oh no.. its kind of late now and i have to get up super early in the morning to get to sch by 6.30am.. =X i still can't slp.. partially due to my 2hrs nap in the afternoon and tt i dun wan to slp cause of lots of things undone... procrastinating too much over the weekend although it was a short one.. had practice on fri and sat which lasted until quite late on sat..

sat was a tiring day.. slpt at 4am the night before.. =X dun scold me pls.. sometimes just dun feel like slping and i am enjoying the peace and quietness late in the night.. =) but it will result in the tiredness the next day.. maybe tt's wad i want to... trying to run away from reality.. bad bad..
we din really play well on sat and gt some scolding from conductor.. but after a while he calmed down and talk to us.. i think wad he say really makes sense.. giving our best, respecting each other and afterall its the process that counts.. although we all know tt we wan tt medal... recently the co has become much more of a co i have been hoping for.. at least much better than before.. all the encouragement and attempts for bonding together.. isn't tt great and much better? lets hope all these are not too late.. however, i dun find myself joining in the morale of the rest and feel for the change.. it has been quite relaxing and easy going for me for the last few practices actually.. is tt good? i am not stress at all!! and i think this is the worrying thing.. =( i dun feel as much for syf as i used to do so, not like the rest also.. is it cause i dun care? i dun know.. i hope not but i feel so.. =/ to me, i am already numb by the practices and take it quite easy going.. it may be a gd thing ar? i am confident already like wad ppl have always been wanting to instill in me? not in a right feeling, not in a correct way.. nvm.. i need to stop thinking abt these..

haven study for my econs test on tues!! dead.. haven do maths and chem tutorials which will be scolded by tutors for sure.. =/ most imptly i have been dragging and not progressing on the thing i wan to do for a friend whose bday is on syf.. o.O 2 more days left.. =/