thanks a lot to everyone who msg me! xD esp the continous msgs tt i saw when i open my eyes.. hahaa.. was so suprised so see some of the msgs.. hehee.. just a wish or msg really makes my day.. =) very glad to recieve them.. hee.. its all tt is enough and wad i want.. thanks again!
today was ok.. went out in the morning so rush.. to eat lunch.. although the lunch was supposed to be fabulous but somethings happen and it spoil my day somehow.. =( dun wanna tok abt tt le.. and it is a wasted day today too.. spend my time walking ard and waiting for dunno wad.. den nightfalls and we went tm for dinner.. lol.. keep eating today.. went to fish n co.. saw a grp of ppl of ard my age and they were celebrating bdays for 2 of them.. they were like so happy and enjoying.. think tt it will be more fun to celebrate with friends.. ok.. nvm.. i was with my family.. and then my aunt bought a bday cake for me.. and it was so embarrassing! by right must stand on the chair but obviously i din and the whole staff from fish n co will sing a birthday song to u! so paiseh lah.. and there was the party hats.. =X the service there was gd! =) thanks a lot to all! went home after tt and it was so tiring..
ok.. here, specially want to thank some ppl from my class.. i felt so loved suddenly when i open my eyes and see those msg.. and there were some more at 2359.. xD really really appreciate them.. coz i totally din expect tt k.. so sweet of u all! they really make my day the most today! i am not saying the rest don't.. but.. ya.. hahaa.. coz this yr is quite boring.. and the unexpected is really surprising! u all rock man! i am very glad to be in here.. =) hahaa.. once again, thank you very much! xD
sat, 15 march: when to my uncle's hse at changi for bbq.. quite sian.. no mashmellows for me to make my bread.. =( no corns too.. =( and the weather was super good lah! such a boring bbq with such nice weather.. why can't it happen last thurs or sun? haiz.. nothing much to talk abt.. it is a family gathering.. not very close with them.. =X so i also dunno wad to say.. just tt there was this 2 little ang moh kids playing at the playground and they were so naughty and michievious! they scold us for nothing and keep kajiaoing us.. =/ slept quite late.. was looking for nice blogskins.. must thank ys too! =)
sun, 16 march: wake up den go eat breakfast with my dad n sis.. i like very long nv get to tok to my sis lor.. although i see her like erm... everyday? she is so busy toking to her bf only.. =( wadever.. den went for a hair cut cause my fringe too long and there was no one there.. so no need to wait.. but it turn out.. well.. screwed up.. shorter than expected.. =( i told the hairdresser wrongly to ask her cut den layer.. shld be the other way round.. and it turn out to be so ugly.. haiz.. think i really down on luck these few days.. something bad will always happen near my bday.. =/ ok.. so after tt meet sihui at 85 to do work.. teach her maths.. i hope i did.. =X and she is so nice to help me with my gp assignment which i really had no idea where to start from.. =) den we go to eunice's hse.. her hse is so big near ahs.. so good! hahaa.. we played mahjong, eat and took photos.. very long nv see some of them le.. well.. but it is kind of weird too.. although they are really nice! thanks so much! =) they celebrated the march ppl bday.. so sweet of u all and u all rmb me! hee.. thanks for the early presents! x) love ya guys! den sihui went to tm with me to buy my shoes but ended up i din buy coz it is either too ex or not very nice also.. haiz.. in the end, i went to bedok interchange to get a cheaper pair of sport shoes just for monday coz i thought there was pe.. but the stupid shoes cause me blisters.. =( did my gp late until 3am lor.. so guai.. hahaa.. but ended up din hand in on mon.. lol..
mon, 17 march: we got half day off! yay!!! coz of good 'A' level results.. dunno true anot.. haha.. but it doesn't matter.. coz mon was long and we are release early! =) ended up no pe.. zZzzz.. but we stayed back to practise for our gp skit.. i think ours not bad.. =) the idea is gd..
tues, 18 march: today, we did our gp skit.. it was not very smooth but we work hard for it le.. so it doesn't matter if we get in or not.. =) it was fun anyway! oh and there is pw today... we got to know our grp le.. erm.. dunno wad to say but at least there is leonard.. and my grp only gt 4 ppl.. i hope everything goes well.. =X went to eat after sch and go back to sch to wait for time to pass.. haiz.. dreading to go for practices in a way.. =( btw, happy birthday to sockling! =D
=( =( ='( today is a sad day.. i am offically in co le.. went for practice today.. if i count this as the first offical practice, it will be the start of my torment.. the feeling in there sucks! horrible! terrible! miserable....... ='( if this kind of feeling continues, i think i will be dead soon.. maybe within a month or so... haiz... besides being stress there cause i could not catch the beats and tempo of all the sooooo many songs, i am also feeling kind of weird there whenever i am there.. always, at the door step of the co room, i would pause to think if i should go in or not.. this is sooooooo different and unlike the times when i was in ahco! i really miss there the room the ppl the conductor etc! =( i still rmb the times when eliz helped me a lot, stayed back to teach me dizi when i am so lousy, when the dizi seniors crap a lot and make so much noise in the co room and the times when my dear juniors encourage me so much! those really really helps k.. haha.. omg! i know i shouldn't make such meaningless comparison but i can't help it.. not tt i am saying the seniors in tjco are not nice but i also dunno why this is so much more difficult and tough than i was in sec 1 when i first join co and tt time when i don't even have musical background! why? ok.. maybe it is just my problem.. can someone just tell me and teach me how to open up???? HOW? i don't know! i can't! i wan to also! but..... AHH!!! this is going to drive me crazy sooooon.. sooner than expected i guess.. i thought i could do it.. i thought so.. =( i don't have the courage and the confidence to take the initiative to go talk to those ppl, mix with them, to know them.. but i really think i am brave enough to join co 'alone'.. mike is like will pon tt kind.. yw also wun stay back de.. we got great diff in our timetable too.. and we all feel somewhat the same.. just tt i think i feel worse.. maybe tts why its my prob only.. i have low esteem, so i need much more time to warm up and ppl to open me up.. but it doesn't seems like i can make it in this co.. or at least not yet.. its my personality problem lah.. sometimes i just hate myself being like tt.. haiz... =( besides mike yw clarance and one or two direct seniors and kl, i practically know no one there.. feel so out of place in between the seniors and the rest even in my own section.. ='( make friends with them! tts what ppl would say.. easier said than done.. just go to the co room anytime u wan and u will get to know them.. hahaa.. like so easy like tt hor.. every tues i end sch so early den must wait for practice to start like so late alone (except today), and go straight home after tt.. tts really not me.. how i wish i could stay back in the co room just like last time to crap with my friends or just practise together.. there is no one to practise with me anymore when i wan to and when i am free.. =( no companions anymore.. hate such life! tts y i hate jc life! sux totally! somemore, if i really could not practise in time, den wun even be able to join in for those performance.. why am i such a slow learner??? i hate myself for unable to catch faster.. rarrrr..... it is difficult to understand.. none will.. nvm.. it is just too depressing.. ok.. this is all crap.. just wanted to vent my anger..
HOLIDAYS ARE GOING TO BE OVER SOON!!! =( it's just too short..
haiz.. when it is over, tt's really the start of torture.. =( have been quite lazy to blog this week.. a lot of things to do but all also dun feel like doing esp hw.. =X wanted to change blogskin too.. but very mafan and i dun really know.. anyone kind soul wan to help me? hee.. =P
last week, have to make the decision for pdp selection.. finally, after so much consideration n persuasion and wadsoever, i decided to join CO.. ok.. i hope i dun regret it.. i really hope so although i am slightly being to.. =( its really tough in co too.. the songs are super hard and the ppl there are super pro.. went for just 2 prac in the holidays n i feel so hopeless n out already.. haiz.. wonder how i am going to survive there man... miserable.. =(
fri 7 march: went for swensen's ice cream with the vouchers earned from the BWFO! after chionging throughout the whole physics practical.. like so gan jiong lor.. =/ we waited for quite some time before getting the seats.. bad service there also.. ordered 3 earthquakes.. had so much ice cream! hehee.. feel so great! xD then, went back to tj after tt for my very very very last prac tice there.. actually is only i 1 person down there extra playing it lor.. nvm.. it was sad though.. throughout the whole prac, i was thinking abt my choice agn n agn.. haiz.. feel like crying when the charmaine ask me if i was sure to join co.. then when they were writing the commitment etc thingy, i felt damn sad.. coz i wun be able to be with them agn.. haiz.. i dunno how to say it, but.... jiu hen shang gan..
sat 8 march: went socks's house for asg bbq! hahaa.. after like many things... well.. glad it turn well i think.. hope it does.. and hor.. socks hse de bbq pit is soooooo cool! hahaa.. tt's wad i think, coz it is use gas de.. den the food cook very fast n nice! hee.. tt day din rain! =D tts one of the best time man! at last we gathered after so long.. hope we did get better.. i really hope so k.. some of them played twister.. hahha.. some poses were so funny! =P shall upload some? hehe... den we sat down to play a game call mi ci ci mi ci ci.. some stupid game but we went high! hahaa.. =) we had some left over in the end but guess everyone is very full tt day.. =) and the best thing was, it turn out to be below budget.. heee..
sun, 9 march: woke up quite late.. den prepared to go out for lunch at ah yi abalone.. xD my uncle is treating! hahaa.. dunno y.. =/ it was such a luxury.. hee.. coz gt private room then ate those san zhen hai wei.. hahaa.. spend a few hrs there eating slowly, enjoying the food and chatting.. tok abt sch stuffs also.. there is this cousin having his psle this yr n his mum is soooooooo anxious abt him.. well.. maybe coz he is gep de.. but his mum still too paranoid lah.. keep scolding him.. he so ke lian.. oh, and the whole meal cost 500 bucks lah! so ex man! xin tong.. =/ den after tt went to my aunt's hse give free tuition.. hahaa.. in exchange for the luxury meal? =/ was late for 4k bbq at chia hong's hse.. it was quite late when i started going there.. din wan to go at first though.. well.. when reach there like not a lot of ppl leh.. but gt ard 20 ppl bah.. just feels empty without some ppl.. but was glad to see some ppl! hahaa.. like nicole, evelyn, cheryl etc.. =) very long nv see them le.. haha.. it rain very heavily halfway actually.. we gt no choice but to go to ch's house to 'bbq' instead.. sry for making a mess of ur hse.. =X hope ur mum wun find out.. =/
mon 10 march: stayed at home.. so guai.. but din do much.. haiz.
tues n wed went for tjco.. feels weird n lousy n zibei n extra.. well.. i dunno how.. practise is wad i must do at least.. sian.. both days also rain until so heavily.. half drenched when i went co.. =/
thurs: got to wake up early in the morning go ang mo kio.. so far! went to cheryl's hse for the discussion of the english fair skit.. it was damn funny! the guys are acting as females.. it is damn gay.. hahaa.. well.. den there came to stupid rain.. we cannot play our bb.. and also cannot bbq le.. we started the fire halfway n the rain became bigger.. haiz... =( so ended up also went to cheryl's hse to 'bbq'.. guess we create a mess too.. i'm so sorry.. couldn't help much.. not many ppl came in the end also.. but it was alright lah.. we gt lots of food.. everyone was very full.. hahaa.. then we played zhong ji mi ma for the left over food.. so exciting.. =/ after tt, we went down to the basketball court and play! yeah! finally! hahaa.. i like bb a lot actually but dunno how to play.. the floor was wet.. so quite hard to play, somemore i wearing slippers.. hm.. kaichun n zai you play until too hiong le.. den fall and kaichun mouth bleed.. =( but we still continued playing.. haha.. it was quite fun though! =) we burned some fats after all the 'bbq' food although i din eat much coz a lot of chicken.. oh ya! we ate pelican pizza for lunch.. quite nice! =) should try it someday agn when i gt the money.. heehee..
fri 14 march: went out with cindy n xinyi today to plaza sing.. we walked ard, ate at pizza hut n then watch movie.. step up 2 was nice! =) the dance was great! hahaa.. but spend a lot of money today! actually is recently.. with like 4 bbqs in a week? i think i am going to die from it.. =X lol... and when i reach home, i was super pissed off! somebody stole my shoes! wth!!!!! i hate tt person leh.. is like i go out den my mum was only out downstairs for ard 10 mins and my shoes, after washing, i put them out at the corridor for it to dry, was missing! gone! it was together with another 2 pairs of shoes and only mine disappeared! seems like it was a prank or else stolen.. couldn't have drop coz it was nowhere to be seen.. haiz..... the shoes not even 1 yr old lah! still in gd condition.. den now i no shoes go sch le.. i wash until so xin ku n so clean den now it is gone! ='( gonna waste my money n time le.. rarrr!!!
very tired.. haiz.. a lot of hw not done yet also.. =( dunno where i am going to find time since i am going out on both days.. sian...
