okie.. angry with myself cause i just found out something.. if my physics paper do very badly which will happen, its my own fault for not studying hard enough and the result of not practising questions.. =( cause i found that around 20 marks or maybe more of the physics paper questions was given in my tuition revision package which i did not touch at all! its exactly the same questions and answers!! wahh... heart attack man.. nvm.. =(((((

sunday was out the whole day praying for qing ming.. hmm.. yea.. whole wkend is gone just like tt and not much work done.. sch is reopening agn from tml onwards.. :( and lessons start and results back.. busy busy busy..

counting down to syf: 1 month.. o.O

this terrifying week has past!! yeah!! =D but more to come.. lol.. nvm.. hahaa.. shall enjoy it for the moment first.. hehee.. okie.. so actually this week have been quite an enjoyment though there is mct.. cause everyday can go home early straight after the papers and take some afternoon nap xP plus watching tv from dunno wad time till 11pm.. hahaa.. and online! i think normal sch days dun even have the luxury to do all these man! cause its mct and i guess somewhat give up and also no mood study.. but nevertheless i study okie!! its a matter of how deep it goes into the brain.. hahaa.. work hard for some subjects also hor.. =) well..

lets give an overview of the mct.. hahaa.. gp sux cause i think i wrote out of point and realised it when i was already halfway through so forget it.. jiang chuo jiu chuo.. hahaa.. econs is actually not difficult i think if u study for it.. except for certain ques of the csq.. yea.. but okie lah.. i hope i dun write wrongly.. =X wed had chem and 90% was on organic.. hm.. not too bad but upon hearing more stuffs i decided to close my eyes and lower my expectations.. o.O thurs had maths and tt was horrandous! dunno how to spell.. nvm.. yea.. quite difficult i supposed but of course there will still be ppl who are Aceing it.. lol.. its a disappointing paper cause i was pinning hope on it.. haiz.. today was physics and i have to admit that it was a difficult paper and supposedly easy paper but as usual, i screw it up.. =/ hope history wun repeat and let me pass this time round k!! have to learn to "love" physics! hahaa..

done! relieved tt mct is over and really glad i went back ahs today!!! XXDDDD although the time was really short but i think it is happy.. =) and thanks jt for going back with me cause nobody else wan go back with me lor.. :( its their founder's day celebration but i went back main purpose is to see my juniors but din manage to see all today though... had to rush back to tj for sectionals.. =( there is like lots of stuffs that i am missing out and new stuffs discovered such as the use of the back door once again! hahaa.. and and i bought the new co tee today!!! happy!! xD cause its the nicest co tee man! and its really nice though i dun like the dry fit material but still must really thanks yu jun for the design!! <3 anyway, was back there and me and jt sat outside the stuff room bench talk talk.. =) see quite some unfamiliar faces of new teachers and of coz the best old teachers! haha.. though quite sad din see mr tan, mr mok.. but still we talk to a few nice teacher like ms chan! =D and mrs lee still rmb me.. =)

back to tj and had a tiring and boring sectionals cause i couldn't catch the learning of vibrato.. =((((( actually i badly wan to learn it cause its really very x10 nice when u know how to use it.. slow n stupid me just dunno how and cannot learn.. haiz..

stayed till quite long n late in co room until 7.30pm.. running late for tuition but i really dun feel like going.. its taking up all my leisure time with friends and my freedom!!!!! :(((( can't have dinner with co ppl, asg! le.. haiz.. i dun wan to miss out on anything..

tired day, tired week.. gonna be a tired weekend too.. but really glad no tuition tml morning.. =) so yupp... reverting back to the old lifestyle agn once sch starts next week.... dun wanna imagine and think abt this super hetic term 2 with all the spa practicals + practices + tests + etc..

thanks so much to everybody who have wished me! xD really really appreciate that! =D hahaa.. thanks for remembering!

hmm.. not tt a great bday.. anyway, none of my bdays were great.. yeahh.. always gt something bad happen since i was young.. like falling down, losing wallets, getting scold by teachers, late for sch etc.. =X though these few years are slightly better.. yea..

spend my day slping till very late this morning.. cause last night was online and i think tt few hours were the happiest time of the day with many many msgs coming in at 12am.. =) thanks friends! so noon wake up le den was doing sh's present which was already 1 month due.. hee.. there goes my day and i din study.. *prepared to flunk mct* =/

but anyway, the best part and unexpected was a phone call from the JUNIORS!!!! omg!!! i love them! xDDD hahaa.. really reallly feeling very bad din go back during the holidays to see them and today was their music exchange with a few other schs too! but it is like really really far at RI! so yea.. din go but they were really nice and sweet to call me and sing me a birthday song plus many many sweet wishes!! xD wonder where they were cause it was very loud!! hahaa.. love you guys lotsss!!!! =P really a great bunch of juniors to have... its always fun and laughter with them ard! work hard and jia you for syf k!! i miss them soooooo much!! =D haha.. i think i am zi highing over here.. lol.. nvm... heee..

late afternoon went 85 to miss dear sh.. thanks for the present and the movtivation/wake up/reminder bday card! i know u will be seeing this.. :) really glad to hv u! at night went to market with family n sis's bf for dinner.. den mum gt me my favourite fruit cake and yea.. only my sis was highing ard like it was her bday instead lor.. =X but anyway, thanks sis for the watch and the cookies.. :) hmm.. though i dun really feel anything special but i think bday is really a gd time to see tt some of ur friends have not forgotten u! just a small bday wish will make my day! x) tt's all i am asking for actually.. it makes me miss some of my friends so much! thanks once agn for all those wishes! i hope they bring me luck for my mct!! wahahahaa..

haiz.. super sian.. its holiday now yet cannot enjoy.. =(( have to mug for mct and here i am slacking for the past few days.. work done = Fs and displacement rate is super slow.. therefore workdone is very low.. lol.. =.=

sis bought new laptop.. quite cool and i am so toot lah.. everything also amazed.. lol.. =x

fri was temasek ignite.. some videos done by various pdps were quite funny.. haha.. although a bit boring but well, glad tt we now have an asthetics tee shirt! :) hopefully we can get it soon.. i think the best part of the ignite was the refreshment cause the food are quite nice.. =D but no time eat cause need go for sectionals! sectionals was alright but i guess teaching the new members really need patience and time.. realise tt handling a few at a time can be quite a tough job.. =/ oh well.. maybe i am not a good teacher.. nvm.. at night was ASG DINNER!!! hahaha.. omg! i think tt night dinner rocks to the max man!! all was present except for michael.. we were super funny and talk lots of crap and stuffs and i guess it is the first time (almost) everyone was active and involved!!! =DDDDD and me n jt burst out laughing over some new discovered news.. =P so hilarious!! anyway, it was really an enjoyment and relieving time! =D

sat went nus open hse.. have to travel so far all the way to boon lay and wanted to go ntu open hse but well.. no time.. nvm.. wasted damn a lot of time.. =((( open hse was nothing much but saw quite a few familiar faces.. yea.. a bit weird to go now cause still gt a year to go.. all comes down to the min 4 As to obtain before you can have the choice.. then after tt go tj for talentime to support some friends.. =) the performances were all not bad i guess.. =) they were all really brave! lots of ppl went too.. although false chaos din win but they were really great! =D glad to have ur friends up there performing =D used to see and hear them play after sch and now they are on the stage. =) the j2s dancers were super impressive and have done a really gd job too!! and of coz they won 1st! hahaa.. :D congrats to ming da who gt 2nd for his super funny magic performances! =D mr aziz seems to have become his friend!

anyway, today is socks bday. i know u are in camp now and may not see this, but nevertheless, wish ya a HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR SOCKLING!! =D

next 2 days have co prac.. so wishing everything goes well and hope mct will be fine too.. =X

today our sch had half day!!! whoo~! due to gd A level results!! =D so happy man! lessons end at 10am and today is the right day to pick cause its our longest day.. hahaa.. but still, we had physics mock spa after tt.. din really care abt it.. after tt by right can go home but it was pouring very heavily!!! wanted to go lunch with friends but due to the rain all go home.. was super hungry and cook noodles at home.. den very tired and took a nap due to the nice cool weather.. but it always ended up very bad cause my whole day was ruined by the time i wake up a few hours later.. my self-discipline is damn lousy which makes me super angry with myself all the time.. wadever lah.. haizz... din do much work and had planned to study some stuffs today but nothing achieved.. there goes the time and the day..

every teacher is telling us to work hard x 10 cause it was seen tt our batch ppl are lazy compared to last year's batch and it was their hard work tt gives them gd results.. so we shld learn from them.. when will i start doing tt?

learn vollayball on mon's pe.. hm.. quite difficult but fun i think.. prefer to learn basketball though but nvm..


tues had econs lecture test and i dunno why gt some kind of mental block or my english too lousy tt i can't interpret the question and dunno how to answer them.. i studied for the test k! just dunno how to apply my answers to the quest! dunno wad they wan.. =( rarr!!


wed: indecisive lead to no where good and wrong choice made. plus weirdness and awkwardness..

thurs: pe early in the morning.. was glad we got mr sim, the super nice pe teacher who sound and look like a very ci xiang grandfather.. had to run circuit 6 rounds but at least own time own target.. had double gp and we had to do compre after such a tiring morning.. haiz.. worse still, there was chem mock spa in the afternoon.. nothing seems to come out when the mock spa starts.. was so hun luan while doing.. well.. but at least i got some solid in the end.. din finished though..

fri: went out with quite some class ppl to kfc for lunch! haha.. =) den went back sch and it was A level results release day.. i can feel the excitement and nervous atmosphere hanging around too.. =/ kept imagining wad it will be like next year when its my turn.. went up to the hall to look at the results.. but we sat at the back and due to my poor eyesight, i coudn't see much or anything displayed on the screen.. but tj did well and much better than last year! so it was a joyous thing to be happy about.. =) there were around 280 plus who gt 3 distinction and 100 plus gt 4 distinctions.. and above? i forgot.. gt this super pro person who took 13 units and gt 8 distinctions! damn pro lah!!! class 07/07 was expected to be the best class with like so many ppl getting at least 6 distinctions and our senior class 11/07 did very well too!! co seniors were all very smart and do very well lor!! so many gt 6 distinctions too!! and most gt at least 3 As which is super duper pro!!! omg!! i am so envious... i also wan tt kind of results leh.. gonna be quite hard for our batch ppl cause rumour says tt tj din do well for pw this year.. =((( worried.. anyway, was in the hall and an sms came over tt says jin jia did super well!! congrats man!! hahaa.. i was also sharing the joy and happiness of the seniors gd results! dunno why i am so happy also lah.. lol.. =/ but they really really deserved it!! all of them so hardworking!! wondering when i can be like them..........

after tt had co.. erm.. so sorry i went late cause was watching A level result.. =X was quite surprised tt there was actually so many dizis.. ard 6 or more new juniors.. so only come to help for syf but yea.. still quite a lot.. ty was busy teaching those beginners and i had to prac with those performing in syf.. by right i was supposed to teach them.. but well.. i can't really teach cause my tempo sucks and i dunno how to listen.. haizz.. i think ended up they are quite pissed off with me and i yue bang yue mang lor.. zzZZZzzz.. =( not a gd senior.. haiz.. sry i couldn't help with anything and i myself isn't gd either..

had asg dinner at night! quite many ppl came and jinjia was very happy!! =D jt came after watching her lzx and was super auntie and crazy and high!! lol! =.= hahaa.. so funny!! realised tt they are still the ppl who we really can talk abt all things under the sun! =)

sat: woke up myself early in the morning, determined to go to tuition to fix my physics.. but upon reaching there and after a lesson, i feel like crying cause i catch nothing.. wad a useless lesson for me! =((( its like i understand damn slow and lag behind throughout the whole lesson and he was damn fast! can't help but feel stupid cause the rest were all able to catch.. haiz.. there was a lot of worksheets given as hw!!! when can i finish them?? really hate physics to the core! i am trying to understand it but to no avail.. how how how???? damn stress up over it.. sorry i ps a few friends who wanted to go for career fair.. =X super guilty over it.. =(

sun: was told to go for make up tuition early in the morning and i did as i was told.. cause he said my physics is very weak and terrible which is true of course.. althought smaller group but still i learn very slow and i think the person was a bit irritated by me.. keep cannot apply the concepts.. haizz... when can i kai qiao?? now having a serious problem with this tuition coming up cause it keeps clashing with cca time and are at night at times.. i dunno how?? tell me wad to do pls.. i wan to improve my physics of course but den.. really need lots of effort put in and at the same time juggling with other subjects.. =(( why in the first place did i take physics when i know i dun really like it? who to blame? myself. i put myself in this state.

shall update agn tml.. but here in the meantime, CONGRATS TO ALL J2s who have done well in their A level!!! =D so happy for them! =D

frustrating week last week.. have been feeling very 暴躁 and not concentrating very well.. =(

shall start with last last fri which is friendship day.. it was alright and quite a joyful day i guess.. receiving chocolates and flower from friends.. =) my angel is a nice j1 who replied me! lol.. finally get to eat my fast food after so long after sch despite me coughing like mad.. may and eunice went with me n we ate long john! talked crap there for quite some time.. hahaa.. back to sch and i had co sectionals.. first time have practice on fri! and thereafter.. there goes my early day home! where i end at 11.40am! nvm lah.. prac was not going too smoothly as there is some trouble in teaching this guy who gt attitude problem.. =X well.. at least he tried.. i cannot be so mean.. then, left sch quite late with a few others to have dinner.. for the first time, i feel the cca feeling on fri just like before! :) haha.. went with ty to meet clarance at tamp at night to take da G dizi and he forgot to bring! lol.. anyway, he is botak and looks real funny.. =P unlike his used to curly hair! hahaa.. well.. i feel bad keep teasing him.. hehee.. he wun mind lah i gues.. so we walked all the way from the meeting point to his hse to talk tt dizi and it was quite long! nv knew tt part of tamp existed.. hahaa.. and we went on to zl's (another senior) hse to take another one since its on the way.. lol.. it was quite late but i guess its still quite nice to meet up with the seniors.. =)

the week started with maths test and physics mock spa.. both din really went well and i somewhat screwed up my spa.. =( but it was still quite relieving after the tests are over.. had been slping straight after i reach home or after dinner most of the nights i reach home and not doing anything at all is making me pissed off with myself! sometimes finding myself awake the next morning and having enough slp can be quite infuriating.. really feel like banging my head against the wall. haizzz.... got back both chem and maths tests too and din do well for both.. the maths test was an easy one yet i din reach expectations.. well.. =(

co is not doing well lately too.. conductor is getting irritated quite easily nowadays and i think we are not of standard too.. =( very bad actually.. my section is the one with one of the major problem.. we gt a lot of movement in our ppl and not having enough gd ones to help us.. and tt day when they had a meeting and trying to discuss abt the current issues and sy say i am a serious problem.. hahaa.. can't help.. helpless.. maybe hopeless? =/ gt to work harder bah.. striving towards the goal is really gonna be very difficult for us but i guess we all wan to achieve there..

had been thinking a lot and considering abt another serious issue of my studies.. physics.. no matter how regretful i am in choosing this subject, i can't change it also and there is nothing i can do abt it.. so have to bear on with it till it ends.. how am i going to improve it den?? was considering very carefully if i shld really drop to H1.. as usual, i can't decide so was thinking of taking up tuition.. going to be quite costly but my parents say nvm.. den another thing is tt do i have the time? syf coming and co is taking up a lot of my time so how? and if i go for tuition, need to really spend a lot of effort in studying tt and doing tuition hw.. dun wanna waste money also.. need to forgo a lot of things if tuition starts, like asg dinners on fri and slp on sat morning.. so how? but i seriously need help in physics because i feel hopeless in almost every lecture and tutorials.. :(

fri's pe was horribly tiring cause i think tt male teacher is treating the girls like guys and making us do quite some pt.. had to keep restarting agn and agn if we don't stand up fast enough or count loud enough.. ran 2 rounds gate to gate plus sit ups and push ups and rabbit hops and stretching.. but still i am having muscle aches all over now and my diaphragm muscles is so pain tt when i laugh, cough, stretch or even sit up after lying down it is aching.. =( but i guess i am still better than those who din wear tj pe shorts on fri and gt punished by doing pt on the field which is muddy after the rain the day before.. poor thing man.. =/

anyway, its like so late now and i have already wasted my sat on slping and dinner at my uncle's hse.. feel super frustrated while doing maths today cause i dunno how to do.. used one whole day and just did around 4 ques.. how inefficient i am.. and worse still gt sooooooooooooooo much other work to do!! hw and test and chem mock spa next wk!! oh, i screw up my chem spa on thurs and din manage to get any crystals.. dunno wads wrong tt day.. nvm.. just worried for my actual spa.. zzZZzzzz... dead..

anyway, realise almost a quarter of a year is gonna be gone soon when march comes.. shows tt mct is just in another 3 wks time.. tt's really super fast! failing it anyway i guess.. shall see how..