did alright for chem and maths, felt tt i could have done better but satisfied cause i expected it worse.. so yea.. physics was as usual terrible cause everyone else did quite gd and the paper is considered relatively easy.. =( well.. just upset with myself.. but considering i pass, like on the dot, this time round, shld i feel overjoyed like wad others think i shld be? or i am just making up a fuss like wad u all say? wadever lah! :@

had chem spa this week on thurs.. it went alright as in i gt the product but quite messy.. finally skill B is over! phew..

fri had sports day.. hmm.. the running and prize giving part is so boring.. but cheerleading was not bad.. hahaa.. all yvonne's idea for bringing in the indian element into cheerleading and it made it so hilarious.. =) i think beta one is the most creative and funny one but too messy already so yea, gamma won in the end! gamma won the overall championship also! :D

there was tuition twice this week and i was late.. =x got scolded for being late.. haiz.. everytime also din wan to go lor.. but no choice had to drag myself there no matter wad.. =( hope it will help me.. but now it is currently making me lose my freedom, my happiness and also a lot of other things.. ='((((

had co for whole week.. getting into the intensive training cause left only 1 month and yet we are still in quite a bad state.. but one thing lucky is tt we gt a better off slot than some other schs.. its going to be a tough fight this year.. there is dhs, hwa chong one after another one.. going to be a challenging one.. ours in the morning and it feels very nervous.. =/ okie.. maybe the pressure is gd? tues our conductor got pissed off by us and left suddenly.. its soooooo scary lor! wahh... first time in history man! he is disappointed and tt make it worse cause if he lose hope in us den we are a gone case.. =( had a scolding tt day by sy and it scared all most us cause he suddenly shouted.. =X i feel afraid for the syf.. its just too much responsibilty to carry cause u will be blamed if u dun do well or cause the whole co to not get the results they wan.. despite putting in the effort, its just no use.. no use.. no use.. =( i dun wan to be the one being blamed.. =( i really fear for tt day to come.. how?

initially had duathalon cip de, but somehow i always din get chosen for such events while the rest did.. =( haiz.. but jr was sick and ask me to sub him and i stupidly rejected the nice offer by him, cause i was thinking i have prac the next day.. =( who knows all these effort to try to make it for the prac was not appreciated and was questioned instead.. so much so for being committed when i dun really have to.. some other ppl who shld be committed instead are not even doing so and ponning have the right to even scold us.. wadever! i know my skills sux and i am not a gd player but i tried my best.. but in there, tt's not wad they see and wad it matter.. u mean nothing to them! calling out to all juniors: pls dun throw urself into the pit if u are not gd enough for their standard or meet their expectation or not prepared to accept such kind of changes/situation.. otherwise, u will suffer like me.. =( hate it man! it just makes me lose heart and confident and will even more.. and worse at such a time nearing the syf.. i dunno how and i wonder.. =(