i know i shldn't be up at this hour nearly 4am.. =X i came online just to download some stuffs and ended up doing much more things tt i shldn't have done.. and worse of all, i did nothing much today.. there goes my chem tys! i feel guilty and sorry to my study grp mates.. =( this is going to be another horrible week.. time flies..

i am going to slp now..

i am getting more stress by the day.. seeing the friends around u all turning very hardworking and have already started to revise their work and i myself are still lagging behind the schedule to finish up all my hw!!! i have been trying hard to do them but who ask me to be a slow poke and retarded brain which can't think and solve the ques fast.. worst of all, concentration span is so short! =( recently, a classmate of mine who used to copy hw and nv study has now suddenly changed into another person who did all her work and is ahead of others! this really stun me and make me feel so guilty.. =(( jie min seriously need to buck up and complete her work!

the prom thing has been settled, i shall not dwell on it since i have already decided right? not going despite almost my whole class going.. i have to admit tt i am a bit sway by them and wan to go for prom, but i dunno why dun have mood to go and feels uncomfortable? the feeling is different.. hope i wun regret my choice pls....

went to watch harry potter and the half blood prince on tues with jt! hmm.. the movie is really a disappointment esp the ending which end soooooooooooo abruptly! the part when dumberdore is supposed to die shld be touching but i dun feel anything! the most exciting fighting part at hogwarts is also not shown!!! =((((( why why?? understand tt its a long book and cannot put everything in but shldn't have cut away the impt parts! haiz.. hope the last movie will be better.. anyway, we went to eat subway after so long! finally.. hehe.. =D

din attend co prac for quite some time and i also worry abit abt how we are going to perform in the esplanade with this kind of standard.. =X but i am really busy and the timings just don't fit.. well.. good luck to us den!

feeling damn terrible these few days when i woke up in the morning in a shock.. really.. have been waking up at 6.45am or 6.50am when i am supposed to reach sch before 7.25am.. was really rushed man.. consequence of quarreling with my mum who refused to talk to me and wake me up in the morning for at least 2 weeks alr.. this is the longest cold war man! hate it! sucks! =(

a busy week is gone.. with all the finalize results and terrible moods at time.. happy for mrs lim, our econs tutor and for my class we achieve the highest ranking among the whole cohort this time round for jct! =) just tt i feel a little yi han tt i wasn't among those who contributed to it but pulled it down instead.. tt's y i am so disappointed with my econs results.. was expecting much more and pinning my hope on it.. there is goes.. =(

forget abt the jct results.. i have been trying very hard to keep myself awake everyday come home from sch and do some constructive work.. its hard i realize.. =X but i managed to slp really late on thurs night at 3 plus am in the morning just trying to finish my first top 3 achievements draft.. this is so crap. we are also split up into study groups for chem and i gt into a grp with 2 other noisy ppl! =P going to be a headache.. haha.. every week need to do tys and i am dreading it.. =(

there is a lot of hw this weekend and if i dun finish them, i am going to suffer terribly next week which i highly think so.. =/ co prac are resuming for the full of next wk except thurs till 8pm! well.. before tt i alr have lots of stuffs planned, so gonna missed some of them.. =/ i hope i can survive next wk.

just as had expected, results were bad.. =( from the marks i scored for maths, failing so terribly, being one of the lowest in class and that the paper wasn't very difficult you can see how badly i did.. nvm.. shall not talk more abt it.. just a thing that makes things better was that i passed my physics literally for the first time since jc.. =) so tuition works.. glad that at least the fees didn't really go to waste..

class been asking to go for prom.. zzZZzZzz.. trying to avoid this topic since sec 4 u see.. dun feel like going la.. haiya.. just not suitable for me u see.. but some are trying hard to persuade me to go.. =/ how?

on a harry potter fever during the weekend.. =/ spend my whole sat and almost today re-reading harry potter and the half blood prince! hehee.. waste of time ar? but i got so motivated to read the book before the coming movie on 16th july!! can't wait for it to watch with jt! x) but dun seems that i can find time to watch man.. thurs come out sure a lot of ppl and the weekend too.. =( some more now i got remedialS! siann... =/ yea.. so i watched the chamber of secrets too on sat night and there is the goblet of fire next sun! hope to watch too! =)

anyway, last mon, youth day, went to plaza sing to eat lunch at some 'fishemen' restaurant due to a 'treat' by our sl! haha.. well.. ended up we paid ard half ourselves.. lol.. hm.. the food there is comparable to fish and co and its much cheaper due to the lunch time promotion! cause only $9.90 for fish and chips w/o the taxes yet but with a drink and soup of the day.. and its quite filling too! =)

oh, and that's like only 9 weeks away from prelims and 16 weeks away from A level.. and i haven plan out my studying schedule.. procrastinating.. =( i still dun feel the urgency.. =X

finally jct is over ending with a depressing maths paper.. shall not say too much abt it but i really feel hopeless for quite some papers this time.. =( real demoralizing.. haiz.. anyway, went to play badminton with class ppl at tamp sports hall today! xD finally, I PLAY BADMINTON TODAY! <3>

came home, bathe and then go for dinner at 85! there were only 6 of us but actually i find tt smaller grp also easier to talk.. =) we chat and chat abt their poly life and realise tt we have been buried by books all these while.. zzZzzz.. on the way back, talk to bin and hl abt a lot of things! x) sec sch friends are still the best!

gonna slack for a while before i start agn.. :)

i should NOW be studying for my 'favourite' physics paper tml.. but ya.. tou tou come online a while la.. very bored and tired from studying... =( i am super dead for physics though.. really a lot haven study..

anyway. today's chem was a killer.. =( i almost give up while doing the paper and not even half way through it.. i think i din do almost half of the paper bah.. and worse i left them blank cause i really have no idea how to do despite studying for chem.. oh well..

gp on tues was a terrible one.. paper 1 essay have no choice to choose from and paper 2 comprehension was chim to the max! dun understand the passage! its on olympic and POLITICS! wad the crap! i spend 5 mins finishing my whole summary.. i think i am a pro.. lol!

econs was still alright.. i hope.. gt chance to pass lah.. praying hard..

2 more papers to go! wish me luck!