HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!
ohh.. sry ppl.. mi long long time nv post le.. noe i am very very very very late n lag.. but just wanna update on the things tt are happening lately.. hm..


oh... first, i wan to thanks all the ppl for wishing mi a happy birthday n who give mi present!! hahaa...
there is
shuxian n lihan: thanks for tt BIG balloon.. hahaa... shuxian: u din succeed! hehee... =P
fiona: thanks for the cactus! i will take good care of it de.. =)
cindy & xin yi: *nods nods* thanks! so cute.. :) and ya.. xiexie for accompanying mi to eat long john after sch! haha.. sry for waiting for mi for sooooo long.. hehee...
yulin: the bear is so cute! just lyk mi? hahaa.. =P jking.. hee.. thanks..
si hui & shi ya: thanks for the cute notebook! hahaa... and yeah.. si hui.. i need a lot of luck to get to sit beside u.. hahaa...
mag: my shi mei arh.. i where gt bully u lah.. is u bully mi lorx! haiyo.. hahaa.. aniwae, thx for the present! shi qi.. hahahaa..
shu min: thx! the photoframe is nice! =)
ger & minghui: hahaa... yeah! i luv winnie the pooh! hahaa.. its so cute! =)
xuihui: thx for the card n the cute small winnie e pooh ruler! i will jia you de! u too k? haha.. glad tt u r optimistic now.. =)
jingwei: hm.. or i shld say CO? hahaa.. anyway, thx for the small card! i will jia you for next yr syf de.. :)
loretta: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U too!! hahaa.. sry.. lag.. heheee..
lastly, thanks to ger, minghui, sihui, shiya, jieting, gayle, shimin and who huh? haha.. tts all? erm... sry if i miss out any, hahaa.. thanks for singing a happy birthday song for mi in class.. hehee.. though it was embarrassing, but the feeling is good.. tt gt ppl are celebrating in a way for u.. hahaa... i really miss 2BEEs ppl.. they are so gd.. hahaa.. THANKS A LOT!!

and thanks to ppl who have send mi birthday messages.. =) n wish mi a happy birthday! hahaa.. i am soory if i have miss out anyone.. oops.. hehe..


hm.. i still rmb the last few years birthdays too.. haha.. it is always nothing gd when it is on my b'day.. haha... let mi recall..
P4: oh.. i brought slightly more money tt day to sch to have a better recess, BUT i lost my wallet.. =X so sad.. din managed to find it after tt..
P5: erm.. this is a terrible day.. i rmb it clearly.. hm.. was in the web design competition.. den when to computer lab to do the things.. den when bell ring, we must go back to the classroom to sing national athem, den horx.. coz i scared late mah.. so i ran lah... i rmb i was running through the second level where the P1s were.. den their bags were all over the floor.. den i accidentally tripped over one of them.. den got injured.. =( i rmb tt it was so painful.. haha.. my elbows and knees were bleeding but i dun dare to say.. so it was lyk tt all the way i went home.. den when bath tt time very pain.. hahaa...
P6: hm.. i think i din do my hw, so gt punished by ms sunitha n have to stay behind during recess to sweep the floor.. so i dun have recess.. =(
SEC 1: hm.. i forget abt it le.. but i think smthing bad happened too.. hahaa..
SEC 2: oh.. i woke up earlier tt day.. it was a monday.. wanted to take the bus to sch instead of walking coz raining mah... den gt history common test.. din study it the day before.. wanted to reached sch earlier to study de.. but den, the bus took ages to come lah,.. i think i waited for lyk half an hourfor the bus to come? den by the time i reached sch nearly was late.. rushed up the chang cheng.. and ya.. i just passed my history common test.. 15/30.. haha.. coz din study much.. but tt day was quite happy beside this.. received quite a lot of presents.. =) and there were birthday songs too.. hahaa... many wishes.. =D
SEC 3: hm.. was wondering wad is in stored for mi this yr.. well.. though nothing much happened.. but it was not tt great too.. was feeling quite depressed lately.. din noe y i am not at all excited or happy tt it is my b'dae.. was feeling rather down.. hm.. but i am glad tt there is the 2bees ppl who cheered me up by the birthday song n cindy n xinyi who accompanied mi to eat lunch.. hahaa.. i thought i would hv a lonely birthday.. since my sis is overseas too.. =( oh.. and i am just disappointed in some ppl..


btw, my sis is the first to wish mi a happy birthday n give mi my birthday presents! haha.. she rocks man! whoo~! firstly, right after our sec 3 bonding camp tt day, after reaching home, she suprised mi with a present tt i have been longing for.. haha.. an mp3!! hehee.. ever since the old one is spoil, i have been hoping to buy one.. but was still saving for it.. hahaa.. although the memory is not a lot.. just 128mb.. but it is enough already.. hahaa.. next, she gave mi a winnie the pooh keychain.. hahaa.. den, a deck of winnie the pooh poka cards.. they are very cute.. hehee.. lastly, she gave mi a few sheets of winnie the pooh stickers.. LOL.. hahaa.. she say coz she buying for the kids in cambodia too.. haha.. she noe i like winnie the pooh so gave mi quite a few stuffs on it.. but i am not exactly crazy abt it lah.. hee.. yeah.. she luvs mi n i luv her too! *muackz* hehee.. xie xie ni jie jie! n sry for making u spend so much money on mi.. hahaa... its the thoughts tt count! =D


aniwae, she is now in cambodia... nono.. bangkok le.. i hope she is fine n safe arh? coz bangkok there now very choatic.. having strikes n riots worx.. hahaa.. hope she managed to buy stuffs for mi too.. hehee.. haiz.. she is away for 10 DAYS leh!!! miss her lyk siao worx.. but nvm.. hahaa... she is coming back tml le.. hee.. =) so going to airport to fetch her tml night.. hahaa.. can't wait to see her!!! hee.. hope tt she will have a safe flight home tml.. =)

*ps.. haiz.. i damaged the mp3 when it is still so new.. very pissed off with myself when i first saw it.. the front which is the plastic cover tt part is broken.. so sad.. ='( haiz.. blame it all on myself for not taking enough care of it.. haiz..*

haiz.. so lazy n busy these few days.. haven been posting abt the camp.. hahaa.. it was fun lah.. hee.. i shall post abt it after i come back from co camp bah.. haha.. another camp again.. well.. it is actually so fun can.. we were lyk just discussing abt the games tt time and now it is already the camp le lorx.. time really flies man.. haiz.. i haven even started my hw yet lah.. how many days do i left? i will only be back on thurs.. but fri a;ready half day gone coz must be sleeping.. haha.. mi so pig.. hee.. den only left a few days do hw lorx.. and there is so much work to do can.. how to finish? still gt tests leh.. actually was thinkig of studying during the holidays de.. but.. haiz.. hopeless la.. just wish tt i dun sooooooooo lazy n slack so much can le.. can finish hw n study tests in time jiu very gd le lorx.. k lah.. i will TRY to post when i come back.. haha.. gt much much more to post.. haha.. sec 3 bonding camp and co camp.. well.. i now really wish n pray tt co camp will go smoothly.. =) hope tt it will be a successful and fun camp tt will really bond us all together k! :) lets jia you together! it is just a few hours later le.. gonna catch some sleep.. if not dun have energy.. hahaa.. bye!

hm.. i very long nv blog liao.. haiz.. actually got a lot of things to blog on de.. well.. but no time lah.. will blog after i come back from camp k.. haha.. it is so late le den later gt camp lah.. den now mi still online blogging.. hee.. erm.. ok.. i shall keep this post short n sweet bah.. firstly, i wan to thank everyone who care for mi and cheer mi up and being there to listen to me.. thanks a lot! i luv all of u! hahaa..


erm.. actually i wanted to write abt the leadership camp on sat de.. i really think tt it was useful.. the $10 was really worth it lah.. at first i still there grumbling.. den somemore no lunch provided.. but after tt realised tt it is still very fun and interesting lah.. haha.. we did our DISC..hm.. i think quite accurate bah.. maybe for mine de.. ya.. it shows tt i not suitable for secretary lah.. haha.. i not C leh.. erm.. well.. regarding the rest of the lessons, it was useful too.. really.. although now tt we noe, but do we actually apply them in real life? hm.. tts still a question.. but i really enjoyed the lesson and i believe a lot of them did too..


well.. maybe lyk wad they say.. it takes time.. time will heal everything.. will it? i dunno.. but i really hope so.. i can see that it is definitely better.. at least we talk to each other or mention each other name when necessay.. but i still feel awkward.. i really hope things will go back to normal.. haiz.. but is it possible? i am willing if u are.. i can see that u are really busy and stress over the class tee thing.. i noe wad i can is useless.. but IF u are willing, i can help to share the weight.. but.. i dunno.. nvm.. i guess u have lots of friends doing tt le.. so i dun matter bah.. lol.. ya.. crying out is gd.. hope tt u really feel better le.. just wanna tell that i will alwaes be there for u whenever u need.. i noe wad i say is redundant.. but i just wan to let u noe tt.. i am willing to lend u my ear too if u need.. but i noe things have change.. it is not wad it used to be.. maybe this is just my wishful thinking.. i really hope tt we can go back to the days.. when will this day come? or it will never?
don't think i am alright.. i am just bleeding inside..


ok.. i shall tok until here bah.. see.. hahaa.. a short post as i said.. shall continue next time.. abt the camp.. yeah.. going for camp in just a few more hours.. have to go catch some sleep if not later during camp cannot tahan.. haha.. hope tt the bonding camp will be fun! last of all, i want to thanks everyone of u again! =)

ya.. wad u say is right.. both of us were at fault k.. and because we din clear the problems we had right from the start had ended us up in this.. so we both had to be responsible for it.. well.. sorry.. but just 1 thing, when i said sry to u face to face tt time i noe tt it was really inappropriate.. however, i did sort of say why.. i said tt i am sorry becoz of co things.. maybe i din express it clearly.. ya.. i think i really din.. and maybe u din hear mi.. i noe i spoke quite softly when i said those things.. so it is not ur fault tt u din hear.. ya.. maybe u r right.. i said too many sorrys.. well.. so ppl dun believe mi when i say the real sorry.. but i can tell you tt i am really sincere when i said it to you and when i wrote it to u.. truthfully.. ya.. u din mention name and din reveal the whole thing.. but i din reveal the things too.. i was just responding to ur post becoz i was really very angry too.. but i guess many ppl could tell.. esp those who are close to us or even just know us.. i guess we were making it quite obvious.. because there was suddenly a drastic change between us.. even if they nv read our posts, they will have guess tt something happen.. imagine last time when we used to be SO gd, and suddenly now din really even tok to each other? those who noe us will surely notice the change right? it is very obvious lah.. so even if we dun reveal each other name, it is still quite clear to other ppl.. they will noe abt this sooner or later.. it is really very ming xian.. and i din mention ur name too.. i din reveal the things too.. i was also just expressing my feelings and opinions abt wad happen.. and i din blame u or say tt u mention my name.. if i were u, maybe i wld have done so.. who noes? sorry.. yeah i gt my family members but i dun tok to them abt such stuffs too.. they dun really care abt mi for sch stuffs.. ok.. but i guess i am better than u.. but i think in friendship, i am a loser.. i am worse off than u.. i am just a shi bai zhe.. so is che ping.. i guess i am also wrong for rushing u give mi a definite answer at tt time.. but i really need an answer.. i am totally lost and without directions.. just like being lost in a jungle, dunno which way to go.. and if just take a wrong step den maybe i might regret for the rest of my life.. i am also getting my punishment now.. and i think i am trying to change for the better now.. i really hope tt i din do it wrongly.. if i did, pls tell mi.. coz i really dun wan another of this to happen again.. i cannot take another blow of this anymore.. if not i think i will really collapse.. really.. this had already made an impact big enough for mi to rmb for the rest of my life.. i nv felt so depressed and so upset.. never.. this is the first time.. ya.. and i really really really hope that we will get this over very soon.. i certainly hope so.. i dun lyk tt feeling too.. u can understand.. i am sure.. u noe we are lyk seeing each other alomst everyday and most of the time.. ya.. tt feeling is awkward.. and i dunno y my parents mention u recently.. and i seriously dunno how to answer them.. lol.. and i seriously think that we need to solve the problems face to face.. it is faster and clearly this way.. so can we have a good talk with each other? if u are prepared already.. i hope it will really help solve the problems and not make it worse..


and ya.. i also just want to tell u tt i actually still care for u.. can see that u are depressed over the class stuff too.. which is actually abt the class tee.. noe tt u put in a lot of effort for the class tee.. i am sorry if i have done something wrong in class becoz of the class tee thing.. and dun worry abt it k.. it will turn out alright.. i am sure the class wun blame u.. it is not ur fault tt the words are not clear enough.. so stop stressing urself and get depress over it.. just wan to let u noe i will try to be back to my old self and u will too.. and tt i can still be and will be there for u if u need and u accept it.. i also wan to apologize for being harsh on my words in my previous posts.. i guess i was also very heated then.. it goes the same for u too bah.. dunno.. haiz..


pls.. i really hope tt we can get back to the old days.. with all the craps and laughters.. the times when we talk over the phone late at night discussing abt hw and stuffs.. the times when we study together during exams.. the times when we gossip together abt other ppl.. the times tt we walk home and laugh.. the times tt we were so gd and close to each other and do a lot of things together.. i really miss them all.. really.. and i cannot imagine tt i cried everytime when i read ur posts and when i posted mine.. i cannot believe it.. the words are so hurting tt it all hit my heart hard.. haiz.. i really dunno wad to do.. i really din mean wad i really do.. really.. i dunno wad came over mi those times.. but i truly regretted my actions.. i noe there are times tt we quarrelled too.. but it was not as bad.. becoz we could compromise with each other.. friends shld really compromise each other and be frank, taking it their mistakes, telling them and help them to correct them, forgiving their shortcoming and understanding them too.. at the same time reflecting on wad u had done and apologize for wad u did.. be glad tt they could compromise u and dun take them for granted.. be good to them too.. vice versa if u wan ur friend to be gd to u.. this is really a true and honest friend and wad we call a true friend.. i hope and really hope we could get back to the old days.. i treasure them.. can broken glass be back to the same again?