frustrating week last week.. have been feeling very 暴躁 and not concentrating very well.. =(

shall start with last last fri which is friendship day.. it was alright and quite a joyful day i guess.. receiving chocolates and flower from friends.. =) my angel is a nice j1 who replied me! lol.. finally get to eat my fast food after so long after sch despite me coughing like mad.. may and eunice went with me n we ate long john! talked crap there for quite some time.. hahaa.. back to sch and i had co sectionals.. first time have practice on fri! and thereafter.. there goes my early day home! where i end at 11.40am! nvm lah.. prac was not going too smoothly as there is some trouble in teaching this guy who gt attitude problem.. =X well.. at least he tried.. i cannot be so mean.. then, left sch quite late with a few others to have dinner.. for the first time, i feel the cca feeling on fri just like before! :) haha.. went with ty to meet clarance at tamp at night to take da G dizi and he forgot to bring! lol.. anyway, he is botak and looks real funny.. =P unlike his used to curly hair! hahaa.. well.. i feel bad keep teasing him.. hehee.. he wun mind lah i gues.. so we walked all the way from the meeting point to his hse to talk tt dizi and it was quite long! nv knew tt part of tamp existed.. hahaa.. and we went on to zl's (another senior) hse to take another one since its on the way.. lol.. it was quite late but i guess its still quite nice to meet up with the seniors.. =)

the week started with maths test and physics mock spa.. both din really went well and i somewhat screwed up my spa.. =( but it was still quite relieving after the tests are over.. had been slping straight after i reach home or after dinner most of the nights i reach home and not doing anything at all is making me pissed off with myself! sometimes finding myself awake the next morning and having enough slp can be quite infuriating.. really feel like banging my head against the wall. haizzz.... got back both chem and maths tests too and din do well for both.. the maths test was an easy one yet i din reach expectations.. well.. =(

co is not doing well lately too.. conductor is getting irritated quite easily nowadays and i think we are not of standard too.. =( very bad actually.. my section is the one with one of the major problem.. we gt a lot of movement in our ppl and not having enough gd ones to help us.. and tt day when they had a meeting and trying to discuss abt the current issues and sy say i am a serious problem.. hahaa.. can't help.. helpless.. maybe hopeless? =/ gt to work harder bah.. striving towards the goal is really gonna be very difficult for us but i guess we all wan to achieve there..

had been thinking a lot and considering abt another serious issue of my studies.. physics.. no matter how regretful i am in choosing this subject, i can't change it also and there is nothing i can do abt it.. so have to bear on with it till it ends.. how am i going to improve it den?? was considering very carefully if i shld really drop to H1.. as usual, i can't decide so was thinking of taking up tuition.. going to be quite costly but my parents say nvm.. den another thing is tt do i have the time? syf coming and co is taking up a lot of my time so how? and if i go for tuition, need to really spend a lot of effort in studying tt and doing tuition hw.. dun wanna waste money also.. need to forgo a lot of things if tuition starts, like asg dinners on fri and slp on sat morning.. so how? but i seriously need help in physics because i feel hopeless in almost every lecture and tutorials.. :(

fri's pe was horribly tiring cause i think tt male teacher is treating the girls like guys and making us do quite some pt.. had to keep restarting agn and agn if we don't stand up fast enough or count loud enough.. ran 2 rounds gate to gate plus sit ups and push ups and rabbit hops and stretching.. but still i am having muscle aches all over now and my diaphragm muscles is so pain tt when i laugh, cough, stretch or even sit up after lying down it is aching.. =( but i guess i am still better than those who din wear tj pe shorts on fri and gt punished by doing pt on the field which is muddy after the rain the day before.. poor thing man.. =/

anyway, its like so late now and i have already wasted my sat on slping and dinner at my uncle's hse.. feel super frustrated while doing maths today cause i dunno how to do.. used one whole day and just did around 4 ques.. how inefficient i am.. and worse still gt sooooooooooooooo much other work to do!! hw and test and chem mock spa next wk!! oh, i screw up my chem spa on thurs and din manage to get any crystals.. dunno wads wrong tt day.. nvm.. just worried for my actual spa.. zzZZzzzz... dead..

anyway, realise almost a quarter of a year is gonna be gone soon when march comes.. shows tt mct is just in another 3 wks time.. tt's really super fast! failing it anyway i guess.. shall see how..