had been very fan over the trips thing.. ocip? co to hk? haiz.. i gt an answer already but deep down in my heart i can't bear to let the other go.. its so near yet so far.. i let it go.. slipped away.. give it up.. why am i so dumb to make a choice tt i gt so much doubts abt and the one with less benefits? why? i dun understand it myself either.. i dunno if it is the right choice or best choice for me.. but just tt i can't let the other one go.. bu she de.. i gt no choice.. it is confirm tt they will definitely clash and worse is by only 3 days.. haiz.. =( agn and agn i am so indecisive.. troubling so much ppl this time.. asking them for their opinions and not heeding to them.. i'm sorry ppl.. so sorry for troubling u all for the past few days.. =X why shld i think so much abt it and make myself so miserable when my jc life is already so screwed? waking up in the middle of the night to think over it.. ahh!!! this sucks man.. i don't know how, don't know why.. hope i can stop stressing over this and wld not regret though i think i will in the end.. i really dunno why i chose this.. =( =( =( =( =( =( =(

can't let go of it.. :(