oh well.. i din say tt it is all UR fault.. i admitted tt i was at fault too.. i noe i have.. and i apologize for it.. and u just think tt u are the only one who is compromising mi but do u noe tt i also have been compromising u too.. there are times which u have done things wrong too.. isn't it? well.. everyone makes mistakes.. i really noe tt there are times which i overdo things.. i noe i am at fault.. i did when home and reflect on wad i did.. and i din say tt i was right wad.. so it is not MY opinions.. it is YOURS.. and u are just trying to let ur imagination run wild.. yeah.. well.. i admitted that i have been reacting very big over this matter.. but the truth is that i really very zai yi.. thats y i am doing this.. and i only wanted u to response mi.. tts all.. if u are thinking other way.. den i dunno.. i noe tt i should not have done tt.. maybe i have over reacted it.. so i am now apologizing for wad i done k.. and maybe ppl will just think tt they are always correct.. becoz i am not the only one who has a change in attitude.. i think u have too.. u are having more actions too.. maybe tt is just wad i think.. lol.. and u suppose mi to noe how to react to them too? maybe u din notice lyk i din notice wad i did too.. and i dunno if i have been acting innocent but i am blur.. and most of the things are just ur opinions.. have u really think of ur actions too? and do u noe tt saying sorry sometimes is not easy too? it takes courage.. and i said tt to u face to face once too.. well.. it is not easy.. i noe the time when i said tt to u it was not really apporiate.. but i tried.. have u? at least i am willingly and i face up to admit my mistakes and apologizing it to u.. and yes.. ok.. i did tell 2 people abt this.. if u wan to noe, i told jieting abt it.. i really din tell anyone abt this anymore.. maybe i just express it more through some tags.. i really din tell anyone le.. believe it anotx is up to u.. and this whole thing is revealed through ur post first can.. and i din do anything to ask ppl to believe mi.. u can ask huiling.. i din ask her to.. i told them and they are just listening to mi.. and u make it sounds lyk i am asking for their pitiness? no lah.. pls.. i dun need.. u are just trying to imagine wadever u think i am.. den i can also think the other way mah.. i can also say tt u are posting abt this to revealed it and make them think it is my fault? but i din.. sincerely.. sry.. i noe i shld not have put it so bluntly.. but have u also consider my feelings too? i also feel angry with u.. but i am even more upset and disappointed.. i dun think tt u dun wan to salvage this friendship.. just tt u din give mi any high hopes.. and i am now trying to make up for my mistakes and i hope u will too.. and i wish tt this will end fast.. this really had a big impact on my life and i think it goes the same way for u.. and i noe wad u mean by those crap actions and y is it after march hoildays.. but i have already noe wad they are and if it because of tt that u wan to push it until after march holidays, then i think this is stupid.. because i din do tt anymore and i hope u will stop wad u are thinking.. for those things, i hope we can forget abt them or talk them out because to spell it out clearly, we actually wanted to the best for co.. and for tt matter, i noe i was wrong.. i apologize face to face to u was actually abt tt matter.. i guess i was too impulsive and din think before i said and wad i do.. so i am really sry.. but i hope thing will end soon so tt we can achieve wad we actually wan in the start.. i really think it is dumb becoz we could have talk through them abt those matters.. i will have listen to my mistakes becoz i noe i was wrong.. i hope we can make things clear to each other before anything else even happens and this gets worse..

wad the hell.. wad did i do? i din say anything to anyone abt this matter except for huiling can.. pls lah.. it is u who is trying to make the matter worse and think on ur own wad is happening when the things are not true.. and do u really mean it? well.. i dun noe.. and if i ever did something wrong to offend u or i do anything wrongly, u shld tell mi right? can't we? u din just mi a response on wad did i do and din tell mi y k den u are just trying to put mi with the crimes i did.. wad have i done wrongly?? i admit i have made some mistakes and maybe offended u in some way.. but i have already apologize for it.. wad more do u wan? i have already taken the initiative to say sorry.. i have.. but i din get ur response.. wad can i do? all i wan is just a response from u.. and before puting a crime on mi, i should get to noe wad did i do wrongly? even in law, u get to defend urself if u did something wrongly.. but i din have a chance.. u din give mi tt and u are just trying to put all the blames and things on my head.. u are just thinking on ur own.. did u noe tt i have feelings.. not just u.. and everyone makes mistakes.. dun tell mi u dun.. shldn't u try to forgive others mistakes too? and wad did i do???? wad did i do to spoil it? wad? i really dunno.. really.. u shld tell mi right? at least i noe wad i do wrongly.. u ignore mi completely.. and u expect mi to noe wad is happening and wad did i shld do n shld not.. why is this happening? i dun understand.. actually this thing started from a small misunderstanding.. if we had cleared it right from the start things wld not be so bad.. i tried.. but have u? and now all the fault is with mi.. well.. i just dunno.. i just hate this!

i hate life!

lol.. well.. things are really going haywired these few days and weeks.. i went to a few ppl's blog and read.. hahaa.. i really think tt there is some sort of curse going around.. it seems to mi lyk many ppl or many i shld just say myself are having a lot of friendship problems.. and i can tell u that it is real horrible.. lol.. haiz.. i try to cheer them up but i could not.. well.. coz i cannot even do tt myself.. haiz..


i have actually wanted to blog abt the things recently.. but really.. there are just too many things going ard tt i dunno where shld i start from.. maybe i shld just start from the class.. lol.. our class is lyk having many unhappy arguments over the class tee designs.. if this continues, well i dun think we can bond.. they may say and think tt we the minority are not cooperating with them.. but have they really think tt they have??? i can see tt they are trying to make an effort to try to bond the class and get the tee shirt designs done fast.. ya.. but they cannot in a way also just think one sided.. lol.. really lah.. at first, they wanted us to give comments abt the design.. and we do tt through voting.. some ppl din vote but do they really noe who? well.. forget it.. in the first place did they ask us if we want a polo tee anotx lorx.. den now our tee is black and some ppl grumbled tt it is black agn.. it is ok if they wan lime green or other colours.. just dun let it be polo tee lah.. haiz.. and they just blame the minority for not cooperating with them.. this thing is suppose to sort of bring the class closer but i think we even drifted further apart.. den, mr tan got to noe abt all the unhappiness and he told us not to take things personally.. well.. wad did he mean of tt? lol.. and after tt was silience.. haha.. actually i agree with something he says.. it is not the shirt tt counts.. it is the devotion tt really matters.. haha.. it is this meaning lah.. i forget wad he say le.. and i really agree to it.. for example, in pri sch, we robotics had a shirt only when we went for the last copetition or so.. it is not really very very nice lyk tt and we din get to design it ourselves.. however, i still like it a lot and kept it till now becoz it really brough back a lot of memories.. of coz there were happy n unhappy.. but i think the few of us really had a wonderful time.. well.. i shan say anymore.. it has already been decided.. haha.. we have a real spastic smiley face at the back of the class tee.. haha..


actually, i have alwaes wanted to apologize to the suo na juniors.. I AM REALLY SORRY.. but actually i din wan it.. really.. i dun wish tt it will happen.. but at tt time i din really have a choice.. i noe tt all of u blame mi for tt.. i noe tt i am at fault tt cause u all to be so unhappy n in the state now.. i noe tt it has a big impact on all of u.. i noe tt becoz i was once in suo na too.. i noe tt that feeling is not gd.. all the looks frm the rest of the ppl.. becoz it is a loud n noisy instrument.. and u all din have a senior or junior.. i noe tt i am of no use.. u all say tt i pian u all in n after tt i leave.. i am sorry k.. but do u all noe tt i din wan it too.. i feel guilty for asking u all to join it becoz i hate tt instrument too.. esp when it was the time when i persuade u all to join.. i haven been feeling gd abt it too.. i really haven.. and well.. i can tell u all that i understand the feeling of blowing tt instrument.. it sux.. and recently, things have been going on.. i noe it is somehow related.. i saw tt in ur blog.. i am feeling bad abt it too.. sorry.. i noe tt no matter how many sorry and how many times i apologize or wadever i do.. it wun make up.. becoz it is a fact tt cannot be change animore.. i really din mean to bluff.. many times u all joke with mi abt these and hated mi for it.. but do u all really noe how i feel abt it? well.. i think u all dun.. i am sorry.. i feel sad over it too when u all "joke" abt it.. eg. during tt day when the sec 1s choose their intruments.. i noe tt memories brought tt scene back 1 yr ago.. i took tt seriously too.. have u all been in the situation i am in? do u all really think i wan it? i dun.. y do i have to bring myself into these situation? i din have a choice when at first i am tt instru too.. i dun just lyk u all.. i was even worse.. the only sec 2.. i am also the only sec 1 who is in dizi too.. it was lonely.. the looks and attitude from the rest of the ppl.. i din play well.. i am the worse for both the instru.. and there tt time was syf.. it had a BIG impact on mi too.. i could not accept it either.. but i din have a choice.. and it is not fair for mi either.. i noe tt it is not fair for u all too.. ppl will just say tt it is ok.. not tt bad.. u can do it.. ya.. i have been saying all these to u all too.. but it will not help.. i really understand.. becoz i have been through it.. and tt time i was in both instruments and tt conductor dun treat us(me and weiqi) lyk we are playing dizi.. i can tell tt she feel tt way too.. but she work hard and she could take it.. the seniors dun understand it too.. haiz.. but it is now all over for mi.. although i dun play suo na animore, but there is another problem and stress tt is facing mi now and it will continue until i leave.. i am sorry.. i din mean to blame u all.. it was neither wad u all wanted.. but those words really hit mi hard.. i noe u all meant it to be a joke.. but it has not been easy for mi too.. haiz.. just hope tt things will be better..

well.. for this week post.. mr tan wants us to blog abt iiikay... hm.. iiikay rules, rocks or doesn't rule, rocks? seriously.. i cannot give a definite answer now... we have just noe each other for ard 2 months until now.. well.. things change.. and some may change very fast tt u will not noe.. so by the time u noe abt it, it is already too late to be salvage.. ok.. nvm.. take it tt i am crapping here...


now to the question.. hm.. yar.. my answer: i dunno.. well.. when mr tan told us tt he will be taking our journal enteries for our ca marks, we were all so shocked!!! haha.. furthermore, he told us tt le den told us the topic for this week entry.. so can u imagine the stress we have when writing abt this topic.. hahaa.. well.. i dun care if my marks will be affected anotx but i will be writing everything frm the bottom of my heart.. aniwae my english is horrible.. so it doesn't matter le..


ok.. i shall start from the time when we noe our combi long long ago last year.. i noe it may sound a bit farfetch.. but hahaa.. nvm.. ok.. so when we were in shanghai, we noe tt many ppl frm 2Bees were having the same combi which is triple sci elec geo.. i think we gt 18 of us in the same combi.. and so.. we thought we may be getting into the same class the next yr.. most probably.. a high chance.. at tt time, i were feeling lyk ok.. hm.. to be in the same class for another 2 yrs.. well.. it may be a gd thing n a bad thing too.. so i din really thought much of it..


den, almost when sch reopen tt time, we gt to noe our classes!!! wow! we were like, all of us, sooooooooo excited n eager to noe our classes.. but when i knew tt i was in 3K, i was lyk.. y?? i could not believe my ears.. it was through someone tt i heard it frm.. furthermore, i was the only one frm 2B.. at tt time, i really din believe.. i keep thinking tt it was her who saw it wrongly.. must be.. so, the following day, sihui called mi n told mi tt we were the only 2 frm 2bees who gt into 3k.. i still could not really believe it.. hahaa.. we were lyk scolding abt this class.. i admit.. haha.. i still rmb si said 3kingkong.. hahaa.. nice name.. hee.. =P well.. i noe it had to be true tt i am in 3k.. but i chose to deceive myself.. so.. the next day, when i went to sch for co, i went to check it by myself.. i wanted to see it through my own eyes.. so.. when i saw tt.. i was lyk.. erm.. ok.. fine.. however, i could not accept the fact tt i am in 3k.. seriously.. u can check with my friends abt this.. i told them abt how i dun wan to be in 3k and becos only gt si n mi.. well.. some ppl say tt there is still ur co friends.. i was comforted by tt at first becoz i thought things will be better with them.. but.. it din.. now, i find it really worse.. when we were in sec 1, i longed tt we were in the same class when we reached sec 3.. but it seems to be worse worse off now.. i rather we were not.. it actually started off well.. but i dunno y things turned out this way.. well.. forget it.. the reason i dun lyk 3k at first was becoz lots of my 2bees friends were in 3L n 3H.. hahaa.. how i wish tt i was in 3L.. but facts cannot be changed.. i tried hard to accept it.. but it is still unsuccessful until now.. another reason was tt i was not really close to si when we were in 2bee.. i can say tt.. so.. ya.. it is lonely to be in a class lyk tt..


ok.. so sch starts.. so becoz only si n mi were the ONLY one in 3k.. so we stick together.. it is sort of isolated frm the rest of the class.. i can say tt until now 3k is not 3k.. 3k is a mixture of 05 2k, 2j, 2a and few of 2d, 2b n 2f.. u can really see the difference.. honestly.. and well 2j n k ppl mixed well coz they last time already quite gd le.. mr tan.. if u read this.. u shld really take note of it.. everytime who n who.. well.. i shall not continue on tt.. ok.. den there is this first event tt show how bonded we were.. the cny notice board competition.. haha.. ok.. i admit tt i din help at all.. i was not feeling attached to this class yet.. so dun blame mi for tt.. maybe i shld try.. hopefully bah.. for another instance, during pe for the first few lesson.. it was horrible lah.. pls.. sry iiikay for saying this.. it really is.. we were all so quiet.. ok.. actually i cannot say tt.. coz we still dunno each other well mahx.. sry.. my fault..


i just miss 2bees playing captain ball together.. haha.. i really miss the times we had together.. i rmb tt i used to look real forward to pe lessons.. but not now animore.. haha.. i rmb tt 2bees (only gals) used to play captain ball very hiong one.. there were lots of laughter n screams.. we will tok abt it even when it ends.. we sweat a lot n alwaes very enthu when playing de.. haha.. i also play bb with some of my friends last time.. haha.. it was very fun too.. i also hope tt time will really go back to the times when 2bees had happy moments.. well maybe to be more accurate 1bees.. haha.. some prefer 1b n some 2b.. hm.. well.. both rox! although i have to admit tt 2bees were not really very bonded together.. but it is definitely better than now.. i noe i cannot say tt now for sure.. this is just my opinions for the time being till now.. maybe things will change after the bonding camp.. i really hope so.. well.. change for the better.. hahaa.. i can't help but say tt 2bees will sometimes gang up to "talk back" to a teacher too.. hahaa.. n times when the guys crap n play soccer in class n hit the ppl.. times when we get back our mid yr n year end results, when ppl cried n ppl were comforting each other.. times tt when we have our free periods and we will make a lot of noise n go outside to the lockers there to sit n make noise at the corridor of the toilets there.. hahaa.. n of course the times when i had with my friends in class, copying hw, eating in class during recess, smuggling food up, talking crap which is abt our favourite tv shows n books.. hahaa.. n when i dun understand n make them explain n explain to mi.. hahaa... they were really good.. i miss the times!!! haiz.. although of course there were unhappy times too.. there were ups n downs.. but things will always or most of the times turn out the right way..


i guess smthing i dun lyk abt iiikay is tt we were quiet.. ya.. it may be gd may be bad.. n it is real difficult to find a close n true friend.. it is so competitive in this class.. maybe i have made the wrong choice in choosing triple sci.. i dunno.. well.. i really find tt it is lonely.. there is no friends.. maybe i shld not say no at all.. some.. but little.. do everyone in this class mix with each other? the answer is no.. they dun take the initiative.. not all.. maybe i am at fault too.. i shld not always blame others.. it is all my fault.. i din really take initiative too.. well.. but i am not the out-going type.. i dun noe how to socialize with ppl.. i really dun.. i tried.. i really did.. but i always ended up giving the wrong impression n din manage to express myself.. haiz.. n to ppl who seems to be very enthu, do they really treat everyone in the class the same??? well.. i just think tt discrimination is going to happen in this class.. dunno.. hope it will prove mi wrong..


hahaa.. of course there are good things abt iiikay too.. well.. for example, on fri, when some of us gt scolded for going to the canteen to buy drinks during the free period, we all stand as a class.. hahaa.. well.. i hope tt this class will be more active too..


as for the teachers, i cannot grumble too much abt it.. i think we shld consider ourselves lucky to have most of the good teachers compared to the other class.. hahaa.. well.. mr tan.. do u noe tt those frm 2bees were so jealous of us when they noe tt u are our form teacher.. hahaa.. i am glad tt u r too.. also tell us funny things which made the class a bit more lively.. hahaa.. the only thing tt i dun lyk abt our teachers is tt we hv 2 maths teachers.. haiz.. if we have just one it will be good.. well... now they are making mi very confused.. i dunno when i shld use a maths methods and when i shld use e maths method.. it is all so confusing.. i hope i wun fail my a maths.. =X


hahaa.. this is such a long long post.. well.. there is still much more to say.. but i think i will end it here.. if not later mr tan will read until slp le.. hahaa.. well.. i wld like to apologize to iiikay for all i have said in this entry... i dun mean anyone.. but this is the feeling i hv gt frm this class.. loneliness.. emptiness in my heart.. well.. i seriously hope tt things will change for the better after the bonding camp.. well.. it is suppose to bond the class i suppose.. hope tt it really will.. but i am not exactly looking forward to it now.. i noe i shld give myself n the others a chance.. i certainly will.. i hope tt the others will also give mi a chance too.. haiz.. sry mr tan for writing all the negative things.. hahaa.. i took almost 2 hours to write such a long long post.. hahaa.. i am really dead.. haven study my geo n haven touch my hw at all.. i wonder how i am going to survive this year.. things are getting more n more difficult.. so in conclusion, I HATE SEC 3 LIFE!

haiz.. another week has past.. so much things are happening so fast and so soon.. i dun lyk it.. i simply hate sec 3 life.. it is soooooo horrible.. many things are changing.. the ppl ard u, studies, and a lot more lah.. well.. din really had a smooth week.. dun tok abt it le.. well.. forget it.. had been quite ap this week arh? sry to those i ap to.. i also din really rmb things tt are happening this week leh.. hm.. many too many unhappy things le so dun wanna go think of them.. haha..


mon we had ss common test.. i din really managed to finish it lah.. den i write until hand almost break le.. hope tt i will pass.. then after tt is chinese.. wad did we do? i practically forget le.. nvm den.. ohh.. den after tt gt pe.. erm.. not looking forward to pe this yr.. dunno y.. haha.. i miss the times when 2Bees play captain ball together (without the guys).. it was really very fun.. the ppl were so hiong lah.. haha.. den pe was filled with so much screams and laughter.. hahaa.. enjoy it sooooo much.. but now all the ppl were scattered in diff class le.. haiz.. for pe we were ask to run to the tree and den run up the stairs.. it is sooooo tiring lah.. pls.. i also died.. my legs were breaking apart too.. haiz.. den after tt we can play our own game.. 3k play captain ball together for the lst 2 pe.. including this.. erm.. so so lah.. not as fun as 2b play together but it was much much better than the first few times we play together.. in a way more ppl play together too.. i also miss the times when the few of us play basketball together.. haha.. den we were all so tired.. though last time only gt a few of us play it.. this class prefer tabletennis which i dun lyk.. well nvm.. maybe next time can de pt with si.. haha.. when no one wan to play with mi.. fine.. though i hate pt.. haha.. recess den a maths.. as boring as usual.. den after tt is chem but mr mok swop lesson coz gt probabilty test.. i din really understand tt chapter but the paper was ok.. english is alwaes the most interesting lesson bah.. haha.. coz mr tan alwaes entertain us.. hee.. it is not as boring lyk other lessons but i still dun lyk english.. btw, forget to say tt we are now on the highest level.. cannot get use to it.. must climb so high lah.. haiz.. den so tired..


tues.. we gt lessons as usual.. but we have to climb up and climb down for so many times lah.. first, we go up to class after assembly den go down to the avt for bio lessons.. den we were suppose to hv phys lab after tt de.. den we climb up agn but luckily dun have.. after tt, we go down to the lecture rm for elec geo.. mr tan use the smart board to teach.. i think tt board is really gd n cool.. haha.. u can draw on the screen.. seems very fun to use tt.. he is as fun as usual.. told us abt his lecturer who lyk the rock n taste the soil.. haha.. den he also play with the earth.. wow.. er.. ok nvm.. haha.. after tt is recess.. den climb up agn.. den next is chem lab.. so hv to go all the way there.. next is emaths.. we got to climb 5 storey up agn.. it was real tired lah.. keep climbing stairs.. haiz.. well.. we noe our marks for the probabilty test le.. not too bad.. den last lesson is chinese.. we have to climb up n down the stairs for the next 1 month very often because the projecter is our class is spoil.. den the teachers all are using the labtop so we have to either go lecture rm, avt or dunno wadever rm tt got the projecter.. nvm.. it is a good excercise anyway.. went to huiling hse to plan abt the night game for our camp in march..


wed.. went for assembly in the hall.. told us abt the sel thing.. i think it is gd tt they are adding the cca part into it.. haha.. but i dun lyk the presentation.. we gt phyics den mr tam go through the worksheet.. i really dun understand abt a single thing wad he is toking abt.. i very scared coz mon is the common test le lorx.. i think maybe i made the wrong choice being in a triple sci class.. hm.. dunno leh.. i dun lyk phycis coz i dunno abt it.. i scared i fail the test how huh? will die de leh.. had assembly next, the small little boys and girls frm china are so cute.. haha. they also very pro lah.. they shua the wu shu very nice.. haha.. so young already so gd le.. went home after sch.. see i so guai.. haha.. go hm so early.. but i go home to slp.. hee..

thurs.. we gt the personal recount test.. suppose to go to lecture rm for english, geo n sel.. den when we went down, mr tan told us to go up agn.. we were so angry with him.. haha.. coz he made us walk down den up agn.. haha.. so we took the test den the next lesson he ask us to go down agn to the lecture rm for geo.. he horx.. ate up the sel agn.. so far we only had 1 lesson on sel.. i want sel lesson de lorx.. i wan the lesson on the character thing.. it is very interesting lah.. haha.. heard frm my senior.. i quite curious abt my character.. haha.. so hope he will let us have sel lesson on tt.. hopefully.. well.. but i doubt.. haha.. i also dun really lyk a maths lorx.. i dun understand abt the quadratic n inequality chapter.. so luan.. haiz.. i think tt 3L de teacher mr chen is better in maths.. although he very chim.. but i think he teach lesson wun fall asleep de.. he gave them to play connect 4 using indices ques.. den the winner will have the biscuit.. haha.. yeah! den peishan won.. hee.. at least in this way it help them to understand better in a interesting way.. we had sec 3 comm meeting after sch abt the camp.. but horx.. ended up only gt 5 ppl came.. er.. it is lyk only half? nvm.. there is a lot to discuss abt the camp but we dun seems to get it there.. lyk gt discuss but still gt a lot left.. haiz.. there is so much thing to do..


fri.. i shall not tok abt the boring lessons..after sch gt da zu.. hm.. he was in a erm.. i dunno.. but he is quite crappy lah.. when someone play wrongly den he will say in the olden days, if play wrongly for the emperor to listen den will have to be "zhan" straight away... haha.. he so funny.. den after tt gt comm meeting on the camp... erm.. it was long.. den so ps lah.. all of them waiting for mi to go eat dinner.. =X yuppx.. n i wan to say sorry to eileen n lihan.. sry horx.. u call mi to help u bring ur things down but i was soooo late den u all will hv to wait for so long.. really sry eileen.. yup.. so we, molecule family had our reunion dinner at 85.. haha.. this time jieting was with us! haha.. so great.. n i think we pro leh.. from the fried rice can link to meat den to sleepwalking den link to dreams and stuffs.. haha.. so farfetched.. den horx.. really very pai seh lah.. when they were toking abt the sleepwalking n dreams stuffs den tok until very scary den they suddenly scream SOOO loud! pls lah.. all the ppl frm all 4 directions look at us.. hahaa.. den we sat there tok tok until dun wan go hm.. ard 9 plus den leave.. haha.. miss my tv show when reach hm.. haha..


sat.. hm.. bin wanted to cum at 8 to do de.. but coz i wan to go out to eat breakfast so change to 11.. but end up she is the one who is late.. lol.. so we started to do the jizsaw puzzle at ard 11.30 am.. den we do the frame of it for so long lorx.. hm.. frm 11.30 to ard 2 plus.. haha.. erm.. ard 3 hrs lorx.. haha.. den after tt we go eat... cum back le continue to do.. den we do without really resting frm 4.30pm all the way to 10 pm.. haha.. and we managed to finish it!!! haha.. i think we rock.. hee.. it is a 1000 pieces de puzzle.. for chew birthday's present.. ard 9 hours and we did it! haha.. we tok we could not do finish.. hee.. den we were lyk when turning the puzzle tt time we were so careful.. haha.. coz is our hardwork mahx.. so we wrap it with newspaper and scotch tape before turning.. haha.. well.. tts all i did on sat.. nthing le.. haiz.. actually gt plan to do hw de lorx.. but.. ya.. no time.. den also very tired le so din do until late..

haiz.. it is already 11 plus le.. and i am still not doing anything successfully.. i haven finish a lot of things lah.. den now studying abt probabilty.. it is a stupid chapter lorx.. i practically dun understand n dunno a single thing abt it.. argh!!! so pissed off right at the moment.. tml gt 2 tests.. it is lyk every week we are having more than a test.. haiz.. i really dun lyk sec 3!!! how i wish time will go back.. i still gt my zhou ji haven finish.. den still gt SS to study.. how can i finish them by tonight?? i really dun need to sleep le lah.. and i am getting sleepy.. somemore SS so difficult.. we gt 3 source based n 1 structured questions for tml test.. u think can finish???? den the teacher still say can get full marks.. er.. well it is definitely impossible for mi.. ok.. now lets get into the topic.. i came to blog abt the movie we seen last week n last last week.. we even had a debate abt a worx..


erm.. well.. we watched finish this movie quite long ago.. at least for mi.. i think i sort of forget the story a little.. so bear with mi if i distort the story a little.. sry.. =X it is abt a boy call vincent who has a genetic problems.. he has heart diseases and has a life span of abt 30.. then his parents wanted him to have a companion and they had another child call anton.. anton is better than vincent in everything.. this make vincent very unhappy.. he had a strong liking to go into space.. but he could not due to his heart problems.. even when he wanted to get a job, ppl look at his health report and rejected him.. this makes him even more determined to strive for his ambition.. his family esp his father is also very biased towards his brother, anton.. thus, he changed his identity to someone called jerome.. jerome was an outstanding swimmer but he gt crippled due to an accident which he created himself.. he was willing to give his identity to vincent for money and to fulfill vincent's dream to go up into space.. so vincent created a fake accident to show tt he is dead and gradually became "jerome".. so, he go to work at gattaca, which is a place tt train ppl to go up to the space.. i think so.. then he had to take the real jerome's urine sample n blood for everytimes test.. he even had to scrape off his hairs to prevent them from dropping.. he successfully pass through all the obstacles and gt chosen to go up into space.. however, there were times tt he nearly gt caught due to a murder case.. there were many surprise checks.. his brother anton is also a policeman who is checking on the murder case and he found out tt his brother was not dead! he tried to arrest him but to no avail.. finally vincent managed to fulfill his ambition which is to go up to space.. but for jerome, he killed himself but burning himself up.. ='(


this is a sad story.. when i firstly watches this movie in sec 1, i dun really understand fully wad it means.. but now i think i understand abt it.. erm.. this movie is filmed to discourage the Human Genome Project.. it shows abt the disadvantages of HGP.. this is because if we can genetic engineered someone, it would cause a lot of problems lyk discrimination.. DISCRIMINATION is a very big problem.. for example, in the story of gattaca, it shows tt u will need to be very healthy, without any health problems, then u can be recruited into a company.. vincent had heart problems and many companies dun wan to hire him because of tt.. some even just look at his health report and rejected him.. no one gave him a chance.. he could only do some lowly jobs.. furthermore, even his family discriminate him.. his father put more hope on anton, his brother, and does not really care for him.. they even compare him with anton.. which makes vincent very very upset.. he lose out to his brother in everything.. he swim slowly and is shorter than him.. in the society, ppl also look at him from a different perspective.. when he was young, the insurance company did not even want to give vincent the insurance.. they knew tt vincent was going to die in anytime.. thus they din wan to insure him.. this is very unfair to him..
the movie also shows tt if genetic engineering was made possible, the world will become very scary.. people could change their identity if they wan.. just lyk vincent.. the police din really find out the real truth in the end.. if we could change identity, ppl would not be able to noe the real you.. coz there maybe hundreds of similar you in the streets walking ard.. who will really noe even if u commit a crime?


however, i am for the HGP.. i think tt if this is made possible, cancer patients may be cured.. this is because scienctist maybe able to take away the cancer sequence at birth if they find by eliminating the DNA sequence.. in this way, cancer patients wld not have to suffer anymore.. it will be really gd if this discovery is not abuse by mankind.. however, we cannot under estimate the thoughts and capablity of mankind.. u will not be able to imagine wad a man can do.. there will surely be discrimination.. it will definitely continue to exist.. just tt is is little or a lot.. crime rates will also increase.. so is this beneficial to mankind?

seriously, i do not noe myself.. it is so contridicting.. everything has their pros and cons.. the HGP of course has too.. so it is really up to yourself to be on which side.. however, i really like the movie gattaca.. it is really a nice story but the ending is quite sad.. i think tt it is very noble of jerome to be able to give up his identity to vincent.. lyk wad mr tan said.. he gave his identity for vincent partially is only because of money but most importatly is because he thinks tt vincent can help him fulfill his dreams too..

hope tt we will be able to watch more movies lyk this in the future.. hee.. =)