i really hate j2 life man! everything just seems so screw up now! =( why am i always lagging behind time and the others?? why am i so inefficient and needing more slp than everyone else? even the used to slackest person now is so hardworking and faster and ahead! why am i still standing at the same spot when all others are running faster and faster? and above all, my brain is the slowest and weakest! =(

just realized that my concepts are quite weak all these years and i have been learning crap and dead stuffs.. A level is really not as simple as what we think and really need the concepts.. wad am i going to do now den? too much things to catch up with the ever increasing piles of work to do! which one shld i choose to do? really disappointed with my maths test which i just pass and the rest getting their As. i just want to find an excuse to relieve myself of the fact that my maths is really weak by blaming on my poor English. just dun wan to admit it.. haiz.. =(

being sick was just another excuse i used last week for my inefficiency.. a way to escape from reality for just a while.. i need the motivation and courage to carry on positively.. day by day, prelims is drawing nearer..

i am finally online after 2 weeks. and now i am down with fever, flu and the most hated cough.. =( dare not tell my parents in case they worry.. i strongly believe that i can self cure right? =/ will be staying at home this weekend just to be socially responsible. =) i dun wan to miss sch next wk unless i have no choice, i can't afford to miss sch.. pls dun give me a 7 days mc although i wan rest badly.. stupid heavy head made me can't do anything yesterday.. =(((

revision lectures has started and so is protected time.. =( everyday also end quite late except for mon den come home so tired so i slp lor.. ended up nv do any work so decided to stay in sch.. had a trial last week. its good to sit under trc cause at 7plus when the good news cafe closes, the manager will give us free leftover food which is still very nice! xD guess i have been eating too much heaty stuffs tts y will get sick.. =(

my study group was bored and we did this. they were so excited over this la! and it made those ppl walking past staring at these.. =X but our chem tutor was happy to see this too! lol! =D



our chem tutor's name and targets towards the As!

heavy head pls go away! =(

shall just sum up a bit of wad happen last 2 weeks through some photos.

first up is the SYF closing ceremony.. managed to kop some photos.. =)




see the coincidence?









den there was the farewell party! juniors were sweet.. i will miss them! so sad that the times together was so short.. only had a chance to know each other more towards the end.. well.. at least they gave me a positive end towards my co life in tjco.. =)








my cards to each of them too!


card from the juniors.. =) that AA tags were special passes into the esplanade! hahaa!


yeah! dizi section! xD

national day celebration!
it was really terrible at tj this year cause it was just a sing along session and nothing else. no performance and some songs can't even be played. what a disappointment! =( but still, i love the national day songs! only those in the previous previous years one! recently ones are not so nice! tj had made the largest spore flag out of bottle caps this yr, it looks quite awesome but i have no pic of it.. =/

after tt went to eat eighteen chefs with my classmates! yea! managed to introduce them good food at good prices! =D we all ate until so full and had fun there! whoo~! were quite high cam whoring there but photos with another friend who haven't upload them! =(

stayed at home during national day and watched the parade at home alone cause parents went to the big field there to watch ndp through big screen. din wan to go.. =X well.. was being a good child sweeping and mopping the floor so din managed to catch all the parade but this yr's de parade looks nice. =)

jinxiao's visit back to spore! =D

met him earlier on wed the week he came back to spore for lunch with jie si and vanessa opp tj! =) haha! he still looks the same! and he over ride the bus stops lor! too long nv come back alr! 4 years! den after tt we sneak him into tj without being notice. van was so cool and calm unlike me and jie si.. =X thanks to the car! ppl look at him like a foreigner.. but he was so popular in tj! know so many ah ppl ma..

den we had dinner on fri night at 85! =D most of us were there! den after dinner, walked with jin xiao to ah stadium gate to retrieve his necklace tt he forgot to take in the afternoon.. it was like 11plus pm at night and he climb over the gate and fence! looks like a total spiderman, fast and efficient! BUT, we were so unfortunate that we kena caught by the police! =/ have to admit tt i was really panicky at first and in the state of shock, but huiling was so cool and calm lor! haha.. luckily we got through. hao xian! if not penalty for trespassing could be heavy!






the spider man in action 1


the spider man in action 2 - the fence is really high!


socks is upset with me for me useless phone! =(


look at huiling's face! hahaa! =P






jin xiao, we await ur return! come back quickly!

had a happening week.. the syf closing ceremony is over... =( hmm.. well.. at least it all ended great. hahaa.. mon was the rehearsal and tt was crap.. =X other schs were great, like the shi cheng xu qu from nas and the tai yang from syco! the drummers were super imba!! =D hahaa.. then there came thurs the actual day!!

we were let off quite late at 3.50pm cause the concert was at night but i din wan to miss chem remedial so i stayed on.. but i am already feeling quite nervous in class.. lol.. so huang zhang tt i finally decided to leave halfway through the remedial.. hehee.. guess ms goh can see tt.. =X it was after all a prestigious performance to be able to perform at the esplanade right? yea.. and i had to blow tt solo part.. =/ was quite bored while waiting at the corridor at the backstage! we dun have a holding room for people but only for the instrument casing unlike 3 yrs ago when i was back there! AHHH!! AWESOME MEMORIES! xD the 50th anniversary concert! AND GUESS WHAT! ITS EXACTLY THE SAME DATE 30 JULY 2006 AND 30 JULY 2009!! heheee.. well.. i guess this is really going to be the last one for me.. last performance and not to say at the esplanade.. the concert is really worth is i think. 5 bucks for a 3 hour concert put up by the better schs and with splendid songs! there wasn't full house but it looks quite filled though.. too bad its on a thurs night, if not there could be more ppl.. =)

OH YA! I WAS REALLY ANGRY WITH MYSELF FOR FORGETTING TO BRING A CAMERA ALONG!!! I REMINDED MYSELF ON MON BUT I FORGOT!!! =((((((((((((((((((( so dun have any photoss.. can only kop a few from others.. soooooo sad.. RARRRRR!!! oh well.. no choice.. wad a waste! i wan to post some photos but stupid blogger dun allow me!! =( another day den.. it all ended quite late tt night and we only reached sch at ard 11pm.. haha.. almost 12am when i reached home.. wished tt there wasn't sch on fri.. =X

and so, i felt like a zombie on fri.. din do my tuition hw which i din get to receive the answers and once agn disappoint my tutor and felt super guilty for not finishing my chem tutorial + study group hw.. haiz.. i really wonder how did the rest do it?? =(

sat was the nanyang concept test.. screw it up of course because i din study at all not like some of my friends.. physics was a waste of time and money. practically hopeless tt i dun even think i can get 10 our of 60. chem was much better than physics of course.. and this thing took up the whole sat.. =(

today tried to do some work but the pile doesn't seems to go lower but much higher as the days pass.. =(( having a new timetable which sux cause my early fri is gone!!! =(( it is now ending at 5.30pm for all j2s cause of some protected time lectures.. hope at least this fri we will still get half day despite the cancel of the ndp celebration.. oh! this morning, my chem tutor send me a msg to ask me to rest well and prepared for the new wk cause i looked zonked out last wk.. hahaa.. was really touched and surprised to see tt.. i am motivated to do well for chem!! she is really a super nice teacher! x)

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