well.. it is 29 feb today! once in 4 yrs.. special day? i shall declare today as an emo day k! hahaa.. recently gt a lot of unhappy things going on.. i wld say i am more or less affected by them on top of my own fan nao.. haiz.. shall not elaborate much on tt.. =/

this week only gt lectures.. so slack.. =) den today after sch, after so long, decided to go for tjco orientation.. feels weird coz i dunno anyone.. tt kind of feeling sucks.. a senior said i was brave to go there alone.. lol.. it feels terrible k.. so i have been whining and talking n asking many ppl abt was pdp i should join.. co or guitar? i am an indecisive person.. so hard for me to make a choice.. has already been thinking abt it for a long time and weighing the pros n cons yet not able to be firm on my choice.. really very fan nao over it.. ='( i dun wan leave my friends in guitar yet i really have to consider the factor on my slow learning capibility.. it is really true! true also tt i have no confidence in myself.. i dun believe i can do it.. ppl are trying to encourage me but it doesn't really gives affirmation.. both pdp are attractive but i just can't.. really hate myself for not able to decide!!!!!! ah!!!!! =( why? how? sucks lah.. i believe i am quite cca orientated, as in i hope i can really devote myself to the cca.. so i dun wan to regret wad i join! have been asking ppl so much abt it tt i think they might find me irritating.. =/ but it is really a very impt decision to me, so i am really very bothered over it.. haiz.....

my class real rocks man! hahaa.. lol.. today afternoon gt the interhouse games.. played a game called 'big white fying object' which is something like captain's ball just tt the ball is a balloon with flour in it.. although only played using tt for a few rounds.. our class de guys all very pro! hahaa.. the defending part was really powerful! =) and we consectively fight our way through ard 6 games to the finals.. haha.. din really expect tt in the first play though.. =/ some of the games were damn violent and quite pissed off.. guess our opponents are also scolding us like mad lor.. hahaa.. actually feel quite out coz i nv really get to play.. =( i dun fel trusted at all.. maybe i am really just lousy.. well.. i cannot play on the floor.. dun hv the skills and i just look like a stupid useless person running ard the court trying to intercept but like not much of a use.. din really get a chance to play wad i am stronger at.. dun believe in me.. although i am just a substitute and it is a small matter, but it just feel quite hurtful.. nvm.. just feeling quite sad so saying it out.. sigh.. nvm... our class won overall in the end! it is something to be really happy abt coz it was really a tough fight! just like i din really contribute to it.. nvm.. CG11/08 did well today! =) 80 bucks swensens voucher is waiting there...

after tt went for guitar, with only half an hour left.. they were practising for a song to be sung for the concert.. i can't sing! but it is a nice song and dunno y i suddenly feel so emo and tt i feel like crying.. like wad if i choose co den i will be leaving guitar and my friends and i wun be able to take part in the concert although it doesn't mean tt i will be able to take part if i join.. haiz.. den ppl will ask me join.. but the feeling of lagging behingd so much so much and couldn't catch up with the rest is really very bad...

went eighteen chef eat dinner with ys, sl, ww n bl.. talk n crap a lot.. haha.. we gt a lot to talk den talk until so late... =X everyone is just not happy recently.. =( but i wan to thank all who help me or advise me on my pdp choice! thanks so much ppl! =)