A test for the helmet:

Knowing that the wall is ahead, put on the helmet and drove straight into it. The helmet determines the future direction of the driver.

新领悟：根本不应该有任何期望才不会有失望。

为何明知山有虎，偏向虎山行呢？是所谓的道义吗？为何明知道结果还要让自己再一次去面对同样的局面呢？原来我根本没我想像中的那么坚强。理智上完完全全的了解，就过不了自己心里的那一关。人们常说时间能补偿一切，但我想对我来说不管用。是时候我该适着改变自己的想法和心态。如果再来一次，让我有选择性的话，我想我没有勇气做出同样的决定。

同样的，有些事往往都出乎预料。没期望真的没那么失望。心里固然是好受些，但其实这是在逃避。而我，我想我选择了逃避。

另外，只要不比较，我相信人生一定会更美好。但我想我做不到。

perhaps i should not have pluck up the courage to see the answers. so dead this time. i seriously think i need to retake that module. not joking.

to think i just regain my appetite today and satisfy my craving at 85 for dinner. all hopes are dash. i have a very bad feeling for this semester. i am really afraid when i need to register for my modules and when the results come. how to enjoy the holidays?

kill me please.

DAMN IT! WHY AM I SO CARELESS???? it's a bad start. :@:@:@:@:@:@:@ angry with myself! from a potential pass to infinite uncertainty. :( shall starve myself as a punishment and relieve some angriness in me.

gosh, tell me what am i doing please.

finally had my bit of exercise after 6 months ever since FOC. but exercise 1 hour, paralysed 1 week. =.= is it worth? =/

cca is burning up my weekends until mid april. =( and mid term is next week alr! the sem is halfway through and studies have been lag by half the sem.. but i am having an enriching sem so far besides studies. trying to enjoy life now and spend more time with family if possible.

the world is really getting more crazy. disasters are here once again. japan's earthquake has created tsunami and explosion of nulcear plants which are affecting so many people out there and so many deaths.. tragic once again. =( praying for all those suffering. 人生好脆弱.

it makes me think of this: is 2012 really going to be the end of the world?

last week have been very busy everyday with doing keychains for canvassing. just 1 more day and it will be over. although there has been slp deprive but i guess it was fun and great to work with those people. =) i don't want to go back to study life although i know i have to and need to. seriously, i don't think i am 读书的料. sigh.. 没有心读书啊！怎么办？？？

just now, got a friend who told me that she and our other friends think i have changed.. is tt a gd thing? i guess i am much more talkative now.. but she sounds like i have changed for the worse. did i? :( people do change. that's normal. but have i change for the worse? =(