i really hate j2 life man! everything just seems so screw up now! =( why am i always lagging behind time and the others?? why am i so inefficient and needing more slp than everyone else? even the used to slackest person now is so hardworking and faster and ahead! why am i still standing at the same spot when all others are running faster and faster? and above all, my brain is the slowest and weakest! =(

just realized that my concepts are quite weak all these years and i have been learning crap and dead stuffs.. A level is really not as simple as what we think and really need the concepts.. wad am i going to do now den? too much things to catch up with the ever increasing piles of work to do! which one shld i choose to do? really disappointed with my maths test which i just pass and the rest getting their As. i just want to find an excuse to relieve myself of the fact that my maths is really weak by blaming on my poor English. just dun wan to admit it.. haiz.. =(

being sick was just another excuse i used last week for my inefficiency.. a way to escape from reality for just a while.. i need the motivation and courage to carry on positively.. day by day, prelims is drawing nearer..