there was tons of hw, practically all subjects to do last weekend.. and i feel that i am so guai to complete most of them, even part of physics tutorial (for the first time), except an econs essay ques.. wahahaa.. tts such an accomplishment! =) hee.. but was super tired.. i rmb doing eom till 3am.. =X and the result turn out rubbish.. still the same.. had to do agn.. haiz..

mon 4 aug: a long and dreadful day.. double econs and need hand up so many hw.. worst is there was napfa test.. zzZzzz.. well.. it took up 2 periods which is almost 2 hours to complete our whole class.. tt's super long! did ok except for standing broad jump.. miss by 2 cm.. =( think i shld retake agn to get my gold! sian..

tues 5 aug: sian.. wake up early to go sch prac.. scared scolded by conductor but it wasn't our section to prac with him this wk.. and the prac turn out to be super boring.. zzzZzzzZz.. but still gd la.. escape from him agn.. =)

wed 6 aug: long day too.. had strengthquest debrief.. i think this is gd.. =) shld give us more info so tt we can really apply it although i think some not very accurate.. haha.. den there was the presentation for internships for contact time.. quite interesting.. i dunno if i shld try applying for it.. have interview.. i phobia of interview le.. everytime also fail.. haiz.. and i dunno if i can make it in the real working society anot.. so scary.. =( wonder how i am going to survive next time.. had prac after tt.. dazu.. erm.. well.. not too great i wld say.. i was super scared.. and the conductor din comment on my part.. guess i was too hopeless le.. =X haiz.. we played fen yong qian jin! =) i miss that song.. but it is not so nice without the seniors..

thurs 7 aug: had 2 tests consectively.. =( screw up totally for chem.. i feel bad and guilty.. cause i din study too much for both.. its always super tired after practices and i went home to slp and did nothing like studying.. gonna flunk le.. =/ maths also blank out.. din even rmb how to complete the square to intergrate.. haiz.. nvm.. promo is coming.. tts worse.. went home, slp a while and wake up do WR! i do until 3am!! *sleepy* super tired.. but no choice.. our grp already late by a lot a lot already.. others handed in on fri and we ask for extension till next wk.. so we better do a gd job.. yup.. jia you for pw! =S

fri 8 aug: tj national day celebration is zZzzz.. so boring until the last part of singing songs.. starting was some parade marching.. a mixture of uniform grps from different schs and it look so funny.. they screw up anyway.. the contigent commander can still laugh when he do wrongly and the wrong marching is so messy.. but cannot blame lah.. all diff sch and not much rehearsal.. the concert was boring.. there is singing at last and we went higher! haha.. and mass dance at last! =) but had to miss the parade in ahs.. =( din went back.. went tm with alicia, chermaine, eunice for lunch at kfc! haha.. i very long nv eat le! yeah! xD haha.. had been craving for it for so long!! finally! =D ok.. but after tt had to go back to sch for pw meeting! =S instead of going for 4k outing.. so sorry abt it.. but had no choice.. we had to meet up to do pw.. our grp was so dead.. everyone is so tired lah.. chionging until so late the night before.. haha.. pandas looking at each other.. =P went home slp after tt.. hee.. den went for a last minute asg dinner at night.. so sorry for the last minute.. ya.. i wanted to eat my nachos too! but out of stock.. =( went home and realise i miss the opening ceremony of the beijing olypmics! awww.. heard tt the fireworks were awesome! haiz.. miss it! =(

sat 9 aug: happy national day! it feels like national day and not sat! haha.. lol.. went for "celebration" with my mum and aunt's family.. my aunt sign me up for the wad young ntuc big flag thing without informing me until last min.. =X den ya.. had to go.. but its alright! there is goodies bag! hehee.. =) had to go so early and the sun was blazing hot in the afternoon.. but when the ceremony, parade is starting, it started drizzling.. sian.. dampen th spirits.. ppl were so inconsiderate and open the umbrellas, hold so high, stand up and block all the view of the screen.. :@ luckily it din rain too long.. but long enough to wet everything.. the aeroplanes performances were so nice! there was the heart shape formation.. hahaa.. amazing! =) fireworks was not too bad but the view there was not tt nice.. a lot of smoke cover everything cannot see le.. =( the big flag tt we make is quite impressive and nice.. din expect the formation to be so gd.. haha.. i very long nv really celebrate national day le.. used to go for the parade every year when i was young but not now anymore.. actually feel like going to the floating platform to experience it.. wonder how it is.. haha..

sun 10 aug: it doesn't feel like a usual sunday.. i am so slack.. din do any work yet.. =X went to my cousin's housewarming for lunch.. her hse is quite cosy.. simple and nice.. and there is nice dim sum for lunch! haha.. =) my cousins were playing wii at her hse and they look so spastic! hee.. =P wacking the controller in the air like crazy ppl.. esp for the boxing game.. haha.. but seems like great fun though.. was looking at the photo album tt one of my uncle compiled with all the msg to grandma and the memories flooded back.. unknowingly, time has pass so fast.. =(

there is 2 tests + 2 mock spas next wk! lots of hw too but i dun seems to feel worried to do.. =X this is bad.. tml is sch holiday.. guess i will den do tml bah.. anyway, its 11 aug tml.. my class bday! haha.. 11/08! =)

我不知我为何做出这个选择. 是愚蠢还是不理智呢? 我不知道. 但是, 每当我看见他们为那些事而忙时, 心里会感到酸溜溜地. 我是多么的想帮忙, 但只能眼睁睁地看着, 想着, 却无法感同身受. 可我不可以埋怨, 是自己的决定, 只好忍受着那说不出的遗憾... 告诉自己那是自己的选择.. 无法回头了... 即使再来一次, 我也做不出明智的决定. 选择啊选择.. 真的那么难吗? 我为何那么苦恼? =X