.. so not fun and no atmosphere de.. well.. maybe there are too little ppl cause only gt j2 batch? =X

okie.. so the day started with me reaching sch super early at 6.45am.. thought i was late.. =/ but only 1 guy reached on time i guess.. hmm.. so after that helped carry instruments and den waited at the backstage for the cny concert to start.. realised tt there is another nice place in tj to be at where no one can find.. hahaa.. quiet place where very little will be passing by.. =) was quite cold at the backstage there while waiting.. den somemore was quite nervous abt the performance.. first time performing in front of so many ppl in tj on stage.. =X well.. luckily the performance went okie.. not too bad i think from wad i heard from some friends.. =) although i still gt blow some parts wrongly.. =/

after tt went to drop in rm for meeting.. mrs lee is so nice.. gave us hongbao.. xP hahaa.. it's the thought tt count.. so it was cny carnival.. not many stalls this yr.. quite boring i think except for the usual dunking machine.. there was only commotion when mr tong gt dunk with his son.. i think his son so poor thing but he seems to enjoy it.. haha..

yesterday's sun was super hot but we had to go to the field for the amazing feet thingy.. so tj managed to break the records for having the most pair of footwears in making the yog logo.. we stood around the field under the blazing hot sun for quite a long time!! =X and waited for the guest of honour to come take pictures etc.. so lame.. =/

waited for time to past and the gates to open to go home.. so sian man!!! i was wondering last time wad we used to do after sch de celebrations ar? waited in sch for a while and meet sihui to take food from her.. x) thanks gal! its quite nice k! i finished everything by myself.. heee.. =P den went find mum and sis to help carry their shopping groceries home.. lol.. and slp throughout the whole afternoon..

at night went to 85 for dinner with asg! by right shld be like a reunion dinner but i guess i wasn't successful enough for organising.. too last min? everybody also busy gt their own plans le.. but nobody wan to organise mah.. okie nvm.. at least some came.. thanks for supporting.. haha.. there were 5 of us at first den michael came to join us later! =D although there were just the few of us but still we can talk until so late.. hahaa.. michael was damn sadistic and gay!! lol! as funny as he was.. hahaa.. and yeow jiang is so sad.. he so ke lian, always experience so weird stuffs tt is quite funny but yet at the same time so pitiful sia.. haha.. can't help to laugh at it.. =X poly friends are all so hetic with their projects! hang in there k! =) okie.. saw quite many ahs ppl there too.. din went back ah in the afternoon cause co no one going.. =X yupp.. saw the guides ppl and chermaine pri sch friends dinnering there too.. was a bit envious of them having so many ppl and still can keep in contact with cca ppl and pri sch friends.. :( i also wan..
having many friends can be easy but having close friends and maintaining it is not.. and tt's just not my strength. shutting in? or out?

2009-01-22T21:30:00.003+08:00

oh well.. every since sch has started, i haven been getting enough slp also although i fell asleep quite early at times and finding myself awake the next morning with a scare that i haven completed anything or any hw.. =X =( this is how sch is like for the past week.. =((

so first day of sch on the 12 jan was a great day, the best day cause we were release at 10 plus am and get to go home. =D ended slacking and din do any of my undone holiday assignments.. tues 13 jan was open hse.. had 2 period of lessons and preparation.. super sian.. very little ppl came lor.. unlike last yr, this yr dun have the fun or warm mood de.. well.. not many juniors came also! nobody wan to come tj le.. all either going vj or mj lor... so sad.. =((( haiz..

shall not talk abt those boring lectures and tutorials le.. but quite glad tt i haven fell asleep in any lessons.. =) oh!! btw, one interesting thing or i should say one bad news to say is tt my gp tutor is the dm of tj! mr tong!! hahaa.. well.. i think a lot of ppl dun like him and is afraid of him but i find him still quite ok till now leh.. i think can learn something from him.. some of his stories are quite interesting too! but need to bring dictionary to sch everyday!!!! omg! there are a lot of rules in his class and i am afraid of him too.. cause he is super pro in memorizing ppl's names and faces.. he can guess most of our name correctly and yea.. he rmb me.. =X i better be careful and not get into any trouble from now on...

fri had dinner at eighteen chef with ard 18 ahsco members!! wow! din expect so many ppl to come also.. hahaa.. lol.. cause we sort of wanted to help give michael a farewell party but i think ended up it was like just a gathering insteas cause he so busy lah.. not free lor.. meeting someone else den leave so early... haha.. anyway, wish him all the best for his studies overseas! =) hmm... the rest of us sat down there for quite long till 10 plus until a person suddenly came to tell us tt they are closing soon.. hahaa.. the few of us the seniors were "brainwashing" and scaring the juniors abt how bad jc life is.. wahahhaaa.. *evil* =P den make until they are scared and dun wan sch too.. =P heheee.. oh, and feel quite bad abt leaving the younger juniors on their own without talking or caring abt them.. =X

a lot of ppl hor? hahaa.. we were quite noisy esp the juniors! =X

the lao rens cum seniors.. san dai tong tang/3 generations.. =)

sat was go green day.. had to go sch first den go 544 there collect old newspaper and stuffs.. well.. this yr is much faster than last yr! we finished before 12pm! =) realised tt some of the sch uncles, those who close gates, are quite nice.. they helped us quite a lot.. we had quite some fun tt day.. after tt was lunch at 538! nice food i think.. hehee.. but had to make them wait so long.. =X

met sihui on sun quite randomly.. we were doing hw and somehow started chatting and realised how busy she was compared to me.. and i am really impressed by her!! she can cook and do so many housework and take care of her sis etc every day plus the sch work load!!! omg! if this gets to my mum, she will start nagging at me all day long agn! sihui, i know u will see this, i really admired for this man auntie!!! =P hahaa.. and she cooks well.. ;) yup.. anyway, take care alright! =D

pe has started for 2 weeks already and i am so tired after every pe lesson.. =( cause we are running from back gate, up slopes!, den all the way back to sch.. which the pe teachers said it is abt 2km but it feels much more lor! well.. no choice, gt to train for road run! =((( but anyway, run already also no use... haha.. cny is here and all the things that are burn away and back doubled and more.. =X like today after pe, we are having ben&jerry ice cream! xD 4 tubs for our class! heeee.. gt it from last yr 'be urself day' free vouchers! strawberry cheesecake is the nicest! =DD

had cny rehearsal on wed.. it was bored and took a long long time.. but i actually found a nice spot in tj to be at.. but i think if i go there let ppl see, they will think i am crazy and emoing.. =X but its really nice up there, with nice wind! =) i shall try out there more often if possible.. haha.. anyway, there is co appeal audition on wed too.. there is no dizi tt came.. this is really worrying cause we are really short of dizi players and i cmi.. =( just have to pray very hard tt there will be someone who can play dizi in the j1 intake.. =( if not die.. how am i going to survive there when i am already drowning now?

there is cny celebrations tml.. gt concert, carnival and the amazing feet.. =X well, tj is trying to break the record of using the most pair of shoes to make the yog logo.. yea.. tml gt to reach sch damn early at 6.40am!!! i haven tried tt.. i dunno whether i can make it not.. hopefully bah.. and hope tt tml's performance goes well.. its such a bored day tml cause i dunno wad to do after sch.. =( unlike in the past where we go out together with friends etc.. this yr is a total failure.. i dun feel much new year mood.. anyway, i can't have new yr too... =(( going chalet.. lol..

feeling a bit sad tt tml's asg dinner wun have many ppl.. quite some already have their own plans le.. =( haiz.. i miss asg quite a lot.. like wad jie si said on mon, we like very long nv do hw together le hor.. everyone is busy with their own stuffs la i guess.. no choice too but just can't help thinking of the past.. maybe maybe i am not just quite fitted into the jc life.. it feels very empty and hollow and lost and aimless most of the times.. unlike some others who are at least enjoying the least bit of their pdp or class or friends or wad lah.. nvm.. i shall stop here le.. i shld be glad i am seeing some friends tml! with food.. =)

oh no.. its a long post agn.. =/

2009-01-11T15:53:00.006+08:00

school is reopening tomorrow. after 2 months and a week of holiday. although it is slightly longer than usual, but still... it feels short. don't like school to start and in this new year of being a J2 and taking A level and having SYF etc.. well.. i guess we have no choice. time flies.. feel so guilty for not doing my homework earlier! and now, i have no choice but to chiong them. of course, i won't be able to finish but will try to do as much as possible without copying.. =P had been sleeping very late in the middle of the night for 2 consecutive days already to do hw! there goes my sleep.. =((( but still, piles of work undone. esp econs project!!! zzZzzZzz...

anyway, good luck to all sec 4s taking O level results tml! =) can feel the excitedness and nervous for them too! memories of last year... =X

here is the post for 30 dec 08, ahsco concert- 星语心乐 :
was super tired the night before and slpt very early. unlike the usual cannot slp nights before major events.. went to help them take flowers which is near my house and i look so funny carrying them so bulky all the way to school. =/waited and prac a bit then board the bus to SCH. still no nervousness..

had a full dress rehearsal run through for the concert. hmm.. it was okie.. at least much better and have improved! =) watched the soloists and sectional performances.. percussion was superb! x) then, we had dinner and have prepare, make up etc.. i so regretted forgetting to bring my camera!!!! the most important thing man! =((( so ended up pictures taken were very little, not only us but the whole co lor! there is not even a group photo! =((( the sec 3s comm ppl were very busy while we, the alumni, are hanging around and having fun! haha.. actually there are quite a lot of alumni back to perform too! ard 13 of us! =)

i managed to escape from the make up.. heee.. =P but ended up i was locked inside the room with my mischievious juniors and they put some for me!!! haiz.. no where to escape.. =X well.. my juniors and super cute but naughty at times! almost all are hua chi, and easily caught by the laughing diease.. sitting with them during meals can really be fun and will help prolong life span.. hahaa.. really can make me laugh heartily too.. even xiao peng, our sectional teacher, also will get affected during the practices! =D yeah! we had a few section photos and was glad we did! really going to miss them a lot man! =(( such fun juniors!

so came the actual performance!!! 0.0 hm... the seats are not fully filled of course but at least the way the audience are seated makes it look like there are more ppl.. well.. not too bad already i guess, better than expected bah.. the first half was not too bad, solos and section performances were gd too! den during intermission, went out to audience there and realise that quite some teachers came!! xDDD teachers like mrs lee, ms chan, mr poh, mr mok and wife (nv gt to see =( ), mdm sim etc and a few i don't know and our guest of honour, dr boon, the principal! hahaa.. so glad they came to support ahsco! =) most who came for the concert were parents, siblings, and the alumni not performing! =) saw haiting and her brother too! haha.. we were then chased back and second half of the concert started! hmm.. it was alright, but dizi chong zou was a bit screwed up.. =/ well.. still, it was okie la! =) after all the songs end, must thanks to this person who shouted encore! =) haha.. we were so afraid there won't be one.. then, flowers was presented to lin lao shi, our dear conductor, and a picture of him! haha.. drawn by our pro artist yu jun.. =) and he bowed to us, saying thank you etc.. omg!! can feel the sadness that it has ended.. but no matter what, it ended beautifully. =) dr boon even praised us and commented on the girls power and that the last song she could feel the wind.. lol! there was no time to take pictures, we had to clear off.

since all the alumni are going lau pa sat to eat supper, we decided to go with them too.. don't know when the next time it will be when we can gather together le.. sad.. =( so we didn't take the bus back with co. haiz.. miss the photo taken with the juniors and xiao peng. we were afraid to miss the last train! but luckily we didn't. jolynn did a farewell gift for michael too. it was a score booklet for him! haha.. thinking that he is going to leave for america is saddening too.. well.. at least we all had an enjoyable time together. =)

thanks so much to all that came down to give their support and the comm and teachers who had put in so much effort to make the concert came true! the concert was a success! =)

2009-01-07T23:05:00.003+08:00

not a very gd way to start 2009 with this post.. well.. its gonna be a short one though.. gt prac today and had a quite bad scolding from conductor.. haiz.. =((( just have to admit i have no rhythm sense and really dunno how!! my learning ability is slow too k! not tt i did not try and nv prac.. wadever.. nvm... i dun wan to implicate tjco's reptutation also.. dun wan to be the one who always spoil the music but just cannot control lah.. can't blame me for not having confidence or self-esteem also right when u always get scolded.. haiya.. forget it! =( just hope tt at least i will still be able to take part in syf....

sch is reopening too! =(( tons of hw haven do yet.. and there is still an econs project! haizz.....

2008-12-31T23:37:00.005+08:00

last day of 2008! hmmm.. let's recall a few happening things this year.. i guess its quite an effort to make it through this yr.. there were many happy occassions enjoyable ones and many many new changes with a brand new environment this yr despite tt it is quite a sad yr actually..

so first thing first abt 2008 is stepping into a new jc life.. well.. mix feelings, i wun say i choose wrongly or regretted going tj.. just dun like the jc life.. yea.. some other major events include:

- tjco concert: a great one, and a first time experience of performing in SCH for a concert!! =D ;

- 2 deaths consectively ='( in a yr just like 5 yr ago which sux ;

grandaunt and me.....

- the everlasting and worrying PW: glad to have my pw mates ard! we will make it! =) all the times together was really memorable and enjoyable despite the hardships and late nights + trips to duman high hostel.. =X haha.. interview with jack sim! x) ;

- hk trip with tjco: wonderful experience and rare opportunity to perform in disneyland! glad to know some of them more too.. =) hope it helps more or less.. =X ;
- last but not the least this yr end, AHSCO CONCERT! was a successful one! considering us as a first timer, it was great! =) love ahsco many many!!! to all juniors: thanks for the memories, we did it! xDDD

other pics and details of concert to be up soon.. =) this pic is so nicely taken!

okie.. further to tt this yr.. quite some happening news will be the sichuan earthquake.. the melamine incident.. and the terrorist attack in india.. deaths.. so many deaths.. ='((( depressing news.. many riots and political issues this yr too.. and of course not forgetting the economic crisis tt has made everyone feeling so down, esp the adults.. yea..
only happier thing this yr is the beijing olympic.. was really amazing! =) finally spore achieved something.. and its leap yr this yr, so we gt 1 more day! lol.. =X

okie.. so 2008 is going to be over le.. and i am so not looking forward to 2009.. going to j2 has nothing to be happy abt.. with the stressness piling up once more and to it, there is syf.. because it is tjco, therefore the stress is tripled.. =( hopefully, i hope, 2009 will be a much better yr alright?

my new class, 11/08 and clasamates!

missing the ahs ppl... ahs-tj ppl during pae..

many undone stuffs left this yr.. but at least there is still one accomplishment for me which is, i have managed to keep my blog alive! =) not tagboard though but nvm... still feel a sense of sastifaction.. :)

2008-12-31T23:15:00.004+08:00

christmas at johnathan's hse.. kopped from facebook.. heee.. =P

at the karaoke room! zhan yi can really sing very well!! =D
ppl whom i haven seen for years! thx!

all the girls! =)

2008-12-25T23:12:00.002+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS! =)

went to johnathan's hse yesterday night with the 2bees ppl for xmas celebration.. by right was to go minghui's dunno who de hse for bbq but it was raining.. yea.. was totally stunned when reached his hse! =X really very big and wow~! got a karaoke room and also pool table and lots of other things! ard 3 level high man! really like wad they had described.. much more impressed too.. =/ but the bungalow is in a very ulu place in simei.. think i will get lost there! hahaa..

quite glad tt i went.. although not very close with them but all of them were very nice! xD thanks so much for inviting and rmbing me! saw many friends who i haven't seen for ages nor talked to! ger, mh, eunice, xiu! jimmy, zhan yi and all the other guys! =) had quite an enjoyable time with them.. get to celebrate christmas at least and feel the festival mood.. :)

so we were at the karaoke room most of the time singing.. at first i feel quite weird but it got better as time pass.. thx.. =) there are lots of nice songs! and zhanyi can really sing very well lah!! binghao was stunning! o.O such a low low voice when he sings unlike the usual high pitch voice! we din had a countdown cause the time was over.. was exchanging christmas present then.. haha.. well.. 4 of us got the same packaging choc for exchange but diff flavours.. heee.. =P had nice choc log cake and sparkling juice.. =) went home quite late.. but thanks to jt for the ride home.. pics to be uploaded when i manage to receive them which is going to be a long long time.. heee..

went home very late but still very awake so went online.. check my timetable for next yr and wah!!! i think it is much more horrible than this yr de lah! hate it man! :(((( haiz.. gp teacher is mr tong, the strict dm.. oh man.. i feel like dying.. =(

next yr is going to come real soon in 6 days! =(( i dun wan sch to reopen! so many things still not fulfill this yr.. and i still haven continue to update on my hk trip.. lol.. =X

2008-12-20T23:20:00.003+08:00

it has been quite some time since i last posted.. =X busy busy busy! with CO! and of course watching my dramas agn tt i am so lazy to even sign in msn and to blog.. =X well.. quite some stuffs have happened over the last few weeks..

first, celebrated my mum's bday on 1st dec.. =) bought her a fruit cake which i think is wad i like.. hahaa.. =P and i ate most of it! heee.. =D

there was quite some meet up with friends i haven seen for a long long time! met up with ppl like sh, ys, sl, cher, ahsco seniors and my class ppl during the cip! x) still gt some sec sch friends haven seen them! like nicole lim!! when are we meeting up ar??? =D and it was brought up by someone to have a pri sch outing.. but its like er.. nobody wan to plan also lah.. so sad.. =( i think it will be quite interesting if we can have one! =) well... too bad..

hmm.. besides those meet up, there was co farewell chalet from 9 to 11 dec.. it was at aloha loyang! wow~! the place super big! hahaa.. but very little ppl go in the morning for the amazing race.. =( it was fun! and i can really see the effort put in by the juniors to plan this thing for the sec 4s.. yupp.. although very little ppl, quite pathetic but it carried on! =) the 'pond' at vivo city was very fun! gt ourselves quite wet sia! hahaa.. naughty juniors! din know tt that was such a gd place to have fun! xD and it was a bright and sunny day! the weather is super nice man! =) so nan de.. at night gt really lots of ppl come! seems like a co gathering to me instead of a farewell.. hahaa.. but not bad lah! gt a lot of nice food too! YEAH! I GOT TO EAT MY BBQ MARSHMELLO BREAD!!! XD heeee.. SUPERB! =P din wanted to stay over the secod day cause next day gt co ar.. well.. stayed in the end though.. =)

next day, 11 dec, thurs: came home quite early and slp.. haha.. was super duper tired sia.. din really get to slp much for 2 consecutive nights le.. =X wan to die liao.. after tt went for co (tj).. see i so guai lah! so little ppl come lor! but i went off early to meet alicia for movie.. watched 'the day the earth stood still'.. not bad but the ending too abrupt le.. yea.. so spoil the whole movie i think.. rarely go for movies but i think shld go for more.. =)

sun, 14 dec: meet ty in the afternoon and went for a free concert at esplanade.. din realised it was like ding xiao yan's concert.. lol.. so there was nyjc, ruan ensemble and prss performing.. is a 1 hr concert.. not too bad.. quite nice and interesting.. =) too bad i din see sm.. den after tt went for tjband concert at tj audi.. hmm.. think it was ok but not as nice as the one in may.. yea.. they wanted to sing a happy bday song for their teacher but she was mia and it became leng chang.. hahaa.. well.. overall, i still like ahband christmas concert better.. higher i guess.. esp the one in 2005 at vch, when tsunami was happening.. =/ after tt we had dinner together.. quite a nice and new experience going out with a non-sec sch friend for a start.. =)

wed, 17 dec: was supposed to go for co de.. but there was class cip.. just nice the timing clashed so nicely.. =X din wanted to go find another one myself or go alone cause 29 i also cannot make it, so decided to "pon" co.. yea.. not intentionally k!! hmm.. actually i feel very guilty and bad for missing the prac too.. =( went all the way to queenstown to some church + childcare centre for our cip.. but den just so nice, when we reach there the person in charge told us they had to go for a movie and only gt ard half an hour for us to do.. lol.. =@ waste our time to travel so far to just do for half an hour.. lol.. so we just went in and play + talk to the kids there.. all of them are malays coming from a not so fortunate background so some were quite vulgar and hyperactive while some very quiet.. hmm.. i really got no fate/yuan with children.. can't handle them and feel so awkward, dunno wad to talk to them abt.. haiz.. i think i can communicate better with old folks leh.. kids just dun like me lor.. =((( den after tt had to leave, and we dunno where to go next and ended up standing at the roadside besides a junction to discuss for at least half an hour or so + feed the mosquitoes den leave the place.. =/ by tt time too late le.. wanted to go back for co but no time and i nv bring my instru.. yea.. ps.. =X

thurs, 18 dec: went for product training at lavendar at emitasia office.. cause wanted to work to sell times and reader's digest magazines.. i din know it was such a long taining lah!! they keep repeating and repeating and drag and drag and really teach us how to bluff ppl into subscribing to the magazines.. i feel so wei bei liang xin.. haizz.. this is what the person told us "we never lie to people, we are just not telling them the truth".. lol! wth! is there a diff? luckily its still not as bad as selling electronic products like wad sh say.. =X meet sis and mum at bugis after tt.. was super hungry and they brought me to eat gd food at MOF! xD hee.. eat until super full sia.. den after tt go suntec walk walk go home..

fri, 19 dec: woke up quite early at abt 7am! had to reach st hilda's sec by 8.15am but meet sh first at tamp inter.. there was another gal working with us and she also from tj, for internship.. but so unfair sia! they are more highly paid than us! we only gt $5 an hour and they gt $40 a day! for ard 5hrs of work.. haiz.. wah.. den another super pissed off thing is tt ar, when we reach there, we were told to go promote and ask ppl to visit the booth we set up to buy the magazines, and i did this stupid job of asking ppl to fill up the lucky draw to get their particulars so tt they can call up to pester them in future! den ar, those ppl who are interested will den go to the booth to subscribe to the magazines and the person in charge called jaye (gal), soem manager will be standing there to collect the money and sign the receipt for the commission lah!!!!!!!!!!! WTH!! wadever.. forget it! became super slack after tt.. it wasn't easy to persuade ppl to buy AND even to ask them to sign up for the stupid lucky draw!!!!!!! gt rejected so many x 10 times! but i super ps.. keep asking back the same people.. cause there were not many ppl actually and by 11am, almost all are gone.. just for the first hour plus, i speak and repeat and repeat until i almost no voice.. =( we were all very hungry before 12!! lunch was provided like we can call mac delivery but order only a burger and a drink.. lol.. so we decided to take the advantage by ordering mcspicy and the largest drink!! hahaa.. they nv state clearly mah.. =P but the worst thing is tt all the four of us hv not enough money to order.. =X i forgot to bring money for the first time! =X went out in a rush in the morning lah.. hahaa.. well.. so ended up we call for help and i feel quite bad for asking nalina's mum to buy and deliver there.. =/ time's up and we packed and go! =) we had to do all these ourselves, bringing all the heavy books and magazines and the portable stalls etc back! 2 took the cab back, and me and sh went off from there.. the funniest and lamest thing was tt we talk talk talk, think think think as we walked and not realising where we walking and den wad u guess? we walked for ard 50 mins back to the same square!!! LOL! den, we decided to the take the bus to tamp interchange which is actually so near, only 3 short bus stops away! hahaaa.. was so tired tt i dozed off in bus 17 on my way to ahs for co.. which i was late from morning.. =X ps.. luckily din miss the stop..
was sight reading sai ma when reached there.. quite fast sia! =/ they gt their syf costume tt day too.. er... for gals: red top + black pants; guys: white top + black pants.. hmmm.. okie lah i think.. but i think it was a waste of money for them!! could have just wear tt for the concert den we dun need to buy the red long sleeves shirt lor! nvm..
there was asg dinner! =) well.. but very little ppl.. =X talked abt our outing and came out with a conclusion.. they all ar! set the time at 8.30am! so early and the person who is late must treat mac! =( i wun be late k!!! hahaa.. all targetting at me.. =(

tired.. zzzZzzzzZZzz... doing work at home these few days.. i mean earning money (cheap labour kind).. do until my muscles all so pain.. =( no time for piles of hw too.. =((( i need to really get started real soon and be hardworking!!!!

2008-12-04T21:47:00.006+08:00

okie.. shall try to shorten up my post and replace it with photos.. if not dunno going to take how long.. =X

day 1 - 24 nov, mon: arrived at hk airport at ard 3 plus pm.. was super sian on the plane cause sitting alone with a small girl.. straight after taking our lugguage, we set off to take a one way tram up to the peak.. whoo! the tram move up very steeply sia.. haha.. nice view too.. =)

can u see? cool reflections right? haha.. lol!

the tram up to the peak!

next, we went to the wax museum.. wow! there really gt a lot of famous ppl 蜡象 and some really look alike! like 刘德华, 古巨基 and lee kuan yew! but we only gt half an hour! too short! did not get to see finish all.. =(( but took quite some photos.. =)

look like right? haha..

guess who this is! but don't look like him at all! =X

wow! i took photo with MM Lee! =P

i was trying to act cool but apparently i can't =(

he looks quite like the real person hor? hahaa

after tt was dinner, we had to rush through dinner cause by 8pm we must reach the avenue of stars there to watch some lazer show which was not really very nice.. lol.. so just go there took photos cause the night scenery in hk is so much more vibrant than in spore.. saw andy lau's handprint on the floor but forgot to take pic.. =/ after tt go back to regal oriental hotel.. hmm... gt 3 beds plus 1 put up bed.. not too bad, still got some space to walk ard unlike some other rooms which is really squeezy.. =X

okie! shall stop here first.. bits by bits bah.. haha.. =)