Eeyore~Little Me
Sunday, February 19, 2006
well.. for this week post.. mr tan wants us to blog abt iiikay... hm.. iiikay rules, rocks or doesn't rule, rocks? seriously.. i cannot give a definite answer now... we have just noe each other for ard 2 months until now.. well.. things change.. and some may change very fast tt u will not noe.. so by the time u noe abt it, it is already too late to be salvage.. ok.. nvm.. take it tt i am crapping here...
now to the question.. hm.. yar.. my answer: i dunno.. well.. when mr tan told us tt he will be taking our journal enteries for our ca marks, we were all so shocked!!! haha.. furthermore, he told us tt le den told us the topic for this week entry.. so can u imagine the stress we have when writing abt this topic.. hahaa.. well.. i dun care if my marks will be affected anotx but i will be writing everything frm the bottom of my heart.. aniwae my english is horrible.. so it doesn't matter le..
ok.. i shall start from the time when we noe our combi long long ago last year.. i noe it may sound a bit farfetch.. but hahaa.. nvm.. ok.. so when we were in shanghai, we noe tt many ppl frm 2Bees were having the same combi which is triple sci elec geo.. i think we gt 18 of us in the same combi.. and so.. we thought we may be getting into the same class the next yr.. most probably.. a high chance.. at tt time, i were feeling lyk ok.. hm.. to be in the same class for another 2 yrs.. well.. it may be a gd thing n a bad thing too.. so i din really thought much of it..
den, almost when sch reopen tt time, we gt to noe our classes!!! wow! we were like, all of us, sooooooooo excited n eager to noe our classes.. but when i knew tt i was in 3K, i was lyk.. y?? i could not believe my ears.. it was through someone tt i heard it frm.. furthermore, i was the only one frm 2B.. at tt time, i really din believe.. i keep thinking tt it was her who saw it wrongly.. must be.. so, the following day, sihui called mi n told mi tt we were the only 2 frm 2bees who gt into 3k.. i still could not really believe it.. hahaa.. we were lyk scolding abt this class.. i admit.. haha.. i still rmb si said 3kingkong.. hahaa.. nice name.. hee.. =P well.. i noe it had to be true tt i am in 3k.. but i chose to deceive myself.. so.. the next day, when i went to sch for co, i went to check it by myself.. i wanted to see it through my own eyes.. so.. when i saw tt.. i was lyk.. erm.. ok.. fine.. however, i could not accept the fact tt i am in 3k.. seriously.. u can check with my friends abt this.. i told them abt how i dun wan to be in 3k and becos only gt si n mi.. well.. some ppl say tt there is still ur co friends.. i was comforted by tt at first becoz i thought things will be better with them.. but.. it din.. now, i find it really worse.. when we were in sec 1, i longed tt we were in the same class when we reached sec 3.. but it seems to be worse worse off now.. i rather we were not.. it actually started off well.. but i dunno y things turned out this way.. well.. forget it.. the reason i dun lyk 3k at first was becoz lots of my 2bees friends were in 3L n 3H.. hahaa.. how i wish tt i was in 3L.. but facts cannot be changed.. i tried hard to accept it.. but it is still unsuccessful until now.. another reason was tt i was not really close to si when we were in 2bee.. i can say tt.. so.. ya.. it is lonely to be in a class lyk tt..
ok.. so sch starts.. so becoz only si n mi were the ONLY one in 3k.. so we stick together.. it is sort of isolated frm the rest of the class.. i can say tt until now 3k is not 3k.. 3k is a mixture of 05 2k, 2j, 2a and few of 2d, 2b n 2f.. u can really see the difference.. honestly.. and well 2j n k ppl mixed well coz they last time already quite gd le.. mr tan.. if u read this.. u shld really take note of it.. everytime who n who.. well.. i shall not continue on tt.. ok.. den there is this first event tt show how bonded we were.. the cny notice board competition.. haha.. ok.. i admit tt i din help at all.. i was not feeling attached to this class yet.. so dun blame mi for tt.. maybe i shld try.. hopefully bah.. for another instance, during pe for the first few lesson.. it was horrible lah.. pls.. sry iiikay for saying this.. it really is.. we were all so quiet.. ok.. actually i cannot say tt.. coz we still dunno each other well mahx.. sry.. my fault..
i just miss 2bees playing captain ball together.. haha.. i really miss the times we had together.. i rmb tt i used to look real forward to pe lessons.. but not now animore.. haha.. i rmb tt 2bees (only gals) used to play captain ball very hiong one.. there were lots of laughter n screams.. we will tok abt it even when it ends.. we sweat a lot n alwaes very enthu when playing de.. haha.. i also play bb with some of my friends last time.. haha.. it was very fun too.. i also hope tt time will really go back to the times when 2bees had happy moments.. well maybe to be more accurate 1bees.. haha.. some prefer 1b n some 2b.. hm.. well.. both rox! although i have to admit tt 2bees were not really very bonded together.. but it is definitely better than now.. i noe i cannot say tt now for sure.. this is just my opinions for the time being till now.. maybe things will change after the bonding camp.. i really hope so.. well.. change for the better.. hahaa.. i can't help but say tt 2bees will sometimes gang up to "talk back" to a teacher too.. hahaa.. n times when the guys crap n play soccer in class n hit the ppl.. times when we get back our mid yr n year end results, when ppl cried n ppl were comforting each other.. times tt when we have our free periods and we will make a lot of noise n go outside to the lockers there to sit n make noise at the corridor of the toilets there.. hahaa.. n of course the times when i had with my friends in class, copying hw, eating in class during recess, smuggling food up, talking crap which is abt our favourite tv shows n books.. hahaa.. n when i dun understand n make them explain n explain to mi.. hahaa... they were really good.. i miss the times!!! haiz.. although of course there were unhappy times too.. there were ups n downs.. but things will always or most of the times turn out the right way..
i guess smthing i dun lyk abt iiikay is tt we were quiet.. ya.. it may be gd may be bad.. n it is real difficult to find a close n true friend.. it is so competitive in this class.. maybe i have made the wrong choice in choosing triple sci.. i dunno.. well.. i really find tt it is lonely.. there is no friends.. maybe i shld not say no at all.. some.. but little.. do everyone in this class mix with each other? the answer is no.. they dun take the initiative.. not all.. maybe i am at fault too.. i shld not always blame others.. it is all my fault.. i din really take initiative too.. well.. but i am not the out-going type.. i dun noe how to socialize with ppl.. i really dun.. i tried.. i really did.. but i always ended up giving the wrong impression n din manage to express myself.. haiz.. n to ppl who seems to be very enthu, do they really treat everyone in the class the same??? well.. i just think tt discrimination is going to happen in this class.. dunno.. hope it will prove mi wrong..
hahaa.. of course there are good things abt iiikay too.. well.. for example, on fri, when some of us gt scolded for going to the canteen to buy drinks during the free period, we all stand as a class.. hahaa.. well.. i hope tt this class will be more active too..
as for the teachers, i cannot grumble too much abt it.. i think we shld consider ourselves lucky to have most of the good teachers compared to the other class.. hahaa.. well.. mr tan.. do u noe tt those frm 2bees were so jealous of us when they noe tt u are our form teacher.. hahaa.. i am glad tt u r too.. also tell us funny things which made the class a bit more lively.. hahaa.. the only thing tt i dun lyk abt our teachers is tt we hv 2 maths teachers.. haiz.. if we have just one it will be good.. well... now they are making mi very confused.. i dunno when i shld use a maths methods and when i shld use e maths method.. it is all so confusing.. i hope i wun fail my a maths.. =X
hahaa.. this is such a long long post.. well.. there is still much more to say.. but i think i will end it here.. if not later mr tan will read until slp le.. hahaa.. well.. i wld like to apologize to iiikay for all i have said in this entry... i dun mean anyone.. but this is the feeling i hv gt frm this class.. loneliness.. emptiness in my heart.. well.. i seriously hope tt things will change for the better after the bonding camp.. well.. it is suppose to bond the class i suppose.. hope tt it really will.. but i am not exactly looking forward to it now.. i noe i shld give myself n the others a chance.. i certainly will.. i hope tt the others will also give mi a chance too.. haiz.. sry mr tan for writing all the negative things.. hahaa.. i took almost 2 hours to write such a long long post.. hahaa.. i am really dead.. haven study my geo n haven touch my hw at all.. i wonder how i am going to survive this year.. things are getting more n more difficult.. so in conclusion, I HATE SEC 3 LIFE!
jiemin
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